:: Birthdays! ::

ooooo bulan May mmg mengeringkan wallet saye.
Happy Birthday to the followings:

Azree Zharif Ozair & Elly Azlin Abdullah
May 8th

Mohd. Ezzany Yusof
May 12th

Sharifah Khairiyah
May 18th

Matthew
May 23rd

Aiman Sya'aban
May 28th

Quraisyah and Me!!!
May 30th

Amira
May 31st

wish cukup lah eh? takde duit laa....hehehheheehe
again, have a glorious birthday u guys!!!

Lotsa luv,
e'En

:: Self-esteem rosak tepi jalan ::

Lately i feel less important to everyone.
Entah mengapa, i have no answer to that; not even the slightest thought why.

It's kinda funny how u feel so important to someone (or probably a few bunch of people), and at a blink of an eye, u feel superbly inferior......to like everyone around....*sigh....

I've predicted a lot of things wrongly these past few weeks, and I haven't got any clue as to what actually went wrong. It's like i'm living in complete oblivion. Sounds stupid? yeah maybe to u. I am stressed out feeling this way, moreover that my bloody birthday's coming at the end of the month and I'm running super low on cash. Argh! why do i have to grow up?!!!

This is just SHIT.
SHIT.
SHIT.
SHIT.

:: Fantastic 5 and 3 Stooges ::

My dearS,

Fantastic 5
:: Liyana, Alia, Farah, Emmy and Farrah ::

3 Stooges
:: Feezabell, Khair Kerplunk and I-man ::

WE NEED our Chilli's session. WE HAVE to make it a monthly habit AGAIN, just like before WE ALL started working. I don't care. I miss the good ol' times... :(

:: Pertarungan ::

Chelsea vs Liverpool

sape yg bakal menentang M.U.
mari kita saksikan malam ini pada pukul 2.30am!
yahooooooooooo!!!!

I think it's Chelsea, because Droggers has issues with Benitez's accusations (regardless of the truth la kan), therefore Droggers would probably wanna beat the hell out of his team.
No offense Kopites! hehehehehehhe (look at my biasness, sampai tulisan pon blue karer! hehe)

May the best team wins!
.........nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh!

:: Glory Glory Man U! ::

And so,
I missed the game this morning, because both me and bob thought it was only gonna be tomorrow morning. Tapi takpe, am watching the replay right now, on 70th minute! ish.
And thanks to syak, via msn, i got soooo eager to get replays on astro! takpe, mcm syak kate, mlm ni mesti ade nye la replay....

And so,
Man Utd is one step closer to grab the UEFA trophy! GOooooooooooooOoO Reds!!!
ooOooOoo....mesti riena, erin, alia and eje tgh pegang parang tunggu nak pancung aku...
oOooOoooo!!! hahahahhaha

Oh, i'm so happy right now.
I want food. This calls for a celebration! ngehehehehhehe

:: Taik bin Pundek ::

How shitty is this.
Mom bought me an ORIGINAL Ms Office. Unfortunately, it's Basic.
And she ASSUMED that the bloody application software bundle would have AT LEAST all three; Ms Word, Excel and PowerPoint. Well, I won't blame her for assuming, coz I would too when it comes to BASIC!! And so before purchase, Mom asked, "Then what's the difference between Basic and Home version?" The sales lady replied with another question, "Erm, what u want to use for ah? study or office?"...Mom replied "Just for university studies, basic stuff". And so, Mom paid close to RM600 for that stupid bundle.

Mom got home, passed it to me, and I happily installed it. Then popped a super shitty statement "This version does not come with Ms Ppt, Access and Publisher. Only trial versions are provided with this bundle." Oh, I went berserk!!! I was bloody furious and started complaining endlessly! So the next day, Mom decided to go and maki the sales lady la, of course, for she had not explained PROPERLY what the fuck was the difference between the 2 versions kan! It seems the "Home" version yg ade those 3. Fuck u lady, F YOU!

But the bloody ass stupid b**** sales lady, who couldn't even speak English right, plus berlagak nak mati mcm tau smue bende, "Oh, mmg mcm tu...PPT only got trial."
Puki kau la only got trial. Cibai tu tetap cibai. Dah kate jual barang Original, have the courtesy to bloody explain habis2 la kat customers BODOH! Pastu nak tuka, die kate, "Cannot, u installed already, nothing we can do, because this one licensing maaaa". Fuck your maaa la taik!!!
U fucking pissed me off!

To my dear readers, kalau taknak jadi mangsa bangang jugak, be careful la bile nak pegi beli barang kat that stupid Mall kat Section 14 PJ k. Bloody useless! CIBAI. Kan dah banyak dosa aku.

:: Marriage. Is It THAT of BIG a Deal? ::

Why it is important to guys....
Maybe because :

1. They're just in a "gatal" mode, wanting to just get in bed with the girl quickly, without anyone criticizing, and without "limitations".
2. Their parents couldn't stop nagging because they're getting "OLD". Most of the time, parents can be really wrong about this, because to some, the older u are, the "yummier" u are. hik.
3. The girlfriend couldn't wait any longer and "threatened" to leave if did not see the huge-ass diamond ring around her finger within N months/years.
4. I believe it's time for me to have someone to take care of me, and give me some LOOOVEE! nyyeeehhh!
   

What it is important to girls...
Maybe because :

1. Their age and wrinkies are shouting "Woman, u'd better get ur ass laid before these skins cover 'em holes!"
2. "Baby, i think i'm pregnant. And we're both SUPER broke."
3. "Dad, he'll be working overseas. I'm scared i'll lose him."
4. "Oh SHIT. Dad's home!"
5. Mom, dad...We've been going out for years, and so far, u've witnessed how we complemented each other. We're both emotionally, physically and financially well. May I ask for THE permission?" Awwww..... :)
6. "Young lady, u've been stupendously oout of control, and I'm not gonna tolerate with this anymore! You're gonna obey my decisions!"
7. "Mom, dad, I don't think u would be happy with what I had in mind, because he's someone's husband. Therefore I fled and done it."
8. "Mom, he's FILTHY rich. U would wanna see me happy, right? And have him make u happy too?"
   

You see, I could be wrong, but these are the cases that I've seen happen amongst my circle of network. Guys, please do know this, the older u get, the wiser u are (usually, not ALL cases though!) and the more stable u are in terms of raising up a family well. That's why u see so many girls got caught up with older guys...sometimes girls are just frustrated with the young ones due their lack of judgements and poor behaviour. However, there are few young guys who could think and behave very well, and are willing to strive hard with u... And one more thing, sometimes you can't just be irritated with ur girlfriends for wanting to get married so much... Sometimes they're scared of losing someone they've given so much to, and sometimes also because they've reached that AGE, where it is wise to get married and have kids as to avoid having children with health complications.

There are therefore so many reasons when it comes to the big M. But are u with the right intentions?. Are u really ready with what ur gonna (or already have) committed to?.
Be wise with ur decisions...Let's not contribute to more broken marriage cases. Because it's hard, especially for the kids. Trust me, I've been through it, and seriously, I do not want my kids to ever go through it...EVER.

:: Kerja siap, suka hati! ::

Assignments --> DONE!
yeehhaaaa!!! sangat happy please!

Midterm paper-marking ---> almost there!
double yeehaaaa!!!

Just in time for Man U vs Barca! :)
Ala, cammane ni.....

Ronaldo vs Ronaldinho.....mane boleeee weeeiiiiiiii!!!
Let's see who wins!

Oh ya, p/s to Missy: Wake up and smell the roses la wei, tolong la....
High time for u to grow up and step into reality....
Enough is enough....malang dah timpa diri sendiri bertubi2 pon tak sedar2 lagi?...
adoi....i pray for the best la....tak dapek eden nak nolong *sigh*

:: Today, dalam sejarah ::

I am super tired.
I've done one assignment, which leaves me with another to go...ggrrrr....
I've yet to mark my students' midterm papers and assignments...double ggrrrrr.....
I can't wait to finish this up!
Sayang, I WILL make it up to u for all the losses of quality time. :( promise!

Nicole Castles and Jessica Philp,
Thank you sooo much for the great news! U guys made my day!
So, Alia, Emmy, Farah, Farrah, Aref, Zana, Fiza, Khair and Aiman, my Aussie friends are coming down this July 11th, so be prepared! We have LOADS of tours and fun stuff to organize!!! hehehehe

ok, now back to reality. Researccchhh!!!! gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

:: And so... ::

Your Keirsey Temperament Sorter Results indicate that your personality type is that of The Guardian^TM.

All Guardians share the following core characteristics:

• Guardians pride themselves on being dependable, helpful, and hard-working.
• Guardians make loyal mates, responsible parents, and stabilizing leaders.
• Guardians tend to be dutiful, cautious, humble, and focused on credentials and traditions.
• Guardians are concerned citizens who trust authority, join groups, seek security, prize gratitude, and dream of meting out justice.

Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply--and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses.

Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly--they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world.

Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap.

Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population, and a good thing, because they usually end up doing all the indispensable but thankless jobs the rest of us take for granted.

:: Kegilaan Domestic ::

Of course, we've all heard of the all-famous, hit TV series Gossip Girl.
And me and the girls went gagao over it the minute we started our very own marathon as soon as we purchased the DVD copies in Penang, during our last trip on CNY! hehehehe....

And many thanks to my dear Faiza, whom had put up a link to the series' "official" Gossip Girl site.
I'm enjoying it! yeehawww...Gooooo Shifilintit!!!

:: Seindah kata, Indah lagi perbuatan ::

Of course, actions speak louder than words, but do they always?...

Actions are forever infinite, and words are becoming that too...now why such little difference?....
Admit it, humans are never satisfied with a definite state. One has the tendency to take a leap and close an eye for whatever that may befell after. Obviously it is the need for change...now,

why change??

Change, is it really inevitable? Or is it really us, making it so?
Truthfully, I've not been quite satisfied with the depth of effects upon the changes i've made in life. Yes, I'm human, therefore I need MORE. Call me ungrateful, I have my reasons, and valid ones too.

Today is my last day as a permanent academician at LUCT, and my contract as a part-timer there starts next week. Yes, alhamdulillah, so far, my rezeki has not "putus-ed"...The shocking decision was due to my lack of rest and concentration, which significantly compromised my used-to-be excellent grades for the past 2 semesters. Oh, what have I done....

I will therefore start concentrating on my assignments by tomorrow. I have 2, due this Friday. So, I'm screwed.

:: Sum of Wishes ::

Dear Aref,

I'm sorry for I did not attend to Yeop's wedding....had so many things going on that I couldn't find time for KJ.... :( Anyway, do congratulate yeop for me k?

Dear Feezabelle,

Thank you for being my buddy, and I wish u all the happiness the world could possibly bring :)
Happy birthday sayangku Feeza!

Dear Zana,

I know this is cheating, but hell I don't care! Happy in advanced Birthday love! hehehhe
U know u can always count on me for anything...muah!

Dear B** 7170,

I can't wait to have u next week! hehehehhee....Yeah u guys, I've sold of my beloved W** 717 for a new (and down-graded), white Myvi! Now, how proud can I be?! With Papa's Waja traded in, and Mom's advanced payment, I've indirectly bought my very own, first car! hehehehheh Ewa, Muntz, i've officially joined ur club! hahahahaha.....

:: I did it! ::

And finally i did it...I've tendered my resignation last month, due to my average grades.
Shit.

Now i'm left with 7 other assignments to buck up the other 5.
Crap.

18th april marks my last day as a full-timer here. the week after changes my status quo.
I'll be a part-timer on contract basis...so, farewell dear employer, for u have not met my expectations.

The more i'm quitting, the more paperwork are being stacked up on my poor lil table.
Yiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

:: Serabut - an update ::

ok, i don't wanna talk more about this. it stresses me out. benci. take a look at the picture beside... tadaaa told ya it'll be disastrous! :P

Last Friday, our faculty held a food carnival and we had food from 8 different countries, if i'm not mistaken! :P anyway, it was fun. my lovely students were very supportive. :)

ooooo i like everyone of 'em! hahahah..i even ate horse meat!!!! yiiikkkeeessss well, it's softer and easier to chew than beef, but salty.....uurrrgghhh.... but it was alright! horse meat, apparently, is the most famous ingredient in Kazakhstan..heheh hell yeah, i got to taste it..

i even got to taste tuna, flew from iran, and chicken curry, cooked using spices all the way from india...the mash potato by my dear French student, was also awesome! (that's just because i'm a fan of potatoes! hahahah)..the food from Nigeria was awful in smell, but tasted OK. hehe...nina almost vomitted. and she was, for a second, a walking tomato..hahahhha....

oh, the Bangladesh-ian food; it was everything about RICE...hahaha...they serve rice and curry for main dish, and rice+yoghurt+milk+sugar(i think) for dessert! it was ok, but kinda weird having rice in a sweet white sauce...ngeehhh!!!

overall, everything was just GREAT GREAT GREAT!

P/S: Looking forward to the telematch for my foundation students this March 17th! yeehaaww!!!

:: Serabut ::

Today had to be the day of my PMS...
I was soooo determined on drafting my 2nd assignment when suddenly AFTER lunch that I felt like having my lower abdomen cut open. sakit sangat sangat.
And so, i HAD to buzz emmy on the all-reliable, one and only chat room provided by the almighty Google, asking her to accompany me to the super-expensive kiosk upstairs to get chocolates. Yes, chocolates help with your PMS ladies, do try it.

After 2 hours of munching on Cadbury and gulping quite-hot (this is like hotter than suam ok! lecur lidah tak pasal2!) plain water, i managed to put half of the pain away :)...and I started blogging... haha, so much for doing my assignment aye?

Attached below is a snapshot of my "workstation". Looks kinda neat aye? Wait til Monday comes... haaaa then it'll look intolerable, i swear.


P/S: Check out the row of files. They're mine, and they keep me safe from Brandon stalking me all day...hahahahhah kidddiinnggg!

:: PeNaNg UpDaTe! ::

here are one-spot clips of where we were...and of course, featuring my all-handsome hubby Mohd. Khairul Nizam...nyeeeeehehehhe

oh gayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

:: Congrats Rozarina & Faizal! ::

Ladies and gents, i present to u.....

The no-more-single Riena! hehehehheheheh

'Twas just last Sunday that I took this picture....Akhirnya, selamat juga berkahwin kawan2 ku...
Tons and tons of congrats to Riena and Tiong, also to Riena's lil sister Erin and her longterm boyfriend Pali for their engagement last Saturday...I'm very happy for u guys!
Riena, i L.O.V.E. your backdrop ok! sangat cute the butterflies laaaaa..geram! ikutkan hati, mmg nak cabuuuuut je satu n bawak balik umah! hehehe....Anyway, thanks so much for inviting both me and Bob...

Semoga berkekalan kebahgiaan hingga ke cucu cicit (orang asyik kate sampai ke anak cucu, macam takleh last sampai cicit plak kan... :P)

Have fun my dear newly weds!

Note: sorry, takde gamba hang ngan tiong...ni pon amik ngan my phone! heheheheh

:: Agenda Terkini ::

Kerja ni memenatkan, kan? :) oh well...
I got my first paycheck today, and as expected, super low wage! ye la, sape suruh masuk keje 2nd week kaaann...nyeeeeeeeeeeehhh....
my first lecture also started today, and it was fun :)

So, papa and aunty, no belanja makan for u guys this month! hehe
4/5 of my salary buta2 habis on food, toll, fuel, parking and car servicing! uwaaaaaaaaaa!!!
takpe2, raincheck bulan depan okaaayy?? hehehe
ye la,bulan depan not only korang dpt makan best2 free, yg memberi "allowance" pon dah terbalik ok! hehehehehhe....

anyway, i'm enjoying my job...already drafting and researching for my first 2 assignments for my Master's, due next Friday...so...WISH ME LUCK!

:: Penat. ::

My final semester for my Master's course starts today.
And so did the hand-in of course modules. So. imagine the chaos of the 1st week of class for returning students + lecturers running back n forth the management office to amend course outlines + students asking for course advises + lecturers printing module outlines etc etc.

Penat.Serabut.Kelam-kabut.Saye tak suka.
Nak balik jumpa sayang saye, pastu gi jogging ngan Aud. Lagi bagus.

:: a VeRy b|mBo-|sh eNtRy ::

i've just cut my hair today! yeehaawww!!!
nasib baek ikut my instincts...
alih2 sampai office, my colleagues ckp "oi, tan sri nak jumpa staff baru pkol 4! nasib baek kau buat rambut! mcm dah tau2 je kan!" ahahahaha

yes, the very the bimbo kan?! oh well, i'm just killing time, waiting for lunch.
Lapar.nak.mati.

Menu for today : last night's garlic naan + chinese dishes. Yum!

:: Updates From Ur New Academian ::

today marks the 1st week of my employment...
The week has been ok, with supportive colleagues, but with gatal students...ngeeehhh!!!
I barely have time for myself, haven't been jogging nor futsal-ing...just yesterday that we decided to have a 2-hour futsal game... :P
I guess from today onwards, i should go for a jog right after work..hehe...i am getting FAT... i hate it!

To riena, i'm sorry i can't make it to ur akad, i will be on duty for LUCT's convocation... but i promise to come for ur sanding k!
p/s : sorokkan and simpankan skit choc cake for me! nanti aud telan smueeeee!!!! hehehehe

Anas, i'm sorry i had to cancel Starbucks, was caught up with so many things....

I'm loving my life...My dear Bob has been so supportive, tolerating so much with my mood swings and my abnormal hunger for food :P... Me appreciate it very much :) Sayang kamu!

My friends are all busy with work...With Farah busy working and saving money for her God-knows-when wedding, Alia on her 3rd week at Maybank, Farrah forever complaining on clients at True Fitness and Emmy with her new appointed job as a tutor here, at LUCT too...Fiza and Muntz, striving hard for their ACCA, sampai susah sgt nak jumpa now..uhhuu...Alif berlagak, mentang2 dah jadi celebrity kat Media Prima hahah...Khair, kerja yg tak sudah2 kat sek16 tu and my dear Aiman, PLEASE do ur best and graduate fast! heheheh....All the best u guys! Kumpul duit nak kawin weih! hehehehhe

My CNY was just awesome...Had a 4d 3n trip to Penang, we stayed at the freaking 21st floor of an apartment in Gurney Drive (gayat nak mati, but loads of thanks to Sofie!)...Kerja kami; makan, makan, jalan, makan, tido! hehehe...oh, we did have fun..with all the jalan2 and shopping2, sangatlah memuaskan hati...PLUS, we played charades with the boys! hahahah We girls rule!!! The boys sucked at it (except for A.J. yg sangat pandai berlakon and describing things, and Sofie yg pandai berlakon jadi SHEEP) hahhaahhahahahaha....

Oh well, hope to have another trip, but not so soon i guess! :)

update : sesape nak ber-chatting ngan saye, sila lah add saye kat gtalk okaaayy? :P

:: eMpLoYmEnT ::

as many of u are already aware of...
i'll be reporting for my first permanent job next monday, Feb 11th at LUCT Cyberjaya!
yeeehhaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
alhamdulillah....

wish me luck u guys!

:: a CoMbO ::

STORY 1 - On A Reply

For the last time, my dear readers...

This is my blog...
My words.
My thoughts.
My feelings.
My ideas.
My perceptions.
My journal.
My EVERYTHING...

So.
If u feel like reading, then read la, mmg i tak stop u pon...
Tapi nak maki2 i kat dlm blog, laaahai manusia, jgn la buat your childishness tu too evident.
Yang u bersusah payah nak cari url blog i, pastu bukak blog i and bace, pastu click "comment", pastu type, pastu click "submit" smue tu buat pe?...really, buat pe?
Buat penat and buang mase ade la, btol tak? Oh well, takpe la, since u LOVE wasting ur time for ME, ok la, i'm flattered. Thanks :)

STORY 2 - On Life

I am still bumming around, yes hehehe..so, jgn la tanye2 lagi...
CNY ni nak gi trip with 8 other friends! yaahhoooo!!! I guess it'll be the last trip as "singles" for some of us, ehem...hehehhe
Class starts this Feb 25th, argh can't wait to finish up!
Been patching up with old friends, turned out to be totally superb!
Also made some new friends, lagi la best!
More and more people for futsal and outings, oh best.
Rindu fiza, khair and aiman...smue hilang...bile laaaa nak lepak ni weeeiiiii...
Anas hazwan, mane Starbucks saye haaaaaaa??? :P
Dah marathon Heroes season 1, nak angkut season 2 from Muntz plak hehehhehe...

STORY 3 - On Health

I've been clean from nicotine for quite sometime now, and i'm darn proud of it! yeehhaaa!! (Diana, u lost! ngahahahha)....
Futsal and jogging have almost been a daily routine for me and Aud. Aud, kite jadi Hilary Swank la mcm dalam Million Dollar Baby tu..heheheh
Have not been watching my diet though, makan je la ape ade depan mata please...

I guess that's about it! heheheh...i'll update more, as soon as i get something interesting to do.. hehehehhe Nite nite sleep tight!

:: My tWo cEnTs ::

to think that we can own all the greatness and whatever-ness in the world, does sound a bit ridiculous don't u think?...

watched a movie, "the guardian" on my lovely flatscreen, provided by the one and only astro. the phrase that was repeated over and over again from the movie caught my attention and had me relating it to my surroundings and the inevitable agendas, be it past, current and/or future.

" Save the ones u can save, and learn to let go..."

The all handsome Ashton of course, asked again "How do u know of which ones to save? How do u decide on who lives and who doesn't?"

Good set of questions.

In life, it's more like save ur dignity, pride, MONEY, blablabla...
I believe every sane human being shouldn't be too hard on him/herself...achieve and grab what u can, don't over do it, because if u do, it'll turn around and "eat" u up...macam islam kate, "berhentilah makan sebelum kenyang"...sbb kalau makan sampai rase dah kenyang, baru nak stop, mmg high chances u'll have stomach discomfort, or worse, muntah balik....

everything has a limit.to what extent, i do not know for sure...differs from a person to the other.
i never knew a limit on patience. i kept telling people that there's a fine line between patience and stupidity, and i, myself have so many times, crossed-over to the S line...bersabar lebih2 sampai jadi lurus bendul, senang2 kene pijak kepale and kena tipu dek orang...now i'm no longer mad at people who did those to me, but superbly angry at myself for not realizing this matter a looonnggg time ago. well, i can't turn back time now can i?...

Life IS a bitch. but being a bitch in a bitchy life is just plain horrendous. very unpleasant scene.
what can we do to change this? what significance does it bring if we were able to amend it? does it even bother u, on living a life that ur not mostly contented with?

i think i wanna change the world. slowly, of course. and only to those who think that this world needs to change for the better.also to those who believe they could work with me, day and night. and only to those who don't easily pass judgments on people, especially people like me.

:: BoBbY cHaCoNeZ ::

listening to bubbly by colbie caillat...
today..yes today...

i realized that my life went haywire, unmanageable and indescribably pathetic because i've been so...serious, and strict on myself...for reasons that i've finally figured out...

my past.

the insecurities, and everything negative, were so heavily influenced by my denials, and the refusal to let go of things that weren't meant to be, mine.

Mohd. Khairul Nizam, this entry is specially dedicated to u..be it that u read it some time soon, or donkey years to come, i won't care...as long as u will get to this one day...

U have been so kind, devoted, honest, truthful, and everything that every girl wished for in a man...u possess them all. This sounds cheesy, i know...but i can never escape the truth, not this time...U've never left me worrying, or doubting your loyalty towards the relationship, even when we were 4,800 miles apart. Now that's what i call a miracle, to me, because i've always had bad histories on trust issues.

U see...since we met, everything falls into place, as if u've promised God to help me lead an inspiring life and be grateful of what i have, and what i've lost...The fact that YOU made everything goes perfectly, everytime, makes me feel like i was born PERFECT.

Call me crazy, but when that suddenly hits me after 23 years of living, i got scared...
Scared that this may be a lie...because it's too perfect...
Scared because this could be too temporary that I won't have the chance to even realize how lucky i am, let alone thanking you for crossing my path...
Also, scared that someone may just intrude when things get just a little bit rough, hence leading me to singlehood once more. Not that I hate being single, but of course, it's a preference to most human beings to have a life companion.

Thank you, Mohd. Khairul Nizam..i could never ask for more :)

:: SuRpr|sE! ::

ehem..since the year started off being fairly kind to me, i've decided to be kind to myself..

and so...

i took my last nicotine+tar+otherhazardouschemicals today, at 5pm.

wasn't because of any bets/deals/resolution crap. This is just plain me, talking with content.

Ladies and gentlemen, i have officially quit smoking! weehooo!!!

p/s: aunty elly, do spread the news to papa. he'll be so proud of me. hahahah

:: OnE f|Ne BeG|nN|nG ::

alhamdulillah, 2008 started well....
just had my first job interview as a technology development researcher, and yes, it went well...
I got the thumbs up on the spot, but after some negotiations, the lady was kind enough to give me time...to think it over and really, REALLY consider lecturing...

YES, I've just been called up for another interview as LECTURER at LUCT (weehooo! big bucks big bucks!), this coming Monday....aaaaa takuuutttt!!! hey, my master's degree isn't a waste after all! yeehhaaaaaaaa!!! Come to think of it, quite young to be a lecturer isn't it? ngeehhh!! eh, hoping lebih2 plak, sekali tak dpt, nangis! hehehe...xpe, dah ade backup plan baeknye! ngeheheheh

Hope all goes well...pray for me u guys!!! Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim....

I LOVE MY LIFE, INDEFINITELY!

:: PeNuTuP t|rA| ::

2007 has been fairly kind to me; filled with great memories i must say....

so....

Not looking back, HELLO 2008! Let's rock the year! yeeehhhaaaaaaaaa!!!

:: b|tChY mOdE ::

some people are just shit-ass poyos, don't u think?
kesian mereka...kurang attention kot...ke culture-shocked?

yes, i'm in a very bitchy mode.
my bum's cursing me each day for sitting and flipping channels on Astro like on an average of 7 hours a day. that's just freakin bad.

i need a job.i am restless and going insane for bumming around.
final semester's only commencing on Feb 25th. hell, what am i supposed to do in the meantime? someone PLEASE recruit me.i am turning into a zombie.

:: r|nDu... ::

a month before i came back to Malaysia (and this time FOR GOOD ya...), i kept telling my family and friends of how i long for the smell of polluted Malaysian air and everything else...

And of course, all of them said the same thing... "Once ur back home, u'll be saying that u miss Melbourne and wanting to go back there... :)"

Well, part of it is true...I DO miss Melbourne....
but not the whole experience...
I miss my Aussie friends...how they've been sooooo friendly, helpful and un-racist....
People kept telling me that Aussies dislike Asians...no way man....no freakin way....
My friends treat me just the same...the sweetest thing that they've ever said was "Ur no more an Asian...ur one of us..ur an Aussie, and it'll stay that way even after u've gone back to Malaysia"...
God knows how flattered I was....thanks so much u guys....

Apart from that, the other thing that I miss about Melbourne was...
being the chef of the house...heheheh....i've never enjoyed cooking so much....
i've learnt sooooo much....even made my own fusion food...hahaha and it never tasted better!
hehehheh I kept telling aunty elly "Maybe i should take up a part-time course la...rase cam nak jadi chef plak...hehehe" and yes, i told Bob "The best hantaran (if we were to get married la kan) is a whole collection of Jamie Oliver's! hehehhe"...
Nasib baik la he said no prob...since he adores my cooking so much..hahahha selamat aku... :P

Oh well...Nicole, Jess and Sal are coming down in January..can't wait!!!
Harap time tu takde la busy sangat kerja..else Bob la mangsa bawak diorg berjalan.. ngahahha

Ok, back to studying! hehehheeh

:: TAG! I'm It! ::

I'm only doing this sebab nampak mcm FUN hahahha..no more tagging please!
U have to list smue bende that's of the first letter of your first name, in which case mine is L from Liyana la kan... nyehehe..Note : boy/girl name xleh same ngan ur given name. Cheers!

1. Famous Singer: Lionel Ritchie
2. Four Letter Word: LAME
3. Street: Lygon (kat Melbourne please! haha)
4. Colour: Lilac
5. Gifts/Present: Laptop!
6. Vehicle: Lexus babbyyy!! (Eventhough sbnarnye Lexus under Toyota kan, but wth!)
7. Things in Souvenir Shop: Lanyards
8. Boy Name: Liam
9. Girl Name: Laila
10. Movie title: Little Mermaid (gile dulu tgk ulang2 kali mase kecik sampai tape rosak! haha)
11. Drink: Limau ais???
12. Occupation: Lawyer (or more like Liar when it comes to me! nyehehehhe)
13. Celebrity: Lily Allen
14. Magazine: Lelaki Macho? hahahha (i am NOT a fan of mags)
15. U.S. City: Lubang Jubur (sbb diorg smue mcm tu kan? tak ke? hahahahhhaha)
16. Pro Sports: Layang2-ing (wei, pro tau kat msia ni, igt senang ke? :P)
17. Fruit: Lemony lemony me likeeyy
18. Reason for Being Late to work: lupa nak set alarm (u'll c urself getting fired after that)
19. Something you throw away: Lipas! (dari dalam kete of course! hahaha)
20. Something you shout: Lembab mcm babi! Sape ajar kau bawak kete?!


Skang saye tag SEMUORG dalam list saye, kecuali miss paperheart and khairiyah nyahahah

:: Me, sPeAk|nG ::

if only words could unwind these twisted faiths in me...
things could've been much easier as days go by...

if only i had the liberty to speak and express myself without hurting or aggravating souls around me...
it would've been so much more de-stressing and uplifting...

if only i had all the richness in the world; monetary, well-being, mentality, knowledge and health...
i would be the one they call Mother Theresa of all mankind...

if only no one perceived me as a scorn...
i wouldn't have been compelling for happiness....

happiness........
an aspect i've been longing for since forever...

:: |d|oCrAcY. hAvE wE aPeD oUrSeLvEs? ::

Negarakuku composer Namewee whose YouTube antics caused an uproar, came under fire from Puteri Umno chief Datuk Noraini Ahmad.
In her policy speech at the Puteri Umno assembly yesterday (Nov 6), Noraini said the wing would not accept his apology as he had gone overboard.
She also said the wing was shocked by a youth who burned the national flag in Kuala Tterengganu on Sept 8.
"We see this provocative act as the action of a traitor of the nation".
On the brain drain experienced by Malaysia, Noraini said if students fail to come back and serve the country once they completed their studies, they should be penalised with higher interest on her loans.
"To avoid brain drain, local universities must be strengthened to be on par with international standards."
On the increase of paedophilia cases, Noraini said parents should be responsible for taking care of their children.
She said other than meting out heavy punishment on criminals, parents should also be punished under the Child Act 2001, if they were found to be responsible for the harm that befell their children.
Noraini also commented on the abuse of information and communication technology by bloggers who insulted the King and Islam.
She said the Sedition Act, Internal Security Act, Officials Secrets Act and Printing Presses and Publications Act must be enforced to the fullest as irresponsible acts by bloggers caused tension among people of different races and religions.
She said as the majority race, the bumiputra's effort to defend their fate is a national mission and should not be seen as racist or an effort to benefit just one race.

--> article taken from Nuraina's blog

Yes indeed I wasn't around when all these political stuff happened..
and like Nuraina, I couldn't BELIEVE the amount of shit that's going around Malaysia.
Not to say that our politicians are total CRAP...but hey, admit it, they're getting bad to worse!!! The Puteri Umno chief is absolutely out-of-date and possesses the mindset of an 80 year old who has never been to higher ed. I'm sorry, not like i'm THAAATT smart, but HELLO, i'm a 23 year old student, that has been overseas and looked at how the world (other than Malaysia itself as one) perceive Malaysia...How they've always pinpointed the stupidity and lack of judgements in our so called democratic, advanced country...Woman, you've just placed Malaysia higher in idiocracy ranking!

Punishing parents for negligence...hmmm...first of all..
kita ni semua manusia, tak sempurna...
U nak ke, ur freaking mom/dad ikat u mcm anjing? or letak cctv on ur forehead, backside etc?
Where the hell are the human rights? ape, smuorg not entitled to privacy anymore ke? is that what ur suggesting my dear "wise" one?

Threatening bloggers with Sedition Act la ISA la ape la...
HELLO...kate ade freedom of speech? celah mane?
Everyone has the right to pour their thoughts, feelings, whatsoever...we are CIVILIANS...
Haven't heard of it? gi carik dictionary.
It's not as if we're broadcasting war plans/tactics/strategies to the world, or if i may say "allies".
Professional criminals don't do that wei..they're not as stupid...everyone knows, no matter how "secure" they say the Internet is nowadays, there's always a crooked hole somewhere. Why? Because Internet was created by humans u moron...it's NOT PERFECT. Hackers came from the same people that provided u with ur so called high-end security policies. Where have all the Mahathir-like people gone? Not to say i'm being bias or choosy or whatever, but admit it, Mahathir is a man of his words, knows what to say, brought this small country of ours to stand in the eyes of the world and so much more. His wisdom and charisma, who could ever replace? Noraini? not even close to the letter W or C...more like to the letter B of taik kerbau...

Dear politicians, as a CIVILIAN, i beg u, all of u, to be more CIVILIZED, WISE and UNBIAS.
Please stop being so freaking narrow-minded before Malaysia drowns and disappear from the world, economy and politics atlases.

:: HoMe sWeEt HoMe ::

feels so good to smell the familiar air...
feels so good to be near my friends and family...
most of all, feels great to be near my sayang again...
i've made a promise not to leave u again sayang, and i won't...

friends, let go do some PARTAAAAYYY!!!!!!

Melbourne was great...the experience, the friends, the culture, the food...
priceless...
Was crying endlessly in the plane, on the way home to KL...
felt just like the first time i left for Melbourne...
Shed some tears with darling Nicole and Sally...
God, how i've grown attached to them...
oh well...i guess i'll be seeing u guys next year!

Thanks everyone..
for the love and support when I was away...
and all the welcoming text messages as soon as i turned on my phone on my favourite service provider...heheh

Next stop...WORK! neeehhh...holiday with my sayang and friends first! yahhoo!!!

:: RaMbL|nGs... ::

love is an experience.
love is pervasive.
love is never obsolete.

love could create an obtrusive content, but most of the time, scar.

He...
a presence that permeated my heart with faith, love and dignity.
most of the time, i wish everyone could feel as lucky.

sometimes my life is just inspiring, impecable..sometimes too viscous and yucky.
someone once said that u shouldn't screw urself up just because ur miserable.
what if it's inevitable?
would that then mean that there are chances of u suffering from bipolar disorder?
how much is too much, how minimal is too minimal?

challenges could be horrendous.
driving absolutes to contemplations.
making one oblivious of own deviated principles.
could life be any much harder?

life is a continuum.
love is a continuum.
sanity is a continuum.
but sadly death is a one off.
people seek for an absolute answer.
but when given one, they want a continuum.
fickle.we are.always.

:: 2 tHe bRoKeN-hEaRtEd... ::

This song makes me weep at times..don't know why though...heh...

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

:: Happy Ending by Mika ::

:: tHe NeVeReNd|nG ::

we can never get what we want...
god has better plans for us...
everything happens for a reason...

The old, simple sayings...how i wish things could just be that simple...
would definitely make my life a hell lot easier...

Tomorrow's our final presentation day/Board Meeting/Industry Network proposal....
i've not rehearsed, therefore i should do it soon...
oh ya, daylight savings starts today, so i'm 3 hours ahead...boorriinnggg....

i've been a bit emotional today...overwhelmed i guess...
how i wish i could forward my life and not go through obstacles of adolescence and maturity...
how i wish i don't have to strive so hard for everything...
or maybe i was just overdoing it....

tuhan kuatkanlah semangatku...through highs and lows...ups and downs....
help me be thankful for what i have...
help me to embrace the paths that u've set for me...
help me to not become a fiasco...

:: SeLaMaT hAr| LeBaRaN ::

hey isn't it funny...
from the word "lebaran", it could mean "festive" (kot!), AND
LEBAR-an..hahaha mmg time ni la smue tiba2 jadi "lebar" balik sebab makan teruk2! hahahah... anyway, to my family and friends AND acquaintances, selamat hari raye, maaf zahir dan batin... saye mohon maaf atas segala benda yang might have hurt your feelings..yes, saye ni mulut laser skit, saye sedar... i'm really sorry...i have been giving stupid reasons for everything, and i realized that i'm a grown woman, and that's not what i was supposed to do....

thanks for everything, all of u...halalkan makan minum saye...Aunty Elly, please tell Papa that this is the only gift that I could offer him, which is of course my achievements, good behaviour and discipline...It all comes back to him, for he has provide me with unbias love, neverending support and guidance, and of course his wisdom..

have a safe journey balik kampung everyone...please be safe...looking forward to seeing u guys in November...

saye tak beraye...byk sgt assignments..adeh...well, i guess u gotta do what u gotta do ey!

Lotsa luv from Australia...Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh walridhuannuhu wajannah walmaghfirrah... :) byk sikit pahale saye..asyik buat dosa je.. hehehhe

p/s: Don't even think of NOT giving me angpaus! i DESERVE them! hahahaha...oh CHAOS, i'll be home for good soon!!! can't wait!!yeay!!!

:: aN aBsTrAcT mOmEnT ::

Have u ever felt so happy in your life that you felt like making friends with the people who screwed your life and self-esteem?

Have u ever felt so much hatred and jealousy that u just wanted to screw these people back?

Have u ever felt so calm that u wanted to just let go of everything, let the world age itself through time?

Have u ever felt that sudden rush of adrenalin and energy that u could actually change the world with a snap of a finger?

Have u ever felt so worthless, as a result of being so mad and angry at yourself for not making the right decision?

Have u ever felt so in love that the world just stops spinning and time stops ticking for u?

Have u ever felt a massive regret over doing something that was just a game of ur own heart?

Now...have i ever NOT tell you how grateful I am to be where I am, with what I have and who I share my happiness with? I have, haven't I..but sometimes it feels as if a lifetime of thanking and mentioning the people involved in my world just doesn't seem enough...I owe everyone that has walked in and outta my life, for helping me grow, making sense of everything, thinking wisely and maturedly and not being bias towards practically everything in life anymore...

Thank you..u know who u are...

:: Double Tag, Screw U Guys! ::

Thanks to my stepmom n uncle...I've been tagged by both, which is superbly APPALLING...
shit..how do i do this...i'd better combine both aye? Don't complain, i'm doing it!
and again, SCREW U GUYS... :P

5 things I have in my huge-ass black bag
1. Guess Wallet, with ZERO Aussie cash, but with RM9 (i thought i had RM19.. someone must've stolen my RM10..dammit!)

2. Sony Ericsson pink z610i mobile phone and HP iPAQ rw6815 PDA phone
3. Nivea strawberry flavoured Lip Balm and one cheap ass eye liner (which i've only used once)

4. Surf,Dive n Swim pencil case (saye student, terima kasih)

5. I know Aunty Elly won't approve this, but nak tau sangat kan, My oxygen "sticks" Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free ngahahhaahha

5 things in my wallet
1. RM9 cash

2. Cards - License, MyKad, Myers, HSBC-VISA supplementary credit card, AmBank prepaid Mastercard, Swinburne Student ID, HRC All Access, Commonwealth Bank, Maybank & CIMB ATM cards, Disney World (final access to Disneyland USA, unlimited period) & MAS Enrich.

3. Receipts - credit/debit cards, tuition fees, various goods purchases.

4. Pictures - Me and Alia, Papa

5. Business Cards - Abg Ebi's, Claudine's, Eddie's, Lorraine's dan sebagainya.

5 things in my favourite room

1. Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free carton..ngahhahhahahah

2. Pink and Red queen-sized bed

3. Stacks of handbags/slingbags

4. Collection of perfumes

5. Collection of watches

Five things I would like to do

1. Finish this semester with Distinction average

2. 1-week stay with sufficient cash in Mauritious Island

3. Bring Bob for a week trip to MovieWorld & DreamWorld in Gold Coast :)

4. Get a bloody good job, at the same time finishing my Master's with flying colours

5. Kumpul duit, maintain kete, bayar umah, KAHWIN. terima kasih.

Five things I'm currently on

1) Cracking my brains for my assignments

2) Defrosting chicken for tonight's buka puasa, mee hoon goreng basah n pedas! yaahooo!!

3) Saving money to pay up my soon-to-be Nokia E90 Communicator (1/2 sponsored by Papa!)

4) Saving money for next Wednesday's class trip to OCAV estate in Fitzroy, then Laksa lunch (ye, saya tak puasa time tu sebab period, hahha), and dessert at Max Brenner with Ewa n Eski after "buka puasa" at their house. weehhoo!!!

5) Ready, Steady, Cook show on TV...my favourite...been watching it religiously ok!

There you go Aunty Elly and Abg Ebi...DON'T PULL THIS "TRICK" AGAIN ok?!
To others out there, this will be my last "TAG" session..screw u..penat ok nak list! hahahah

Next up, I'm tagging NURHAFIZAH, KHAIRIYAH, AIMAN SYA'ABAN, ARIEF and RIENA...
kahkahkahkah...

:: UpDaTe ::

Sorry u guys..
My iPAQ has already been grabbed by Farrah...
heheh thanx babe!
c u in november!

:: HP iPAQ rw6815 ::

For sale, at RM1,500, negotiable...
Bought in January 2007, original HP set, comes with all the default items in box.
Storage card upgraded to 1 gig.
Still in good conditions, no scratch whatsoever.
To enquire, do leave a comment or e-mail me at liyana7@msn.com

Thanks!

:: QuEst|oN oF tHe dAy! ::

I was talking to my dear cousin, Fendy on MSN this morning..
He asked me a question (in which he was just being dumb la kan)...

"E'en, why do we go to sleep?"
"Because we're tired of REALITY"

it was freakin spontaneous, funny and yet very true at some point, don't u think? hahahah
and of course, Fendy answered "No, because beds don't come to us"...
hahaahah Fendy, tuh jawapan budak tadika please...hahahahah

i guess this is what philosophical studies do to u..hahahhahaha
i think i should take up Master of Philosophy..heh..quite interesting aye? heheheheh

oh ya, shoot me..i think i wanna continue my PhD, let's say in 5 years to come? ngehehehe
Papa will be soooo flattered i swear...hahahah..but yes, he did warn me..

"I'm not gonna pay any of your school fees anymore after this Master's course ok?"

sorry papa....hehhhehehe

:: sEpTeMbEr uPdAtE ::

firstly, thanx Chaos for listening n taking my words into considerations...i love my team! nyehehehehhe....

secondly, just an update of your dear friend in the cold cold land of Melbourne...

I've been going out quite a lot...been SHOPPIN'..nyeheheh neh, not really for like FUN shopping but merely for BUSINESS attire shopping...argh...a Board Meeting with the company that we're consulting for will be up somewhere on the mid/end of next month...sucky sucky...more workload for us!...haiiihhh....and i don't know why, but my brain refuses to halt even during bedtime, which constitutes to lack of sleep and bulging panda eyes... and that's just faaarr oouuutttt!!! damn it....

Assignments have drained quite a considerable amount of energy I have within me, moreover that i'm fasting presently...not really a good contributor if i may say...:P well, I guess just 6 more weeks and i'll be off this country for malaysia..hooray!!

oh ya, so much drama have taken place, and yes, as usual, i've been actively taking the role of Dr. Love, not so much that i wanted to, but hey, you can't just close an eye about stuff when it comes to your close foreign-friends, right? they've done so much for me here...they're the ones who keep me sane please :)

i'm just keeping my fingers crossed here, hoping that i'll get a job by January...yes, i believe that i've been bugging Abg Ebi quite reasonably in the past few days nyeheheh...Sorry encik, I'm probably just too interested in what you're doing hahahahha...and u won't believe this, but it's an airline company...DING! u guessed it right! hahahahhah

oh well, hopefully all goes well...i am really looking forward to working with my dear dear step uncle... :P don't think i really wanna end up working in KL yet in either one of the 3 oil n gas company that i've applied for...hahahha rase macam wishful thinking plak.. ngahahahah

ok, subuh just kicked in...time to go! :)

p/s: i miss my other half and friends... :(

:: kEpAdA pArA cHaOs ::

sila ambil perhatian...
korang tak penah tgk or dgr aku serious kan?..
skang aku btol2 serious...

KENAPE..everytime aku fly je, MACAM2 masalah timbul dalam team kita?
adeeeeeee aje salah sangka la, kaki kritik on each other la ape la...
u guys wanna hear me out? ok skang aku bukak mulut...

biase la, kita smue satu team mulut masing2 bole tahan celupar...
but is it really NECESSARY to be freakin shouting at each other, pointing fingers at each other in the freakin field?...
korang tak malu ke team lain tgk how POOR our commitment, cooperation and tolerance are towards each other?...
honestly, aku sendiri BANYAK sangat terase bile korang dengan sedap hatinya menjerit suh aku kejar bola la,cakap aku tendang cam bodo la, malas nak lari la...bukan aku nak berlagak, tapi aku tau, sekali aku tendang kat muka korang, ade yang lebam satu kepale kang...pernah korang dengar aku maki hamun korang dalam field? aku slalu marah main2 ade ah sebab aku tau, kalau aku start marah, ade yang nak balas balik nanti...and i'm sorry i had to say that...aku tgh marah sangat ni...
most of the time, i was just playing SMART....there's no need to play HARD and waste ur freakin energy everytime...smuorg ade kelemahan sendiri, but there's no need to be shouting at each other...jangan fikir bagus, please....kita semua masih blajar, ade yang tendang bagus, ade yang tak reti nak passing, ade yang tak pernah nak mengalah jadi goalie..aku cukup marah...

mase aku kat malaysia, smue ye ye ah cakap baik ape smue..skang aku dgr asyik2 conflict, serupa nak pecah team...korang sedar tak sbnarnye team kita BAGUS?....
cuma kadang2 tu, (aku malas nak sebut name, kang korang kate aku plak kaki tuduh) ade some of us yang tak habis2 cakap nak main rotate, nak backup la ape lancau la..last2 terbawak2 sangat, takde langsung rotate within the field..tau nak duduk kat post masing2 je... korang tgk team yang bagus ade buat camtu? this doesn't mean aku suh smuorg lari turun naik, guna otak skit la please....smue pandai2 belaka, takkan benda simple pon tak boleh figure out?

tolong jangan jadi childish please?...kite smue umur dah serupa bole kawen...dan tolong la separatekan ur personal lives from futsal and work...nih tak abis2 terbawak2 mood n perangai bile ade game....so much for everyone nagging at each other for being professional...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE reconsider what ever it is that you've said to one another... and tolong la jangan terjerit2 maki kesalahan team members dalam padang...bile u buat camtu, u jatuhkan air muka n maruah orang...sendiri tau kan macam mane rase die? kalau taknak rase camtu, jangan buat kat orang...kalau orang buat jugak, kau DIAM, and TALK nicely, ckp kau terase at the END of the game...tak payah kutuk belakang la ape la...aku dah FED UP nak cakap kat smuorg...why can't we just play FUTSAL ah? tak habis2 politics...it's just a game for goodness sake!!! and it serves as our weekly exercise...tak sedar ke this is a test for all of us on tolerating with one another...no matter where u are...at work, at play, in MARRIAGE... bende kecik bodoh pon takleh nak selesai, tak payah fikir jauh la ok....please?....

I beg u guys to consider everything that i've just said...who ever that has read my entry, please do spread it to everyone in the team..and PLEASE tak payah tanye "sape yang report macam2 kat e'en?"....aku nak tgk smuorg settle, baik n main cun macam biase by the time aku balik in november...PLEASE....aku nak team aku, dan aku nak main futsal....

Alia, Aud, Raudha, Riena, Erin, Lyn, Jamy, Leni, Wan...tolong tolong tolong... TALK to each other...and stop SHOUTING at each other...aku sayang korang smue...

:: OnE oF tHoSe rAnDoM mOmEnTs ::

i feel blessed...
i just realized that there are more people that actually care for me, and love me for who i am... thank u...all of u... u know who u guys are...

u made my world less bitchier...a whole lot less...hehe :)

yeah, i bet u could guess by now...

i'm on cloud nine... heeeeee....... :P

:: hApPy rAmAdHaN! ::

yup, the time of the year is here again!
and yes, i am puasa-ing sorang2 kat sini..sangatlah sedih...
takde pasar ramadhan..lagi sedih..
oh well...i guess that's what u get for being ambitious...heh... :P

i've just "ordered" kurma from Ewa...nyehehehehhe
thanks Ewa dear!

to my friends and family...
Selamat Berpuasa!

...i miss pergi terawikh...uuhhuuu....

oh ya..a little update...
Last weekend, I forced myself to GO OUT and LET LOOSE...
so, I called Sai and Ewa for an outing to the city..and SUCCESS! yeehaaa
went to the city with Sai from Lilydale, then picked Ewa, Eski and Hawa up at Melbourne Central...then off we went to Laksa King in Flemington..weehoooo
Laksa sangatlah sedap, tasted just like our very own original Asam Laksa... oh yeah...
After that, we went to Max Brenner...ya rabi, tuhan je tau betape sedapnye the chocolate stuff...
Ewa, Eski and I had Belgian chocolate waffle with ice-cream and streaks of melted chocolate..yuuummm...Hawa had the same waffle but with strawberries..hehe
Sai had the ultimate shyte...Chocolate Souffle....(camtu kan eja? hehe) gile babi sedap...
ha nak puase ni laaa terliur sane sini hahahahaha....hot chocolate die pon best..ah smue best la!

Next up, Cocoa Bar! weehooo!!!
Me and my classmates are off to the city again somewhere next week...
Since i'm the only muslim, we're planning to go after 5pm, so that sampai2 tuh dah ngam2 time nak buka...
Lygon street, the best street EVER...you can get all the halal food, name it, Italian to Indian, they're all there...After berbuka, we're gonna go to Cocoa Bar for dessert! yeehhaaaa bring on the chocolates!!!

anyway, gotta finish up my freaking assignment before the outing...heh...
1 month and 3 weeks to go and i'm done in Melbourne!!! bismillaaaaahhhh...

:: aNoThEr nEw bOrN! ::

Dear Sue, Abg Adeq, Arief and the rest of the Khalids,

Congrats on the new born baby!!!! uweeeeee!!!!
Sue just gave birth to a baby girl, Sept 6th, 2007....
Heeeerrreee's a Virgo! hehehehehhe

Arieeff nak baby pics pleeassseeeee....
Blog it up babe! thaaannnxxxx

Happy happy happy!

:: OuR 1st YeAr aNn|vErSaRy!!! ::

yes, today marks our very first anniversary...
happy sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatt!!!
love u so much khairul nizam!!!

tak sabar nak baliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikk!!!

:: rOcKeRs...dEf|n|t|oN pLeAsE ::

The "rock" bands (or so they call themselves) nowadays have no sense of good lyrics, if i may say...
but that excludes one of my favourite bands, Incubus, of whose lyrics are somewhat metaphoric, even their "swears" were being said in bombastic, or i'd rather say classic English words.

Just look at these lyrics from a song called Nutshell by Alice in Chains...

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I cant be my own
Id feel better dead

Now u tell me, can u actually find rock bands that has actually composed such good lyrics?
This is like a freakin classic poetry! hah! kudos to the old-timers! now, that's Rock...