Monday, December 31, 2007

:: PeNuTuP t|rA| ::

2007 has been fairly kind to me; filled with great memories i must say....


Not looking back, HELLO 2008! Let's rock the year! yeeehhhaaaaaaaaa!!!
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Sunday, December 23, 2007

:: b|tChY mOdE ::

some people are just shit-ass poyos, don't u think?
kesian mereka...kurang attention culture-shocked?

yes, i'm in a very bitchy mode.
my bum's cursing me each day for sitting and flipping channels on Astro like on an average of 7 hours a day. that's just freakin bad.

i need a job.i am restless and going insane for bumming around.
final semester's only commencing on Feb 25th. hell, what am i supposed to do in the meantime? someone PLEASE recruit me.i am turning into a zombie.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

:: r|nDu... ::

a month before i came back to Malaysia (and this time FOR GOOD ya...), i kept telling my family and friends of how i long for the smell of polluted Malaysian air and everything else...

And of course, all of them said the same thing... "Once ur back home, u'll be saying that u miss Melbourne and wanting to go back there... :)"

Well, part of it is true...I DO miss Melbourne....
but not the whole experience...
I miss my Aussie they've been sooooo friendly, helpful and un-racist....
People kept telling me that Aussies dislike way freakin way....
My friends treat me just the same...the sweetest thing that they've ever said was "Ur no more an Asian...ur one of us..ur an Aussie, and it'll stay that way even after u've gone back to Malaysia"...
God knows how flattered I was....thanks so much u guys....

Apart from that, the other thing that I miss about Melbourne was...
being the chef of the house...heheheh....i've never enjoyed cooking so much....
i've learnt sooooo much....even made my own fusion food...hahaha and it never tasted better!
hehehheh I kept telling aunty elly "Maybe i should take up a part-time course la...rase cam nak jadi chef plak...hehehe" and yes, i told Bob "The best hantaran (if we were to get married la kan) is a whole collection of Jamie Oliver's! hehehhe"...
Nasib baik la he said no prob...since he adores my cooking so much..hahahha selamat aku... :P

Oh well...Nicole, Jess and Sal are coming down in January..can't wait!!!
Harap time tu takde la busy sangat kerja..else Bob la mangsa bawak diorg berjalan.. ngahahha

Ok, back to studying! hehehheeh
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Thursday, November 22, 2007

:: TAG! I'm It! ::

I'm only doing this sebab nampak mcm FUN more tagging please!
U have to list smue bende that's of the first letter of your first name, in which case mine is L from Liyana la kan... nyehehe..Note : boy/girl name xleh same ngan ur given name. Cheers!

1. Famous Singer: Lionel Ritchie
2. Four Letter Word: LAME
3. Street: Lygon (kat Melbourne please! haha)
4. Colour: Lilac
5. Gifts/Present: Laptop!
6. Vehicle: Lexus babbyyy!! (Eventhough sbnarnye Lexus under Toyota kan, but wth!)
7. Things in Souvenir Shop: Lanyards
8. Boy Name: Liam
9. Girl Name: Laila
10. Movie title: Little Mermaid (gile dulu tgk ulang2 kali mase kecik sampai tape rosak! haha)
11. Drink: Limau ais???
12. Occupation: Lawyer (or more like Liar when it comes to me! nyehehehhe)
13. Celebrity: Lily Allen
14. Magazine: Lelaki Macho? hahahha (i am NOT a fan of mags)
15. U.S. City: Lubang Jubur (sbb diorg smue mcm tu kan? tak ke? hahahahhhaha)
16. Pro Sports: Layang2-ing (wei, pro tau kat msia ni, igt senang ke? :P)
17. Fruit: Lemony lemony me likeeyy
18. Reason for Being Late to work: lupa nak set alarm (u'll c urself getting fired after that)
19. Something you throw away: Lipas! (dari dalam kete of course! hahaha)
20. Something you shout: Lembab mcm babi! Sape ajar kau bawak kete?!

Skang saye tag SEMUORG dalam list saye, kecuali miss paperheart and khairiyah nyahahah
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Friday, November 16, 2007

:: Me, sPeAk|nG ::

if only words could unwind these twisted faiths in me...
things could've been much easier as days go by...

if only i had the liberty to speak and express myself without hurting or aggravating souls around me...
it would've been so much more de-stressing and uplifting...

if only i had all the richness in the world; monetary, well-being, mentality, knowledge and health...
i would be the one they call Mother Theresa of all mankind...

if only no one perceived me as a scorn...
i wouldn't have been compelling for happiness....

an aspect i've been longing for since forever...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

:: |d|oCrAcY. hAvE wE aPeD oUrSeLvEs? ::

Negarakuku composer Namewee whose YouTube antics caused an uproar, came under fire from Puteri Umno chief Datuk Noraini Ahmad.
In her policy speech at the Puteri Umno assembly yesterday (Nov 6), Noraini said the wing would not accept his apology as he had gone overboard.
She also said the wing was shocked by a youth who burned the national flag in Kuala Tterengganu on Sept 8.
"We see this provocative act as the action of a traitor of the nation".
On the brain drain experienced by Malaysia, Noraini said if students fail to come back and serve the country once they completed their studies, they should be penalised with higher interest on her loans.
"To avoid brain drain, local universities must be strengthened to be on par with international standards."
On the increase of paedophilia cases, Noraini said parents should be responsible for taking care of their children.
She said other than meting out heavy punishment on criminals, parents should also be punished under the Child Act 2001, if they were found to be responsible for the harm that befell their children.
Noraini also commented on the abuse of information and communication technology by bloggers who insulted the King and Islam.
She said the Sedition Act, Internal Security Act, Officials Secrets Act and Printing Presses and Publications Act must be enforced to the fullest as irresponsible acts by bloggers caused tension among people of different races and religions.
She said as the majority race, the bumiputra's effort to defend their fate is a national mission and should not be seen as racist or an effort to benefit just one race.

--> article taken from Nuraina's blog

Yes indeed I wasn't around when all these political stuff happened..
and like Nuraina, I couldn't BELIEVE the amount of shit that's going around Malaysia.
Not to say that our politicians are total CRAP...but hey, admit it, they're getting bad to worse!!! The Puteri Umno chief is absolutely out-of-date and possesses the mindset of an 80 year old who has never been to higher ed. I'm sorry, not like i'm THAAATT smart, but HELLO, i'm a 23 year old student, that has been overseas and looked at how the world (other than Malaysia itself as one) perceive Malaysia...How they've always pinpointed the stupidity and lack of judgements in our so called democratic, advanced country...Woman, you've just placed Malaysia higher in idiocracy ranking!

Punishing parents for negligence...hmmm...first of all..
kita ni semua manusia, tak sempurna...
U nak ke, ur freaking mom/dad ikat u mcm anjing? or letak cctv on ur forehead, backside etc?
Where the hell are the human rights? ape, smuorg not entitled to privacy anymore ke? is that what ur suggesting my dear "wise" one?

Threatening bloggers with Sedition Act la ISA la ape la...
HELLO...kate ade freedom of speech? celah mane?
Everyone has the right to pour their thoughts, feelings, whatsoever...we are CIVILIANS...
Haven't heard of it? gi carik dictionary.
It's not as if we're broadcasting war plans/tactics/strategies to the world, or if i may say "allies".
Professional criminals don't do that wei..they're not as stupid...everyone knows, no matter how "secure" they say the Internet is nowadays, there's always a crooked hole somewhere. Why? Because Internet was created by humans u's NOT PERFECT. Hackers came from the same people that provided u with ur so called high-end security policies. Where have all the Mahathir-like people gone? Not to say i'm being bias or choosy or whatever, but admit it, Mahathir is a man of his words, knows what to say, brought this small country of ours to stand in the eyes of the world and so much more. His wisdom and charisma, who could ever replace? Noraini? not even close to the letter W or C...more like to the letter B of taik kerbau...

Dear politicians, as a CIVILIAN, i beg u, all of u, to be more CIVILIZED, WISE and UNBIAS.
Please stop being so freaking narrow-minded before Malaysia drowns and disappear from the world, economy and politics atlases.
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Tuesday, November 06, 2007

:: HoMe sWeEt HoMe ::

feels so good to smell the familiar air...
feels so good to be near my friends and family...
most of all, feels great to be near my sayang again...
i've made a promise not to leave u again sayang, and i won't...

friends, let go do some PARTAAAAYYY!!!!!!

Melbourne was great...the experience, the friends, the culture, the food...
Was crying endlessly in the plane, on the way home to KL...
felt just like the first time i left for Melbourne...
Shed some tears with darling Nicole and Sally...
God, how i've grown attached to them...
oh well...i guess i'll be seeing u guys next year!

Thanks everyone..
for the love and support when I was away...
and all the welcoming text messages as soon as i turned on my phone on my favourite service provider...heheh

Next stop...WORK! with my sayang and friends first! yahhoo!!!
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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

:: RaMbL|nGs... ::

love is an experience.
love is pervasive.
love is never obsolete.

love could create an obtrusive content, but most of the time, scar.

a presence that permeated my heart with faith, love and dignity.
most of the time, i wish everyone could feel as lucky.

sometimes my life is just inspiring, impecable..sometimes too viscous and yucky.
someone once said that u shouldn't screw urself up just because ur miserable.
what if it's inevitable?
would that then mean that there are chances of u suffering from bipolar disorder?
how much is too much, how minimal is too minimal?

challenges could be horrendous.
driving absolutes to contemplations.
making one oblivious of own deviated principles.
could life be any much harder?

life is a continuum.
love is a continuum.
sanity is a continuum.
but sadly death is a one off.
people seek for an absolute answer.
but when given one, they want a continuum.
fickle.we are.always.

Monday, October 29, 2007

:: 2 tHe bRoKeN-hEaRtEd... ::

This song makes me weep at times..don't know why though...heh...

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

:: Happy Ending by Mika ::
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Sunday, October 28, 2007

:: tHe NeVeReNd|nG ::

we can never get what we want...
god has better plans for us...
everything happens for a reason...

The old, simple i wish things could just be that simple...
would definitely make my life a hell lot easier...

Tomorrow's our final presentation day/Board Meeting/Industry Network proposal....
i've not rehearsed, therefore i should do it soon...
oh ya, daylight savings starts today, so i'm 3 hours ahead...boorriinnggg....

i've been a bit emotional today...overwhelmed i guess...
how i wish i could forward my life and not go through obstacles of adolescence and maturity...
how i wish i don't have to strive so hard for everything...
or maybe i was just overdoing it....

tuhan kuatkanlah semangatku...through highs and and downs....
help me be thankful for what i have...
help me to embrace the paths that u've set for me...
help me to not become a fiasco...
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Thursday, October 11, 2007

:: SeLaMaT hAr| LeBaRaN ::

hey isn't it funny...
from the word "lebaran", it could mean "festive" (kot!), AND
LEBAR-an..hahaha mmg time ni la smue tiba2 jadi "lebar" balik sebab makan teruk2! hahahah... anyway, to my family and friends AND acquaintances, selamat hari raye, maaf zahir dan batin... saye mohon maaf atas segala benda yang might have hurt your feelings..yes, saye ni mulut laser skit, saye sedar... i'm really sorry...i have been giving stupid reasons for everything, and i realized that i'm a grown woman, and that's not what i was supposed to do....

thanks for everything, all of u...halalkan makan minum saye...Aunty Elly, please tell Papa that this is the only gift that I could offer him, which is of course my achievements, good behaviour and discipline...It all comes back to him, for he has provide me with unbias love, neverending support and guidance, and of course his wisdom..

have a safe journey balik kampung everyone...please be safe...looking forward to seeing u guys in November...

saye tak beraye...byk sgt assignments..adeh...well, i guess u gotta do what u gotta do ey!

Lotsa luv from Australia...Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh walridhuannuhu wajannah walmaghfirrah... :) byk sikit pahale saye..asyik buat dosa je.. hehehhe

p/s: Don't even think of NOT giving me angpaus! i DESERVE them! hahahaha...oh CHAOS, i'll be home for good soon!!! can't wait!!yeay!!!
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Sunday, October 07, 2007

:: aN aBsTrAcT mOmEnT ::

Have u ever felt so happy in your life that you felt like making friends with the people who screwed your life and self-esteem?

Have u ever felt so much hatred and jealousy that u just wanted to screw these people back?

Have u ever felt so calm that u wanted to just let go of everything, let the world age itself through time?

Have u ever felt that sudden rush of adrenalin and energy that u could actually change the world with a snap of a finger?

Have u ever felt so worthless, as a result of being so mad and angry at yourself for not making the right decision?

Have u ever felt so in love that the world just stops spinning and time stops ticking for u?

Have u ever felt a massive regret over doing something that was just a game of ur own heart?

Now...have i ever NOT tell you how grateful I am to be where I am, with what I have and who I share my happiness with? I have, haven't I..but sometimes it feels as if a lifetime of thanking and mentioning the people involved in my world just doesn't seem enough...I owe everyone that has walked in and outta my life, for helping me grow, making sense of everything, thinking wisely and maturedly and not being bias towards practically everything in life anymore...

Thank you..u know who u are...
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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

:: Double Tag, Screw U Guys! ::

Thanks to my stepmom n uncle...I've been tagged by both, which is superbly APPALLING... do i do this...i'd better combine both aye? Don't complain, i'm doing it!
and again, SCREW U GUYS... :P

5 things I have in my huge-ass black bag
1. Guess Wallet, with ZERO Aussie cash, but with RM9 (i thought i had RM19.. someone must've stolen my RM10..dammit!)
2. Sony Ericsson pink z610i mobile phone and HP iPAQ rw6815 PDA phone
3. Nivea strawberry flavoured Lip Balm and one cheap ass eye liner (which i've only used once)
4. Surf,Dive n Swim pencil case (saye student, terima kasih)
5. I know Aunty Elly won't approve this, but nak tau sangat kan, My oxygen "sticks" Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free ngahahhaahha

5 things in my wallet
1. RM9 cash
2. Cards - License, MyKad, Myers, HSBC-VISA supplementary credit card, AmBank prepaid Mastercard, Swinburne Student ID, HRC All Access, Commonwealth Bank, Maybank & CIMB ATM cards, Disney World (final access to Disneyland USA, unlimited period) & MAS Enrich.
3. Receipts - credit/debit cards, tuition fees, various goods purchases.
4. Pictures - Me and Alia, Papa
5. Business Cards - Abg Ebi's, Claudine's, Eddie's, Lorraine's dan sebagainya.

5 things in my favourite room
1. Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free carton..ngahhahhahahah
2. Pink and Red queen-sized bed
3. Stacks of handbags/slingbags
4. Collection of perfumes
5. Collection of watches

Five things I would like to do
1. Finish this semester with Distinction average
2. 1-week stay with sufficient cash in Mauritious Island
3. Bring Bob for a week trip to MovieWorld & DreamWorld in Gold Coast :)
4. Get a bloody good job, at the same time finishing my Master's with flying colours
5. Kumpul duit, maintain kete, bayar umah, KAHWIN. terima kasih.

Five things I'm currently on
1) Cracking my brains for my assignments
2) Defrosting chicken for tonight's buka puasa, mee hoon goreng basah n pedas! yaahooo!!
3) Saving money to pay up my soon-to-be Nokia E90 Communicator (1/2 sponsored by Papa!)
4) Saving money for next Wednesday's class trip to OCAV estate in Fitzroy, then Laksa lunch (ye, saya tak puasa time tu sebab period, hahha), and dessert at Max Brenner with Ewa n Eski after "buka puasa" at their house. weehhoo!!!
5) Ready, Steady, Cook show on favourite...been watching it religiously ok!

There you go Aunty Elly and Abg Ebi...DON'T PULL THIS "TRICK" AGAIN ok?!
To others out there, this will be my last "TAG" session..screw u..penat ok nak list! hahahah


:: UpDaTe ::

Sorry u guys..
My iPAQ has already been grabbed by Farrah...
heheh thanx babe!
c u in november!

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

:: HP iPAQ rw6815 ::

For sale, at RM1,500, negotiable...
Bought in January 2007, original HP set, comes with all the default items in box.
Storage card upgraded to 1 gig.
Still in good conditions, no scratch whatsoever.
To enquire, do leave a comment or e-mail me at

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Friday, September 28, 2007

:: QuEst|oN oF tHe dAy! ::

I was talking to my dear cousin, Fendy on MSN this morning..
He asked me a question (in which he was just being dumb la kan)...

"E'en, why do we go to sleep?"
"Because we're tired of REALITY"

it was freakin spontaneous, funny and yet very true at some point, don't u think? hahahah
and of course, Fendy answered "No, because beds don't come to us"...
hahaahah Fendy, tuh jawapan budak tadika please...hahahahah

i guess this is what philosophical studies do to u..hahahhahaha
i think i should take up Master of Philosophy..heh..quite interesting aye? heheheheh

oh ya, shoot me..i think i wanna continue my PhD, let's say in 5 years to come? ngehehehe
Papa will be soooo flattered i swear...hahahah..but yes, he did warn me..

"I'm not gonna pay any of your school fees anymore after this Master's course ok?"

sorry papa....hehhhehehe

Thursday, September 27, 2007

:: sEpTeMbEr uPdAtE ::

firstly, thanx Chaos for listening n taking my words into considerations...i love my team! nyehehehehhe....

secondly, just an update of your dear friend in the cold cold land of Melbourne...

I've been going out quite a lot...been SHOPPIN'..nyeheheh neh, not really for like FUN shopping but merely for BUSINESS attire shopping...argh...a Board Meeting with the company that we're consulting for will be up somewhere on the mid/end of next month...sucky sucky...more workload for us!...haiiihhh....and i don't know why, but my brain refuses to halt even during bedtime, which constitutes to lack of sleep and bulging panda eyes... and that's just faaarr oouuutttt!!! damn it....

Assignments have drained quite a considerable amount of energy I have within me, moreover that i'm fasting presently...not really a good contributor if i may say...:P well, I guess just 6 more weeks and i'll be off this country for malaysia..hooray!!

oh ya, so much drama have taken place, and yes, as usual, i've been actively taking the role of Dr. Love, not so much that i wanted to, but hey, you can't just close an eye about stuff when it comes to your close foreign-friends, right? they've done so much for me here...they're the ones who keep me sane please :)

i'm just keeping my fingers crossed here, hoping that i'll get a job by January...yes, i believe that i've been bugging Abg Ebi quite reasonably in the past few days nyeheheh...Sorry encik, I'm probably just too interested in what you're doing hahahahha...and u won't believe this, but it's an airline company...DING! u guessed it right! hahahahhah

oh well, hopefully all goes well...i am really looking forward to working with my dear dear step uncle... :P don't think i really wanna end up working in KL yet in either one of the 3 oil n gas company that i've applied for...hahahha rase macam wishful thinking plak.. ngahahahah

ok, subuh just kicked in...time to go! :)

p/s: i miss my other half and friends... :(
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Sunday, September 16, 2007

:: kEpAdA pArA cHaOs ::

sila ambil perhatian...
korang tak penah tgk or dgr aku serious kan?..
skang aku btol2 serious...

KENAPE..everytime aku fly je, MACAM2 masalah timbul dalam team kita?
adeeeeeee aje salah sangka la, kaki kritik on each other la ape la...
u guys wanna hear me out? ok skang aku bukak mulut...

biase la, kita smue satu team mulut masing2 bole tahan celupar...
but is it really NECESSARY to be freakin shouting at each other, pointing fingers at each other in the freakin field?...
korang tak malu ke team lain tgk how POOR our commitment, cooperation and tolerance are towards each other?...
honestly, aku sendiri BANYAK sangat terase bile korang dengan sedap hatinya menjerit suh aku kejar bola la,cakap aku tendang cam bodo la, malas nak lari la...bukan aku nak berlagak, tapi aku tau, sekali aku tendang kat muka korang, ade yang lebam satu kepale kang...pernah korang dengar aku maki hamun korang dalam field? aku slalu marah main2 ade ah sebab aku tau, kalau aku start marah, ade yang nak balas balik nanti...and i'm sorry i had to say that...aku tgh marah sangat ni...
most of the time, i was just playing SMART....there's no need to play HARD and waste ur freakin energy everytime...smuorg ade kelemahan sendiri, but there's no need to be shouting at each other...jangan fikir bagus, please....kita semua masih blajar, ade yang tendang bagus, ade yang tak reti nak passing, ade yang tak pernah nak mengalah jadi goalie..aku cukup marah...

mase aku kat malaysia, smue ye ye ah cakap baik ape smue..skang aku dgr asyik2 conflict, serupa nak pecah team...korang sedar tak sbnarnye team kita BAGUS?....
cuma kadang2 tu, (aku malas nak sebut name, kang korang kate aku plak kaki tuduh) ade some of us yang tak habis2 cakap nak main rotate, nak backup la ape lancau la..last2 terbawak2 sangat, takde langsung rotate within the field..tau nak duduk kat post masing2 je... korang tgk team yang bagus ade buat camtu? this doesn't mean aku suh smuorg lari turun naik, guna otak skit la please....smue pandai2 belaka, takkan benda simple pon tak boleh figure out?

tolong jangan jadi childish please?...kite smue umur dah serupa bole kawen...dan tolong la separatekan ur personal lives from futsal and work...nih tak abis2 terbawak2 mood n perangai bile ade much for everyone nagging at each other for being professional...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE reconsider what ever it is that you've said to one another... and tolong la jangan terjerit2 maki kesalahan team members dalam padang...bile u buat camtu, u jatuhkan air muka n maruah orang...sendiri tau kan macam mane rase die? kalau taknak rase camtu, jangan buat kat orang...kalau orang buat jugak, kau DIAM, and TALK nicely, ckp kau terase at the END of the game...tak payah kutuk belakang la ape la...aku dah FED UP nak cakap kat smuorg...why can't we just play FUTSAL ah? tak habis2's just a game for goodness sake!!! and it serves as our weekly exercise...tak sedar ke this is a test for all of us on tolerating with one matter where u work, at play, in MARRIAGE... bende kecik bodoh pon takleh nak selesai, tak payah fikir jauh la ok....please?....

I beg u guys to consider everything that i've just said...who ever that has read my entry, please do spread it to everyone in the team..and PLEASE tak payah tanye "sape yang report macam2 kat e'en?"....aku nak tgk smuorg settle, baik n main cun macam biase by the time aku balik in november...PLEASE....aku nak team aku, dan aku nak main futsal....

Alia, Aud, Raudha, Riena, Erin, Lyn, Jamy, Leni, Wan...tolong tolong tolong... TALK to each other...and stop SHOUTING at each other...aku sayang korang smue...
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Saturday, September 15, 2007

:: OnE oF tHoSe rAnDoM mOmEnTs ::

i feel blessed...
i just realized that there are more people that actually care for me, and love me for who i am...
thank u...all of u... u know who u guys are...

u made my world less
bitchier...a whole lot less...hehe :)

yeah, i bet u could guess by now...

i'm on cloud nine... heeeeee....... :P

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

:: hApPy rAmAdHaN! ::

yup, the time of the year is here again!
and yes, i am puasa-ing sorang2 kat sini..sangatlah sedih...
takde pasar ramadhan..lagi sedih..
oh well...i guess that's what u get for being ambitious...heh... :P

i've just "ordered" kurma from Ewa...nyehehehehhe
thanks Ewa dear!

to my friends and family...
Selamat Berpuasa!

...i miss pergi terawikh...uuhhuuu....

oh ya..a little update...
Last weekend, I forced myself to GO OUT and LET LOOSE...
so, I called Sai and Ewa for an outing to the city..and SUCCESS! yeehaaa
went to the city with Sai from Lilydale, then picked Ewa, Eski and Hawa up at Melbourne Central...then off we went to Laksa King in Flemington..weehoooo
Laksa sangatlah sedap, tasted just like our very own original Asam Laksa... oh yeah...
After that, we went to Max Brenner...ya rabi, tuhan je tau betape sedapnye the chocolate stuff...
Ewa, Eski and I had Belgian chocolate waffle with ice-cream and streaks of melted chocolate..yuuummm...Hawa had the same waffle but with strawberries..hehe
Sai had the ultimate shyte...Chocolate Souffle....(camtu kan eja? hehe) gile babi sedap...
ha nak puase ni laaa terliur sane sini chocolate die pon best..ah smue best la!

Next up, Cocoa Bar! weehooo!!!
Me and my classmates are off to the city again somewhere next week...
Since i'm the only muslim, we're planning to go after 5pm, so that sampai2 tuh dah ngam2 time nak buka...
Lygon street, the best street can get all the halal food, name it, Italian to Indian, they're all there...After berbuka, we're gonna go to Cocoa Bar for dessert! yeehhaaaa bring on the chocolates!!!

anyway, gotta finish up my freaking assignment before the outing...heh...
1 month and 3 weeks to go and i'm done in Melbourne!!! bismillaaaaahhhh...
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Monday, September 10, 2007

:: aNoThEr nEw bOrN! ::

Dear Sue, Abg Adeq, Arief and the rest of the Khalids,

Congrats on the new born baby!!!! uweeeeee!!!!
Sue just gave birth to a baby girl, Sept 6th, 2007....
Heeeerrreee's a Virgo! hehehehehhe

Arieeff nak baby pics pleeassseeeee....
Blog it up babe! thaaannnxxxx

Happy happy happy!
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:: OuR 1st YeAr aNn|vErSaRy!!! ::

yes, today marks our very first anniversary...
happy sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatt!!!
love u so much khairul nizam!!!

tak sabar nak baliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikk!!!
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Saturday, September 01, 2007

:: rOcKeRs...dEf|n|t|oN pLeAsE ::

The "rock" bands (or so they call themselves) nowadays have no sense of good lyrics, if i may say...
but that excludes one of my favourite bands, Incubus, of whose lyrics are somewhat metaphoric, even their "swears" were being said in bombastic, or i'd rather say classic English words.

Just look at these lyrics from a song called Nutshell by Alice in Chains...

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I cant be my own
Id feel better dead

Now u tell me, can u actually find rock bands that has actually composed such good lyrics?
This is like a freakin classic poetry! hah! kudos to the old-timers! now, that's Rock...
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Friday, August 31, 2007

:: dOubLe eVeNt ::

happy merdeka to my dear Malaysians....
oh how i wish i was home...
mesti gi tgk fireworks with my dear friends.. :(

happy 6th year anniversary to my darling Farah Nadziah and Sofie...
have a great one, can't wait for ur wedding day! weeeee!!!
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:: MeLaNcHoLy ::

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before
Some people say that i'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never
and I'll try to remember who i used to be

I've got one last chance to get myself together
The time has come for me to change again
I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends
don't say that you have given up on me.

Just give me the time and space to heal my head
I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good

:: James Morrisson, One Last Chance ::

Thursday, August 30, 2007

:: sAk|t... :( ::

so much for being healthy... i fucked my ligament...
sprained it to be more precise...
the attempt of jogging everyday just didn't work for me, thanks to my last knee injury caused by the stupid tackle by the dumbass pengkid during futsal tournament last year...babi babi babi....

other than that, assignments have been ok 2 assignments out of the way, 5 more to go...
oh ya, thanx aref for the constant sms...and a thousand thanx to my sayang n papa for the smses and phone calls from time to u guys so much...and yes, thank u anas for calling me last night...sorry for the stupid "lagging"ness in our conversation...blame vodafone man...not my baby sony ericsson...heheheh

well, 2 weeks to ramadhan...a part of me is excited, and a part of me is worried...tatau ape nak makan for sahur..and if my tummy could take it...the weather has been making my life miserable, jap sejuk, jap panas....has been around 8 to 21 degrees...tak bagus...mmg tak bagus...

anyway, wish me luck for i have 2 months to go..and i'll be home! tak sabaaaarrrrrr....
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

:: Po|nTs |n mY L|fE, A pO|nt Of L|v|nG... ::

Papa, aunty Elly, me...Summer '07, Lilydale, Victoria

listening to the latest song dedicated to yours truly, by the everloving sweetheart Bob... :)

reminiscing to the old days of MMU Malacca *all smiles*...and Cyber *sigh*...
Remembered how i made friends to my lovely girlfriends, the times that they've been there for me...regardless of the hours...
And i remembered how i made friends with Anas Hazwan, Syed Shahzli and Che Mohd. Nizar... hehe...funniest shit-ass agendas...hahahah

Also something that hasn't failed on making me burst into laughter is the windsurfing outing with MMU's OARS club...hahah takleh bla, i joined recreational club just to forget my so-called "pain"... heheheh...yang best nye time tu baru start rapat ngan Alif, n baru knal Muntz...tiba2 buddy2 terus...and plus time tuh tiga2 tgh crisis..kuar la masing2 nye tanduk kaaaannn....hahahahahah

the things that we do when we were young...just SWELL... :) Well, not to say that i'm THAT old la kan...but just think about how time flew...oh gosh....

and now i'm at the peak of my studying period...maintaining the pace, not wanting to fall out of course, and wanting to head back to Malaysia with flying colours, finishing my final semester by May 2008 while searching for a career...i can't wait to make Papa proud...the smile on his face brings me tears of joy, a very welcoming, warm, fuzzy and humble feeling...a feeling i call CONTENT...

nothing makes me a prouder than being Papa's daughter... being the 1st, the one and only daughter that has made it overseas, with the intention of fulfilling his wishes, to become an EDUCATOR...wanting to earn that self-respect, being looked up by others...becoming Papa's pride and glory...nothing makes me happier than this...(besides getting married though! hehe)

Papa, eventhough you're not reading this (not in the near future i hope :) ), i would want u to know that i am very thankful for this opportunity, to prove to you on who i really am, and who i could become...and thank you very much for all the support and advices in self-discipline...

I am who i am, because u wanted me to choose for myself, on what to become, who to become and when to become...and i thank u again, for the trust and respect that u have for me...
and that's the best gift a daughter could ever ask for...for eternity... :)
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Monday, August 20, 2007

:: s| d|a yAnG nAkaL ::

:: Mohd. Khairul Nizam ::

A Virgo...a very patient man with a very kind heart...
He knows when to say 'No'...
He knows how to mend my broken heart...
He has a VERY interesting family... :)
He's the FIRST to actually put me high up on a pedestal...
He's the FIRST man who moves his way around me through songs...hehe
He doesn't know the meaning of 'Giving Up'...
He LOVES saving his money...
He would never let anyone undermine his lady Liyana...
and the best of all, dia adalah...

:: Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Ku Miliki ::

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

:: f|ckLe ::

replying to fiza's blog...
yes, indeed, i felt like kicking a guy right smack on his tushies when he said sumthin like "i don't even know if i wanna spend the rest of my life with her"...The "her" concerned is of course, the girlfriend...

Well, yes, have the freakin courtesy to say nice things about ur gf la kan...dah kate nak sgt move on ngan org lain, n said that "u deserve someone better" la ape la....those words macam "ayat melarikan diri dengan care yang sungguh bodoh"....heh...

I, Liyana Zainudin, officially disrespects assholes like above mentioned, and therefore, I shall not become just like one.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Yang Benar,
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

:: MeLLoW... ::

i'm just sad...
was i passing judgments?...
or was i thinking too much?...
or am i currently having that mood instability?...

i don't know...
i just don't know...

please don't ask me why...
i just don't know...

i tried, i swear i have been...
i just don't know for sure, just how long it'll take...

i just don't know...
i'm currently a woman struggling to find her thousand meaningful words...

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Monday, August 06, 2007

:: a HaPpY dAy :) ::

class was we have a "bigger" family..there are 8 of us doing the same level hooray!
well, the boring part was that we started LESSON 1, and already gotten ourselves the first assignment, dued (ade such word ke eh?) THIS FRIDAY..ya rabi tak kesian langsung k...

oh yes, i got a new keycard! yeay! no more shit ass problems with the apartment's doors anymore! kehkehkehkehkeh

ok here's the greatest part...


ya allah! tuhan je tau happy camne k! soooo....i'll be going home somewhere in the 1st week of November with mom... hehe :)

Oh ya, mom's planning to go to Hong Kong Disneyland somewhere in December..hehe...

i'm happy! yeay! and one more thing.. no more classes til 5 p.m.!!! yeehaaa!!
so friends, if u would wanna reach me, u could do so after 12.30 p.m. Malaysian time okiee??
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Sunday, August 05, 2007

:: MeLbOuRnE, AuGuSt ::

yes, i've safely arrived in Melbourne..alhamdulillah...
flight was shitty..minah sblah kaki bau busuk n kaki kentut..mmg cam sial....
sampai2 je kat city 8 deg...ya rabi, jgn cite la Lilydale...kat 5 deg gak la....beku jap kat situ...
thank god nicole came n fetched me up by surprise...kalau tak, naik shuttle mesti terketar cam org bodo je...

as soon as i got to my apartment, my keycard fucked me up..i couldn't open the front door, let alone wanting to open up my room...mmg sial...tunggu the guy 3 jam, nasib baik la dalam umah sebab nicole ade kunci, kalau tak sendiri mau igt la duduk luar umah tu...5 hours later, the security guard came and opened up my room, tapi pintu takleh shut, sebab dari dlm je bole bukak, dari luar takleh...arrghhh!!! so i have to go down to the stupid office n get my keycard re-programmed esok...

As soon as i got my room opened, vacuumed the room, pastu geram, vacuum satu umah...hehe
then i changed my bed sheets and quilt cover, pastu unpack barang2 (tuh yg paling bosan sbnarnye... :P)...

about 7 p.m. tadi gi supermarket with nicole, beli barang2 umah..gile cost me about 100 dollars... adeh...oh we have a new housemate, chinese...muke nerd selenga habis, ckp mulut serupa tak bukak, jalan pandang bawah,tak bergaul ngan smuorg dlm umah ni..adeh susah...susah....

I miss everyone...i miss my sayang so much...thank u so much sayang 4 sending me off to the airport...i'll be home soon, insya allah...i have to strive and score very well this semester in order for me to get a grant for the online studies...bismillah....
one month in cold cold winter, then ramadhan will be in spring...nasib baik...
oh well, am off to bed...class starts tomorrow at 9 a.m. good god! dah la fees tak bayar agi! heh!

Mohd. Khairul Nizam, I LOVE U UNCONDITIONALLY...I MISS U SO MUCH...muaahh...
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Saturday, August 04, 2007

:: tHe |dEaL L|fE ::

Melbourne awaits me at 5a.m. local time, Sunday August 5th...
i'm NOT looking forward to going back and study, eventhough it'll be (insyaallah) my final semester in cold cold Australia...
Wish me luck..Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Went to Hartamas yesterday...Raudha sent me off there,then met up with my other half at his workplace...Right after, we went to Square to meet up with my lovely evil triplet, Fiza n Khair...
Had our dinner there and yes, i ate SO MUCH...nak pelahap banyak2 sblom balik, nanti terliur lebih plak kat sane...Fiza had fever and Khair looked tired from work, but they still managed to make me smile..we shared so much laughter,oh how i miss those days back in MMU, with the other perpetrator, Aiman...hehe...rindu sangat2...bile reminisce balik, bole senyum and cry tears of joy...coz they were my saviour, the light of my life... :) Am so glad that all of my friends could easily befriend my sayang...syok gile tgk Fiza and Khair borak ngan Bob k! rase cam sejuk je hati...hehehe luv u guys sooo much! *muah!*

After that, me and Bob went back to his house...he had to take his shower and i obviously had to change my clothes...We then headed to Rum Jungle to meet up with my Aussie friends... Sally, Claudia, Marcus, Beck and Luqa were soooo sure that the place no longer exists, but it turns out that the "place" that they went was the new Jungle, opposite of the "old" one...I was like, Oi! what the heck! hahahaha...Had a good time..My friends were ALL OVER Bob, i swear...they ADORE him! hahahah how pleasing!...Bob ye ye je "Sayang, kite balik awal k? i kene keje esok..." so, of course, i would do anything for my sayang la kan, skejap pon skejap la, janji pegi jenguk jap budak2 tuh since dah promise kan...anyway, in the end, Bob yang semangat gile lepak ngan diorg,tak nak balik awal! hahahah...My feet felt so sore,so I had to just sit and lay back on the god-knows-what-colour couch and enjoyed my Sprite and Marlboro...hah! hehehe

It has been a great week...tomorrow's a new day, of which i taknak bangun n taknak hari tu sampai pon uwaaaaaaaaa!!! Breakfast with Alia, Farah and Farrah, then to Papa's to collect my Dollars, back home, re-check my luggage, and i'll be off to KLIA...uuhhuuu...rase cam nak bawak je Bob masuk luggage k! Sayang, i'm so gonna miss u...

Sedih, sebab we'll be apart for our 1st year anniversary...and also for Ramadhan and Syawal...
uwaaaaa sedih nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :'(
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Thursday, August 02, 2007

:: a L|ttLe UpDaTe ::

ok, before i go back to melbourne, i believe i should write up the events that took place these past few it goes...

Me, Bobby, Farah, Alia, Sofie, A.J. and Hydir went to Penang via my IO and Sofie's Kelisa...
was freakin awesome...stayed at an apartment in Bayan Baru...Everything was just GREAT GREAT GREAT....makan nasi kandar endlessly, kuey teow la pasembor la ape la, u name it... kalau bole i rase every kedai kat Penang tuh kitorg nak invade...(eh, camtu eh eja, cam pelik plak..hehe)

Futsal tuh jgn cite la, selagi ade duit and bole gather smuorg, selagi tuh la kitorg cari court kosong, ari tu ade la gile kitorg sampai 5 hours of futsal in 3 days, within a week...mmg gile... hehehe

Oh ya, i went to Papa's new house's site in Kota Damansara...location, BEST... blakang umah ade tasik yg sangatlah CANTIK...and my room is beside a POND ok! uweeeee gile best! the design of the house is just tremendously beautiful...ten rounds of applause to Papa!

My Aussie friends datang...Sally, Claudia and Marcus is spending the whole week in KL, and will be departing in the same flight, on the same day as me! hoorraayy!! takde la lonely sangat kan...
Anyway, 2 days back diorg gile, mule2 ingat bawak gi sunway lagoon, turns out diorg changed their minds, bawak gi Genting ye la diorg ni taram sampai 2 keping roti canai kat Sri Melur sblom gi, sampai2 sane je, 10 mins after beli tickets, HUJAN LEBAT sial...ya allah kesian gile diorg gile hampa...dah la siap beli tickets for me! hahahahha..tapi diorg kate they had a good time la..smue pakai skimpy clothes, ha terketar2 la sekor2 bile sampai atas tuh...hahahah ye la, diorg pon budget "how cold could malaysia be aye?" hahahahah kan dah! hehehe
Balik dari Genting, kitorg terus gi Hartamas, jumpe boyfriendku yang tersayang and had our early dinner...diorg happy gile sebab i was there, senang nak order ape saje...chomel gile diorg ni...Thanks u guys for coming down! :)

Yeah so that's about it...agenda2 yang lain mmg banyak sangat la kan..taktau nak cite start dari mane..hehehe...oh well...had a great time....thanks to all...

I'LL BE BACK IN NOVEMBER!!! hoorraayyy!!!
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:: |n tWo m|nDs... ::

when some shitass agenda hits, does it mean that :

1. It's just karma taking its place


2. We were being TOO nice to people that we get our feet stepped on over and over again?

hmmm....i wonder....
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Thursday, July 26, 2007

:: aN oLd wOrK... :) ::

I called U near, I held a packet,
For you to see what I’ve hid inside,
It's nothing much, it's just a sachet,
With calming smell of flowers dried...

Open the sachet and U will find,
The debris and dusts trapped inside,
Bring it home and clean it with air,
Let the dusts go away but the colour stays fair...

Pay a visit to your garden of eden,
And drag the sachet through the flowers,
Pick the daisies with the other hand,
Selecting with patience, even for hours…

When we meet up for English tea and scones,
Bring the sachet and daisies for me,
I am not of any type of Molly Jones,
Just the type U rarely see...

Diamonds are good, and good for life,
How about people who constantly strive?,
Despite 4 seasons that repeats itself,
There’ll never be the same books on the shelf...

If Men were to last and Women to extinct,
When will these ruthless wars ever end?
If Women were to last and Men to extict,
When will there be a cosmic blend?...

If both genders were to last,
Which reef will U pick to meet your fate?
Clock ticks and oh so fast,
Are U ready to cross the final gate?...

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Monday, July 16, 2007

:: | LuV... ::

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I know you’re here, in the dark
I’m watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less cuz you know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know (I'm safe)
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your lovin for me
We can’t escape the love
With everything that you have

:: 4 a.m. by Gwen Steffani, to Bobby with Love... ::

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

:: d|sCoNtEnTeD ::

people say, it is often best to just shut up and not saying anything when there's nothing good to say....

but is shutting the fuck up always best?
often times i get stepped on the, more like SQUASHED on the head, just because i kept my bloody mouth SHUT.

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

:: kEpAdA pArA pEn|pU ::

how do u FEEL kan...when somebody whom u trusted sooo f***ing much, whom also told u ALLLL these sweet SHITS about being honest la ape lan*** la kan, caught red handed on lying....

one fine day, someone really trustworthy and paling best, the person itself and the people related to the bullshit happened behind unrevealed the whole gruesome truth ACCIDENTALLY...

ok mmg la cite lame kan...tapi sakit hati tak? rase cam nak gi cekik, bunuh, ludah, u name it...
bengang nak mampos....xtau knape, but bengang nak mati...

I hope KARMA takes its path SUPER soon....tak sabar tgk orang2 camni kene balik...
SEDAP sial kalau kena....let me have the first laugh....i hope ur paths ahead will be filled with poison ivy....


oh ya, one more thing...THANKS for not prolonging the FAKE friendship and/or relationship...i don't think i could ever forgive myself if i were never to walk away.
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Monday, June 18, 2007

:: cOnTeNt :) ::

blessed with tremendous friends, my 3 weeks at home so far have been such a blast...
went out every single day with bob and chop, alia ade la 2-3 hari JE yang curang ngan i, die gi dating ngan A.J. heheh....

watched Shrek, Pirates @ OU with my sayang...this wed tgk Ocean's 13 plak! Triple date agi weehooo!!!

Had a superb dinner (SLASH "gathering") @ Alia's house...I made my first lasagne in Malaysia weih gile bangga! hahaha..AND my own mushroom gravy k! gile gempak...of course Alia tolong la kan...hehe...oh ya...FARRAH NAJWA tak datang, kurang aja nye minah, penat2 i masak tunggang terbalik smue! chis!....

Also went to Asiacafe to meet up with Alia, Farah and Emmy...Farrah AGAIN stood us up! kau mmg sial la weih! tunggu ar kau...

Went to Sakae Sushi @ Subang Parade for Father's Day...Papa was all smiles (dah kate die suke sangat ngan sushi and teppanyaki kan, nak buat camne! hehe) first papa wanted 2 just have dinner at Uncle Lim's...boleh tak? gile korok celebrate die, makan tempat camtu, haih bapak aku ni...nak simple pon bertempat la please...hehe

Oh 1st Sem, so far alhamdulillah....dapat 3As and 1B...hope to score straight As la kan next sem...Bismillah...pray for me please k u guys?....

Today was just simply special...made English breakfast for my Bobby, then we went out to Pyramid...he got himself a new pair of shirt..hehe cute sangat! then we bought tons of BREAD from Bread Story (Alia mesti gelak gile part ni, sebab die tau i hantu kedai tu hehe), then i bought crunchy popiah..oh best...pastu beli fruit juice, and all of a sudden, kandaku gile plak mengidam laksa...ape lagi, straight gi Laksa Shack (camtu eh eja? hehe) and die pelahap one whole bowl..ya rabi...
Pastu dua2 ngantuk, balik umah, layan DVD...we watched Next...was cool ass! lupe plak..
before layan DVD tuh, i helped Mommy out with dinner...wash, cut all the meat, vege, shallots, garlic and ginger....pastu boil the egg noodle..pastu mami masak smue! hehehe...
My mom has this "thing" in her...she'll only tell u the ingredients of a dish, but NEVER really put into detail of how to cook it step by step...senang cite, my mom ni jenis GI BELAJAR SENDIRI...hehe...

oh, and AGAIN, i was supposed to go out yamcha with Farrah @ Melur, and about 20 mins later, she called to say that she couldn't make it, had to send the dad to the clinic la plak.. adeehh.. kau ni kang aku malas nak ajak gi mane2 dah merajuk plak? btol tak? hehehe

Anyway, I guess that's about it for tired, me wanna get a shut-eye...nite!
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Friday, June 01, 2007

aNd | tUrN 23... :)

30th May marked the anniversary of my birth...there wasn't much of a celebration, but my friends yg tengah sengkek gile pon sanggup kuar duit n arranged a lovely dinner and coffee/tea @ TTDI...
thanx u guys, so much....

i didn't snap any of the girls' picture though,just had the guys'...hehe...sorry...

and yes, 2 great gifts from Mommy and Papa, my very own Olympus digital SLR!! weehhooo!!! yes aaahhhhh!!!!!

AND...paling x sangka...i received this super cute balloon + teddy bear from my sayang! now, why is that such an astonishing fact?... BECAUSE he doesn't celebrate birthdays!!! and he did that just for me coz he knows how much it means to me... :) now, how sweet can my baby be? yeehhaa!!!

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

Learning the hard way..Is it always best?...

have u ever felt so shitty not having the power to make people change their minds for their own good? literally and unbiasly?

almost everyone of us has been or maybe had been hurt before..emotionally that is...
well...some of my friends are going through such a hard time deciding what's best for each, letting go of the past, moving on and gulping the hard truth...

it's so saddening to know that we dont't have the power to influence people's minds over matters which we may have more knowledge of...we tried, and tried...but eventually we let go, letting our friends take up the decision that we adamantly know, will hurt very much...

but then again..i guess everyone deserves to be hurt...why?
because most of the time, people think with their hearts, not brains...
and this happens especially when it comes to making decisions within relationships...
of course, we would not want to see our friends in pain...
but that's like stealing away their rights on being human beings...
they deserve to be hurt, and hence learn from mistakes...
that's what makes them stronger, wiser, more vibrant...if not as soon, they will be someday..
but at least we do not set paths for them...for they are just like how we were...

i know it gets pretty frustrating to just keep on giving advices..the very same one everytime...
but that's just it...we have to teach our friends to think for themselves...and taking up consenquences of each actions for themselves...

well, i guess learning the hard way is just best...look at me..i'm still standing tall and proud :)
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

:: |n mY pLayL|sT ::

Took a right to the end of the line
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the (longings) the same.
(Where the dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help.)

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?


:: Relax by Mika ::