|'m bRoKeN...

For what is man,
What has he got?
If not himself,
Then he has not,
To say the things he truly feels,
And not the words,
Of one who kneels…

i owe this to Aiman...

are we doing things right?...
or are we just fooling ourselves KAZ?...
help....i'm broken...

YOU...

thanx for yesterday n the memorable nite...
i couldn't stop smiling...
n thinking of what a gentleman u were...

CAN WE DO THAT AGAIN?!!PLEEEEAASSEE heheheheh....
TI AMO!!

tW|sTeD...

am i right or am i wrong to feel this way?...
what if things turn back against me?...
is this for real or is it just a dream?...

for sure...this is TOO GOOD 2 BE TRUE...
coz most of the things going around don't tally...
is there any assurance 4 me to believe in?...
are u sure of what ur saying?...
I do believe in it...
But where are ur grounds to it?...

AffL|cTeD w|tH sOrRoWs...

there are a few agendas of which are definitely better off not to be told...

almost lost a goodfren because of a girl...let me just say that the person concerned managed to make me just throw my keys onto the body, yell and babble all the way up my stairs til i reach my bedroom n cried a few tears...i was so mad, seriously ok...ur just plain lucky u knew how to push the right button...i hate u! don't u do that to me again KAMBENG! yiihh....

lost a fren who was committed in a tragic accident, here in KJ...eventhough we've only talked for a few hours n shared few laughters, fate made me cry...i was sitting lazily at my dad's "royal" sofa, religiously changing channels on Astro, complaining on the sucky shows, when suddenly an SMS from Aussie came blinking...It was from Aref...

"En, Hani, Musta'in's brother just passed away...Please call Sue..."....

I started trembling...scrolled thru my mobile phone searching for Sue's number...Grabbed my cordless phone n started dialing Sue...She picked up, but with a very calm voice..As soon as she knew it was me calling, Sue started crying so badly, til she couldn't even speak out her words right...Ya allah...only God knows how shocking the news was...I couldn't help but stare at a blank spot while reminiscing about Hani and how funny he was, what a nice guy he was..and how young he was...Dad suddenly asked me of the blank n emotionless expression on my face... Tears started pouring as soon as I told Dad about what had happened...Dad held my hand, told me to be strong and to always remember Hani in my prayers...

"Een...every living soul has its journey...and God has ended his journey at that given moment.. Don't u cry tears of blood about it as nothing will bring himback..Sedekah Al-Fatihah banyak2 to Hani, just like what u did for Arwah Basirah..."

Ya allah..tuhan je tau how sad i was...one by one, the people i knew had left for good...And i regreted that i didn't say things that should've been said...

In Loving Memories...

Hani Adnan
Mohd. Ashraf
Basirah Baharuddin

2 Be or Not 2 Be...

ok..this is madness...it has been MONTHS since i last penned...ok here goes...

So much had happened...i stumbled, i fell, i cried tears both of joy n sorrow,i laughed at everything that has happened,i got so mad and almost outta hand AGAIN...oh gile..

What's important is that I've learned so much in that particular moment...of where I felt so devastated...i was crushed to million pieces...and God knows how hard it was 4 me to pick up the tiny pieces of my sanity shattered everywhere...

and of course, everything happens 4 a reason, thank u my dear Affendi...I mean it...

I learnt the hardest way to live on with my life...affiliating myself with all sorts of activites and events...Honestly, that helped only 50% upon recovering...
The act of being resilient...it's not about how u divert things and occupying urself...but the utmost important factor...UR INNERSELF...

::Yes, clubs play good music 4 u to sweat it all out n laugh about every ridiculous act...u get good exercise but u'll die soon of being the 2nd degree smoker, even if ur smoking...

::Alcohol n drugs drive u 2 a state of half-insane...makes u 4get about ur tight life, at least 4 the night...but when memories strike, u'll go more insane than ever...

::Karaoke makes u sing ur heart out, which in turn makes u sound like Ella in the end...no offense...

::Endless Milo O Ais n Teh O Ais with ur frens lets u have all the time in the world to just talk, in the end expands ur butt, bloats ur bladder n degrades the performance of bloodflow...

Has any of the above or of anything related to it plays any significant effect upon dealing with ur innerself? don't think so...

The ability to just sit calmly, have a peace of mind, breathing in n out in an ordered sequence of time...Reminiscing about everything that has happened...smile about it, cry about it n squeeze ur palm out of anger, in ur own space without the act of destroying urself n the things around u...
And at the end of the day, everything falls into place, even the most horrible, heart-aching memories puts out a smile in u...

If that's so hard, get a person of whom u know doesn't have bias thoughts, who can speak to u out of logical n matured thinking...express everything...n be glad of every dot jotted in ur storybook...smile n thank God 4 everything...

Just let urself go...let ur mind settle down, out from the commotions 4 once...

Now that's what u call being RESILIENT...love urself b4 u start 2 love anyone else, and so the saying goes...U were born alone, u'll die alone...

sometimes we oughtta think that being single is SUICIDAL especially when u've gained ur "ADULT" status...fact is, it's not...

U see...this is the actual point of life where u start to think maturedly, gradually...
U start working,earning ur own money n treasure it...start to pay 4 ur own car, ur own 300k apartment, ur monthly Chilli's and weekly Starbucks, ur MAC n Chanel, ur Vera Wang set, ur collection of Adidas trainers, Hush Puppies, Nine West, Bonia n all sorts of shoes, ur Guess, LV, Gucci, DKNY n Fendi bags n watches...Fuh...those r gonna cost a LOT...

n NO, i don't wanna rely on anybody 4 those...even IF i get married to a rich gentleman...

back 2 the old story...mak ai panjang gile ni...

I've learned n implied that...
:: If u LOVE someone, u gotta let him go...If he comes back, then he is meant 4 u::

n so it has...I have cried so badly, letting go that one person whom played so many significant roles in my life...i had so many drastic transitions of beyond my own awareness...but thank you, my dearest Khairul Affendi...the historical ups n downs we shared have helped me gain so much confidence in my life, to stand out in the crowd n be proud of who i am...n i can't do it without my circle of friends whom made it possible 4 me 2 make it thru the darkest storm of hurricanes n ice...yeap, that's how painful it was 4 me...

I received the Dean's list, of which appeared almost impossible with the kamikaze act of taking up 13 credit hours in the period of 8 weeks...alhamdulillah...n i'm so happy that my dear friends are also scoring well in theirs...

Made few new friends..Syak, welcome to the club hehe...I've managed to "merge" my KJ friends with my MMU friends n it turns out so darn GOOD...made peace with the people i had disagreements with...Met few guys of extremely different backgrounds n lifestyle haha...n ya, created some important agendas with Mr. KAZ...

Thank u...all of U...there are too many to thank...

My sisters n in-laws, Alia, Emmy Safina, Farah, Fiza, Aiman Sya'aban, Khair, Apek Jan, Aref, Zana, Aida, Farah Nadziah, Syakirah Mazrah, My Zainals including mak n abah, Alif n Muntz...n yes, i'm not leaving u out, KAZ...

Thank u so much...so so much...

I can finally smile again... :)

¿Donde es mi amor?

Blame it on my Spanish class...
Life gets lonely sometimes...But i thank God for crossing my path with friends, foes and acquaintances...Each of them plays significant roles in mylife, how it goes around and how it affects my adolescence...

To think about it, sometimes it makes me cry..sometimes tears of happiness and sometimes of sorrow...Then again, it makes me smile..As oppose to making me cry, as i grow up, someone has made me realize of the bright side of every negative points been dotted along my storyline... Couldn't be more thankful of all the things happening around me and the memoirs i planted in my sCRAPbook...

There are still a lot of questions in my life...

¿Con quien tuviera yo que encontrarme?....
¿Donde es mi amor?...

Pienso soy enojada...That's why i always end up doing things i never wanted to...Been outta my head a couple of times...

In my life..even with all these beautiful and sorry-ass people going in and out, there has always been that SOMEONE who i often conform with...not to say that i'm plain naive.. just that a lot of logical and sane decisions i made were mostly influenced by his way of perceiving things and how he adapts to it... and how he fusions it with all the insanity, chaos and madness the world has to offer...not that i'm idiotic enough not to be able to do that...just that i have a slight problem on controlling my emotions towards decision-making ONLY when it comes to matters regarding me...Hell yeah, if u ask people of the advices and truth beyond every word i said has always been VERY WISE...

Sometimes i thought after all the things that has happened, it would make me a more resilient lady...arghh...at times it does...but MOST of the time...man i just breakdown and cry...

I have practically everything within my reach...and alhamdulillah i've never been ostentatious...
But then again..there's this tiny dot missing...A significant dot which halts my phrases in order for me to catch a deep breath again...

¿DONDE ES MI AMOR?....

...sob....sob....

BuLL's eYe!!

Say What?!!
Well...people always have sumthin to say about one another eventually...
Hmm...all i can say is that...

::It takes One to know One::

heh....so if u say sumone is a total biatch...hits back on u...
and if u say sumone is a total sweetheart, Hey! hits back on u too!...u see! hehe

like my dear syazana said..."Be original, don't fake it!"...yeah right on sista...
at least i don't need no 6 " chems to make people turn around twice, or MORE! ehehehe

bak kate Aiman... "Ade SESUATU la dia!" hahahaha
oh snap out of it! " Jangan kau nak memondan kat sini!....KEJI!!..." aaaaaaaahahahhahah
Bloody hell!! Kill me sumone please!
BLEEEGHH!!!!

Sob...sob...

:: You're Beautiful
It's true...
I saw ur face...
In a crowded place...
And I don't know what to do...
Coz I'll never be with U... ::

*sob.....*sob......

tHe F|NaLLe...

and at last!! i've reached to the end of my training! weehoo!!!
oh man..this feels so good..no more 6:50 a.m. alarm clocks and RM2.70 of toll charges! argh!

anyway, i miss xybase already..SOMEHOW...as much as i hate the stress at work and the punctualities and datelines and blegh blegh blegh, there are loads of good memories there too...
thanx to the RMS team whom was there at my initial stage of training...

My bestfren at work... Hui Ling...Lady, i'm telling u, if u didn't start the conversation at the discussion room on 20th June, I'd practically be alienating myself there...hehe..thank u so much for being a buddy at work...i appreciate it very much..

Tay, i will not forget all the bully-ing, EVER hehehe...to others ; Lina, Gan, Shida, Skie, Hiew and Hasif...thanx a bunch...u guys made me feel at home... =)
My other bosses...Kim Hua, Yip and Ai Mei, thank u for drilling me on working professionally..
Yeah, i know...those are BIG projects... *wink

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of u who has been around me at work, helping me on sorting all these mambo jambo...Hey, i deserve a break don't u think! it's an international project for God sake, and I posses a sugar-sized knowledge on what was required...so Tay, where's my Haagen Dazs?...and plus plus? JAVA and SQL wasn't so hard after all! heheh...

:: SOEKARNO-HATTA INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT, JAKARTA ::

:: SISTEM KAWALAN DIESEL BERSUBSIDI, a project of KEMENTERIAN PERDAGANGAN DAN HAL EHWAL PENGGUNA ::

Thanx u guys...i never knew i had the ability to be a good graphic designer...and Yip, i'm flattered on the invitation to join u guys later as the company's graphic designer...
THANKS U GUYS.. SOO SOOO MUCH!!!

tH|s wEeK's aGeNdA...

22nd September

My sayang's birthday!!!

HaPpY brThDaY sAyAnG!!!!
Khairul Affendi Zainal

23rd September

My final training day!!!
Weeehhoooo!!!!

Un|vErSaL cOnTrOvErSy...

ok aiman...here goes...

ok...i've not been blogging for days..(je ok!)...been really busy not meman*** ok aiman my dear, but more like WORKING...thank u...
I've been sick really frequently too nowadays..no specific reason to why that occured but i guess it's the dry season and stress...Ok now this is something that i've been thinking about a lot these past few days...

People always come up to me and say...

Always abide ur instincts coz they're like the other U that went through the day just slightly faster so there's a tendency that things will turn out just the way it's supposed to be...
And think with ur brains, not ur heart...For our emotions are games of the satan...

But when these two thoughts collide, i feel that it's just about the same...
I mean, instincts come from the heart...and yet people told u not to listen to what ur heart tells u coz it might just cause catastrophe...Oh man...

Well...i had some really rough times myself few days back..
Not only pertaining me, but also pertaining my own fresh n blood AND the people i care about very much...
I realized that there's so much anger and rage in all of us...that's why nothing works well just enough...there's always these missing, neglected pieces of the bad puzzle laying somewhere..
Of course, we're just plain humans..born to make mistakes...and we often forget...not that we chose to forget, but more of the side effects of our lifestyle...I admit, i've not been a dedicated solehah muslim...and i realized...THAT'S where it all started from...the lack of devotion towards Allah S.W.T....

Hati selalu resah...
Minda selalu berceramuk...
Kening sering berkerut....
Jiwa dan raga hampir terpisah...

That's how bad i felt...Now i'm not entirely ok...
We all know that God will never help us, if we didn't help ourselves...
And that things happen coz we chose it to happen...
Sedar tak sedar sebenarnya the things that happen and revolve around us are the things that we have chosen...we have to learn to except the facts, the package...coz nothing is perfect...
There's yin and yang...Now THAT'S what makes it PERFECT...
The cure for my insecurity, low self-steem, and all these negative vibes in me is in front of my eyes...Kain sejadah yang senantiase berbau harum walau diletak di mana jua...
But we often neglect this...kerana ikutkan sangat hati...nak mengejar dunia...nak mengejar kebahagiaan alam yang sementara...walhal kita boleh kecapi semua itu for infinite time di alam syurga...

Not that we all are not aware of this..but that's the saddest part of being a human being...we are aware and yet we chose to divert our priorities to something else which brings happiness for years, when there's happiness that awaits us for the infinite of time...only some of us are being the true khalifah...but the majority are acting as if the other side is just an illusion...

And the pathetic phrase arises...LIFE STARTS AT 40...What if u were to be dead by 39? Now when does YOUR life starts? or more like WHERE does your life starts?...I chose to settle down now, at the age of 21...to have my own family...i've never felt how good it is to be in a FAMILY... not that i don't have one...but i have one that's more like a unity...not a family...think of the difference in that...

UNITY vs FAMILY...and all i wanted was a happy family...a family of my own...

HeLL yEaH!!!

13 more days to go and i'm off!!
No more internship blablabla...
Report settled, testscript for today settled, employer's evaluation...ooops oh shit...
hehehe..

Man! i miss my friends...my sayang...my sisters...MYSELF!!
Yeay pasni bole gi mandi sungai and go jungle-trekking and mandi laut! weehee!!

bReAkDoWn...

just when i thought life was going great again..arghh...
god backstabbers are like everywhere around me...
freakin dengki people tak habis2, takde keje lain ke weih...
patut ar malaysia tak maju, tgk ar perangai sekor2 camne...&*$684#$&w!!!
working life tak jadi, family tak jadi, anak2 tak jadi, diri sendiri lagi la jgn cite tak jadi ape!
F*** sial....

:: i need sumbody uplifting...sumbody to save me just when i'm a few inches above hell...
sumone who i can rely on everytime without any expectations of favour in return...

life is hard, i know...everything is...don't ask for too much, as i was told over and over again...
but when is it just enough?...when is it too little?...ya allah give me the strength...::

NeW rYtHm....

i've officially moved....
there's a new spark...
gonna take my chances...
no doubts, no regrets, just determination...
gonna heat things up...
let's see how this'll turn out...
bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

tHe sWeEtEsT sOnG...

I've been down
now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
everytime I see you I'm alive
you're all I've got
you lift me up
all my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
take me to the place you cry from
where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
holdin you until the day I die
and I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

** InS|dE uR hEaVen **

DeBuGg|nG hUmAnS..|s tHaT pOsS|bLe?

We often fail to realize that WE humans are equipped with "bugs"....We often forget who we are in the first place...Extreme insecurtity, neglectivity, naivity, vanity (this is my opinion), negativity and affirmitivity are the bugs i was referring to earlier on...

The reason why some of us managed to appear "superior" is because they're smart enough to wrap themsleves with a thin-almost transparent blinds as to avoid potraying their real-selves. It's not to say that this behaviour is wrong, but more to say that this acts as a "defensive" shield upon being condaminated by normal humans...People nowadays envy each other upon achieving success and superiority as they really think that this will show how "powerful and in control" they are... No doubt about it that some of these species really made it to the top with normal human problems, but as to others, they suffer a more complicated way of living...

Coming to the other "blinds" users, there are those who "misused" it for their selfish desires... The fact that they are so smart and slick makes them the "temporary-superiored-ones"... Despite all the "intelligence", these species somehow would get themselves caught in between their ass n shit...and when that time comes, they'll bring out their secret weapon of mass sympathy....The sob stories of what happened in the past, the rage, agony, upbringing and so forth just seem to work everytime...hmm....i wonder why...

And then comes the "extreme low self-esteem ones"...where all the "bugs" have invaded the human body, mind and soul severely...Its an almost "no god damn way to help u" kinda situation when it comes to them, as they succumb to ultimate negativity...I was in that area honestly....and believe that i am still 40% in there...which means..NOT GOOD....I despised myself so much all my teenage years as I tried too hard to make myself feel "belonged" to the people around me...yekhh...whatever...

And lastly my favourite species..the "moderate ones"...I see myself halfway there.. partly am still stuck in the "extreme low self-esteem species", which made me unhappy half of my life...Well time for a change...I see this species often gets everything in moderate..happiness, anger, sadness, whatvere u name it...It's good in everyway....Makes u a modest and kind person of which everyone loves and there's nothing too bad or too good to define these people...They're just..PLAIN MODERATE!...

Lets not be judgemental to others...As it is, we humans created these species ourselves so live with it...if ur not happy, then try to pick the species most likely to make u happy...I know I am so far..

sP|LL|nG uP tHe bEaNs....

Feeza and Khair..watch out...I've got terrifying news for both of U...
Told Emmy, Alia, Fara and Aiman...as usual, Aiman thought somehow it was a favour..

Because of u, Aiman..Ok..i'll stop it...come to think of it...hahah kinda baseless...
Childish behaviour i must say...

Good thing happened is that i'm no longer a half-filled glass..Next week, no more KJ...hope all turns out well.looking forward to it somehow...

This is MY LIFE...This is MY BLOG..These are MY WORDS..These are MY thoughts....
So if u feel like criticizing me upon my personality instead of my work, FUCK OFF...

God Bless...

A b|tCh w|LL aLwAyS bE a B|tCh...

read the title...whoever yg terase bende tuh nak kene kat die or sesape related dgn die bagus la.. sedar la sikit kite ni manusia, cerita senang sgt spread, jadi kalau nak menyundal ngan org tu pon fikir2 la sikit dulu ok...
If u are into "changing" ur stupid high school attitude, then do sumthing about it, prove people wrong, bukan buat bende sorok2, bodoh...Kan dah kate, sooner or later the truth will surface..

I don't know la why people find the pleasure of being with sumbody they "love", pas2 blakang bole share air liur ngan org lain..yg lagi best, dah commited lame, siap kate nak sehidup semati... ya allah gile sundal...

Igt sikit, u buat kat org bukan pasal kononnye u kene banyak kali from org, tapi sememangnye ade sumthin wrong with u wahai setan, sedar2 la sikit...Gile sial, igt perangai high school dok share org tuh dah abis la bile dah besar ni, rupenye masih giat...Bukan nak mulut celupar ok, tapi fikir la, skang nih senang2 kene STD and etcetra...So u think by doing things behind ur "loved" ones skang doesn't mean that the person ur flirting with can't do that to u as well?..

Ya rabi, bukak la mate sikit..Face reality will u...If u can hurt person A n goes flirting with person B, why do u think person B can't do the same to u later on?...Tunggu la sampai one day u tetibe got attached so much with a person, pastu that person leaves u baek nye...Time tuh nak tersembam ke nak bunuh diri ke bagus gak la...Fikir la ape sial u dah buat....

Like i said before...dunia nih penuh ngan kaki report...so mesti la cerita senang spread..Yeah, u can be happy now coz u've "won" one part of a person sampai die sanggup tipu "the loved one"... tapi sampai bile?....heh...bodoh tuh tetap bodoh la..belaja la sampai mati pon sorry to say la, tuhan saje taknak bukak hati bagi pandai sebab ur genitals are made for free...

Lagi sedap malapetaka kene bile "kawan makan kawan"...Sebuta2 yg bole kite dibuatnye percaye that he/she is a true friend, takde nye nak buat sial ngan ur "loved one"..alih2 die pulak yg stim bile lepak ngan ur "loved" one...Gile fucked up sial perangai....ish ish ish...LAGI BEST bile ur "loved" one pon melayan...uuuhh terbaek nye! Lagi satu bonus point bile ur "friend" yg goes flirting with ur "loved" one tuh bole plak at the same time tunjuk konon die baek sgt kat ur "loved" one, bukan aje die dah commited, siap bole go holding hands ngan ur own bestfriend ( of which he/she is stupid enuf not to know la kan that the other person is ur bestfriend)Pastu ur "loved" one pon cam igt he/she tuh buat mcm2 ngan ur "loved" one tuh je...silap la kan, mesti la ur bestfriend report! Due2 bodoh....he/she ngan ur "loved" one...Same bodoh...

Now do u guys see why i don't have that many number of friends? This is why... banyak sangat kawan makan kawan...susah gile nak carik the good n trustworthy ones...
Thanx i shall say to Alia, Emmy, Farra, Feeza, Khair and Farah Nadz for being my TRUE girlfriends...Apek n Aiman thanx for being my TRUE guyfriends...

I speak on behalf of EVERYONE and especially my beloved friends and myself who have been cheated so many times...I wonder when will the good things come to the good ones? Wallahualam...

bLaMe FeEzA n ErKs...

You Are Edward From "Edward Scissorhands." You are very shy and often misunderstood. Innocent, sweet, and artistic, you like to pass your days by daydreaming and expressing yourself through the arts. You are a truly unique individual. Unfortunately, you are quite lonely, and few people truly understand you.

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

FuS|oN Part II

THE THREE STOOGES CONTINUED...

FeEzABeLLe
i've just discovered that die nih bole tahan gatal..ehehe...don't get mad at me ok feeza, there were too many stories being fed...haha..Feeza bile datang mood gile die abis ar.. She'll start crapping like nobody's business...kang tetibe die gelak sorg2 pas2 muke jadi cam lobster panggang...
Feeza gets high demands from the other species of human called Pretty Boys...Its like the highway ok...Mane2 die jalan ke toleh ke belok ke lompat ke menonggeng ke ade aje bende baru...damn u..
Every single time pon she'll get to see the good ones...wait, correction..not only SEE but also GETS HOLD of em...argh....Feeza is the next head-shapeshifter...coz she always transform from neck up..
if not her earings, tetibe kang she has some new lip gloss or eyeliners or eyeshadows or the famous and paling frequently terjadi is the drastic haircuts...One semester u'll see her with the girlish long hair, then comes the japanese style then suddenly the short-hair then suddenly her hair becomes long again...I only knew her for like 3 years and she already have more than 5 goddamn hairstyles! gile nye feremfuan...
Feeza is like my twin, coz everywhere we go, org igt adek-beradek and we'll get this phrase everytime "ey, sape kakak? muke serupe la.." Kepale hotak korang! tgk dekat2, takde makne muke kitorg same...N plus our dresscode bile kuar melepak lebih kurang...She is like the makhluk yg paling bersopan n organized bile makan...She'll eat without a sound, mouth fully shut, and u can see her dish missing slowly portion by portion in a superb order...She'll always have a tissue in one hand in case tercomot, so die cepat2 wipe...Hah satu bende best gile! Feeza shares the same amount of love when it comes to "lepak"ing by the beach, eventhough when the sun is like 90 degrees above...
Lately Feeza loves OU so much that i often hear "En, aku dekat ngan ur place, nak gi OU nih, jom ar!" hehe all in all, she is my definition of the new-age contemporary lady...

kHa|r
khair jenis cam feeza...buat hal sendiri, buat keje sendiri memanjang..khair is a bit quiet when it comes to her personal life...She'll be telling feeza mostly about anything, but not me...agaknye i nih harsh sgt kot towards her..ye khair? i don't know la...khair nowadays slalu sangat "occupied" maklumlah org cinta sedang berputik....she is a lazy bum when it comes to studying, but rajin gile when it comes to getting involved in events, rugby and i think futsal too...
khair never fails to accessorize herself whenever she goes out...khair bile dtg bitch mode die abis ar, tolong jgn dekat...die nye attitude kalah spoilt brat, bahase die tiung tiung and she'll put up a super f***ed up face that no one dares to stare at! I have a strong feeling that khair will never grow taller nor expand any bigger...khair so far i can say is a quite happy-go-lucky kinda person coz you rarely see her in pms mode...
khair same cam feeza when it comes to attracting guys...die nih sebab die kecik chomei, laki mane la tak geram ngan die...and oh ya...don't be fooled by her innocent look, i must stress again ya...coz she is NOT what u think she is..wehehe..so far jarang la dgr khair ade pape masalah..probably bcoz she doesn't tell me often coz she has feeza to pour out to...i'll find out like yonks later la kan..jahat gile...khair is adventurous when it comes to food..even if the food looks gewwwy and disgusting, she'll still put up that cute disgusted face and places the food in her mouth..hehe..khair pon same cam me n feeza, kaki jalan...asal ade tempat bole gi je she'll go, tak kisah la last minute plan ke kamikaze ke...
khair banyak gile kisah2 menarik yg bole diceritakan kat kitorg coz she has been to many parts of the world...ye la, kate her dad works for the embassy, nak buat camne...luckily it happened like when she was still a kid, kalau tak mcm2 colour la ex boyfriend die..hehehhe kiddiinngg...
khair is unpredictable....sometimes she seems as if she has mellowed down, but pas2 amek kau, u'll be surprised of what she was up to...mulut die bertapis, tapi kalau dah bengang, oi tolong la tutup telinga bebudak kecik, malapetaka akibatnye kang...heheh all in all she's is my definition of cute and adorable...

Aiman
he is the most "keras kepale"-ed guy...taknak dgr ckp me n feeza n khair langsung.... ok not langsung la, but most of the time...nih mmg a true happy-go-lucky person..he doesn't give to shitz about what or how people think of him...he lives his life to the fullest...has no regrets of what he did as he has always been the positive thinker among us...
lately aiman starts talking like a "shrink"...he uses all those philosophical terms and languages as if he's writing a literature or giving a very formal speech....but somehow, his words gets to my attention everytime...
He projects himself as a good father (when he becomes one someday)...his love towards theatre is like the love of soulmates...he'll go all out for his stage performances and comes out with good plays...hey, his team didn't go to the nationals for nothing! I never knew this part of him before, but he is THE ULTIMATE DRAMAKING la for sure...hehe...Me and aiman loves to talk in a stupid British slang, lagi2 bile bab2 mengutuk org or each other..hahah somehow it sounds really "POLITE" kan aiman? wahahaa...
Aiman loves his food, very adventurous too...he is like our ultimate weapon when we visit a chinese place coz he could understand their SOS very well...ye la, kate alien camtuh ar die...hehe
when it comes to travelling, aiman is number one...he knows and been to so many places we never knew existed in this country ...I think if i didn't meet aiman back in 2002, i'll feel as if i'm the only alien alive on earth, so i thank god that he created another being just like me!
Year by year kitorg dok plan nak celebrate birthday sesame; me, aiman and khair... tapi disebabkan si cody berjantina lelaki nih tak abis2 ngan theatre die or balik kuantan, i think we'll celebrate it when we turn 40 k aiman...tuh pon if ur not "active" lagi la kan.. hehe
Aiman nih bole tahan gak sundalz die...mentang2 ar he knows how to play around with his words when it comes to approaching ladies, amboi amboi shakespeare pon kalah...But when it comes to giving advices, his words stabs u hard, not kidding....so tolong la jgn memain ngan aiman...
Even so, he is as sick in the head as the rest of us...sometimes sicker..hehehe... He knows exactly the cure for ur pain, mentally ke physically ke....he really knows howta make u feel good about urself and things evolved around u...He is a supportive and a caring muthafucka....
oh ya..if i'm not mistaken, aiman loves collar pins and fridge magnets...i still got a hardrock collar pin with me ok aiman, of which i bought LAST YEAR from MIAMI ok...sundal, tu la tak nak jumpe aku lagi..
One more thing i've just discovered about aiman is that he has a rather high vanity level.. Especially during that time when he got his hair long...mentang2 rambut lawa cam perempuan, lelebih plak nak show off! chit!heheh ok...all in all he is my definition of a classic-souled guy...