:: dOubLe eVeNt ::

happy merdeka to my dear Malaysians....
oh how i wish i was home...
mesti gi tgk fireworks with my dear friends.. :(

happy 6th year anniversary to my darling Farah Nadziah and Sofie...
have a great one, can't wait for ur wedding day! weeeee!!!

:: MeLaNcHoLy ::

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before
Some people say that i'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never
and I'll try to remember who i used to be

I've got one last chance to get myself together
The time has come for me to change again
I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends
don't say that you have given up on me.

Just give me the time and space to heal my head
I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good

:: James Morrisson, One Last Chance ::

:: sAk|t... :( ::

so much for being healthy... i fucked my ligament...
sprained it to be more precise...
the attempt of jogging everyday just didn't work for me, thanks to my last knee injury caused by the stupid tackle by the dumbass pengkid during futsal tournament last year...babi babi babi....

other than that, assignments have been ok la...got 2 assignments out of the way, 5 more to go...
oh ya, thanx aref for the constant sms...and a thousand thanx to my sayang n papa for the smses and phone calls from time to time...love u guys so much...and yes, thank u anas for calling me last night...sorry for the stupid "lagging"ness in our conversation...blame vodafone man...not my baby sony ericsson...heheheh

well, 2 weeks to ramadhan...a part of me is excited, and a part of me is worried...tatau ape nak makan for sahur..and if my tummy could take it...the weather has been making my life miserable, jap sejuk, jap panas....has been around 8 to 21 degrees...tak bagus...mmg tak bagus...

anyway, wish me luck for i have 2 months to go..and i'll be home! tak sabaaaarrrrrr....

:: Po|nTs |n mY L|fE, A pO|nt Of L|v|nG... ::

Papa, aunty Elly, me...Summer '07, Lilydale, Victoria

listening to the latest song dedicated to yours truly, by the everloving sweetheart Bob... :)

reminiscing to the old days of MMU Malacca *all smiles*...and Cyber *sigh*...
Remembered how i made friends to my lovely girlfriends, the times that they've been there for me...regardless of the hours...
And i remembered how i made friends with Anas Hazwan, Syed Shahzli and Che Mohd. Nizar... hehe...funniest shit-ass agendas...hahahah

Also something that hasn't failed on making me burst into laughter is the windsurfing outing with MMU's OARS club...hahah takleh bla, i joined recreational club just to forget my so-called "pain"... heheheh...yang best nye time tu baru start rapat ngan Alif, n baru knal Muntz...tiba2 buddy2 terus...and plus time tuh tiga2 tgh crisis..kuar la masing2 nye tanduk kaaaannn....hahahahahah

the things that we do when we were young...just SWELL... :) Well, not to say that i'm THAT old la kan...but just think about how time flew...oh gosh....

and now i'm at the peak of my studying period...maintaining the pace, not wanting to fall out of course, and wanting to head back to Malaysia with flying colours, finishing my final semester by May 2008 while searching for a career...i can't wait to make Papa proud...the smile on his face brings me tears of joy, a very welcoming, warm, fuzzy and humble feeling...a feeling i call CONTENT...

nothing makes me a prouder than being Papa's daughter... being the 1st, the one and only daughter that has made it overseas, with the intention of fulfilling his wishes, to become an EDUCATOR...wanting to earn that self-respect, being looked up by others...becoming Papa's pride and glory...nothing makes me happier than this...(besides getting married though! hehe)

Papa, eventhough you're not reading this (not in the near future i hope :) ), i would want u to know that i am very thankful for this opportunity, to prove to you on who i really am, and who i could become...and thank you very much for all the support and advices in self-discipline...

I am who i am, because u wanted me to choose for myself, on what to become, who to become and when to become...and i thank u again, for the trust and respect that u have for me...
and that's the best gift a daughter could ever ask for...for eternity... :)

:: s| d|a yAnG nAkaL ::

:: Mohd. Khairul Nizam ::

A Virgo...a very patient man with a very kind heart...
He knows when to say 'No'...
He knows how to mend my broken heart...
He has a VERY interesting family... :)
He's the FIRST to actually put me high up on a pedestal...
He's the FIRST man who moves his way around me through songs...hehe
He doesn't know the meaning of 'Giving Up'...
He LOVES saving his money...
He would never let anyone undermine his lady Liyana...
and the best of all, dia adalah...

:: Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Ku Miliki ::

:: f|ckLe ::

replying to fiza's blog...
yes, indeed, i felt like kicking a guy right smack on his tushies when he said sumthin like "i don't even know if i wanna spend the rest of my life with her"...The "her" concerned is of course, the girlfriend...

Well, yes, have the freakin courtesy to say nice things about ur gf la kan...dah kate nak sgt move on ngan org lain, n said that "u deserve someone better" la ape la....those words macam "ayat melarikan diri dengan care yang sungguh bodoh"....heh...

I, Liyana Zainudin, officially disrespects assholes like above mentioned, and therefore, I shall not become just like one.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Yang Benar,
zazuzaaaasssssszaaass....

:: MeLLoW... ::

i'm just sad...
was i passing judgments?...
or was i thinking too much?...
or am i currently having that mood instability?...

i don't know...
i just don't know...

please don't ask me why...
i just don't know...

i tried, i swear i have been...
i just don't know for sure, just how long it'll take...

i just don't know...
i'm currently a woman struggling to find her thousand meaningful words...

:: wOoAAaaH ::

My blog is worth $1,693.62.
How much is your blog worth?

Courtesy of Anas...wei, mine worths so much wei! hahahah

:: a HaPpY dAy :) ::

class was alright..now we have a "bigger" family..there are 8 of us doing the same level hooray!
well, the boring part was that we started LESSON 1, and already gotten ourselves the first assignment, dued (ade such word ke eh?) THIS FRIDAY..ya rabi tak kesian langsung k...

oh yes, i got a new keycard! yeay! no more shit ass problems with the apartment's doors anymore! kehkehkehkehkeh

ok here's the greatest part...

APPLICATION FOR ONLINE STUDIES = GRANTED!

ya allah! tuhan je tau happy camne k! soooo....i'll be going home somewhere in the 1st week of November with mom... hehe :)

Oh ya, mom's planning to go to Hong Kong Disneyland somewhere in December..hehe...

i'm happy! yeay! and one more thing.. no more classes til 5 p.m.!!! yeehaaa!!
so friends, if u would wanna reach me, u could do so after 12.30 p.m. Malaysian time okiee??

:: MeLbOuRnE, AuGuSt ::

yes, i've safely arrived in Melbourne..alhamdulillah...
flight was shitty..minah sblah kaki bau busuk n kaki kentut..mmg cam sial....
sampai2 je kat city 8 deg...ya rabi, jgn cite la Lilydale...kat 5 deg gak la....beku jap kat situ...
thank god nicole came n fetched me up by surprise...kalau tak, naik shuttle mesti terketar cam org bodo je...

as soon as i got to my apartment, my keycard fucked me up..i couldn't open the front door, let alone wanting to open up my room...mmg sial...tunggu the guy 3 jam, nasib baik la dalam umah sebab nicole ade kunci, kalau tak sendiri mau igt la duduk luar umah tu...5 hours later, the security guard came and opened up my room, tapi pintu takleh shut, sebab dari dlm je bole bukak, dari luar takleh...arrghhh!!! so i have to go down to the stupid office n get my keycard re-programmed esok...

As soon as i got my room opened, vacuumed the room, pastu geram, vacuum satu umah...hehe
then i changed my bed sheets and quilt cover, pastu unpack barang2 (tuh yg paling bosan sbnarnye... :P)...

about 7 p.m. tadi gi supermarket with nicole, beli barang2 umah..gile cost me about 100 dollars... adeh...oh we have a new housemate, chinese...muke nerd selenga habis, ckp mulut serupa tak bukak, jalan pandang bawah,tak bergaul ngan smuorg dlm umah ni..adeh susah...susah....


I miss everyone...i miss my sayang so much...thank u so much sayang 4 sending me off to the airport...i'll be home soon, insya allah...i have to strive and score very well this semester in order for me to get a grant for the online studies...bismillah....
one month in cold cold winter, then ramadhan will be in spring...nasib baik...
oh well, am off to bed...class starts tomorrow at 9 a.m. good god! dah la fees tak bayar agi! heh!

Mohd. Khairul Nizam, I LOVE U UNCONDITIONALLY...I MISS U SO MUCH...muaahh...

:: tHe |dEaL L|fE ::

Melbourne awaits me at 5a.m. local time, Sunday August 5th...
i'm NOT looking forward to going back and study, eventhough it'll be (insyaallah) my final semester in cold cold Australia...
Wish me luck..Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Went to Hartamas yesterday...Raudha sent me off there,then met up with my other half at his workplace...Right after, we went to Square to meet up with my lovely evil triplet, Fiza n Khair...
Had our dinner there and yes, i ate SO MUCH...nak pelahap banyak2 sblom balik, nanti terliur lebih plak kat sane...Fiza had fever and Khair looked tired from work, but they still managed to make me smile..we shared so much laughter,oh how i miss those days back in MMU, with the other perpetrator, Aiman...hehe...rindu sangat2...bile reminisce balik, bole senyum and cry tears of joy...coz they were my saviour, the light of my life... :) Am so glad that all of my friends could easily befriend my sayang...syok gile tgk Fiza and Khair borak ngan Bob k! rase cam sejuk je hati...hehehe luv u guys sooo much! *muah!*

After that, me and Bob went back to his house...he had to take his shower and i obviously had to change my clothes...We then headed to Rum Jungle to meet up with my Aussie friends... Sally, Claudia, Marcus, Beck and Luqa were soooo sure that the place no longer exists, but it turns out that the "place" that they went was the new Jungle, opposite of the "old" one...I was like, Oi! what the heck! hahahaha...Had a good time..My friends were ALL OVER Bob, i swear...they ADORE him! hahahah how pleasing!...Bob ye ye je "Sayang, kite balik awal k? i kene keje esok..." so, of course, i would do anything for my sayang la kan, skejap pon skejap la, janji pegi jenguk jap budak2 tuh since dah promise kan...anyway, in the end, Bob yang semangat gile lepak ngan diorg,tak nak balik awal! hahahah...My feet felt so sore,so I had to just sit and lay back on the god-knows-what-colour couch and enjoyed my Sprite and Marlboro...hah! hehehe

It has been a great week...tomorrow's a new day, of which i taknak bangun n taknak hari tu sampai pon uwaaaaaaaaa!!! Breakfast with Alia, Farah and Farrah, then to Papa's to collect my Dollars, back home, re-check my luggage, and i'll be off to KLIA...uuhhuuu...rase cam nak bawak je Bob masuk luggage k! Sayang, i'm so gonna miss u...

Sedih, sebab we'll be apart for our 1st year anniversary...and also for Ramadhan and Syawal...
uwaaaaa sedih nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :'(

:: a L|ttLe UpDaTe ::

ok, before i go back to melbourne, i believe i should write up the events that took place these past few months...here it goes...

Me, Bobby, Farah, Alia, Sofie, A.J. and Hydir went to Penang via my IO and Sofie's Kelisa...
was freakin awesome...stayed at an apartment in Bayan Baru...Everything was just GREAT GREAT GREAT....makan nasi kandar endlessly, kuey teow la pasembor la ape la, u name it... kalau bole i rase every kedai kat Penang tuh kitorg nak invade...(eh, camtu eh eja, cam pelik plak..hehe)

Futsal tuh jgn cite la, selagi ade duit and bole gather smuorg, selagi tuh la kitorg cari court kosong, ari tu ade la gile kitorg sampai 5 hours of futsal in 3 days, within a week...mmg gile... hehehe

Oh ya, i went to Papa's new house's site in Kota Damansara...location, BEST... blakang umah ade tasik yg sangatlah CANTIK...and my room is beside a POND ok! uweeeee gile best! the design of the house is just tremendously beautiful...ten rounds of applause to Papa!

My Aussie friends datang...Sally, Claudia and Marcus is spending the whole week in KL, and will be departing in the same flight, on the same day as me! hoorraayy!! takde la lonely sangat kan...
Anyway, 2 days back diorg gile, mule2 ingat bawak gi sunway lagoon, turns out diorg changed their minds, bawak gi Genting plak...ye ye la diorg ni taram sampai 2 keping roti canai kat Sri Melur sblom gi, sampai2 sane je, 10 mins after beli tickets, HUJAN LEBAT sial...ya allah kesian gile diorg gile hampa...dah la siap beli tickets for me! hahahahha..tapi diorg kate they had a good time la..smue pakai skimpy clothes, ha terketar2 la sekor2 bile sampai atas tuh...hahahah ye la, diorg pon budget "how cold could malaysia be aye?" hahahahah kan dah! hehehe
Balik dari Genting, kitorg terus gi Hartamas, jumpe boyfriendku yang tersayang and had our early dinner...diorg happy gile sebab i was there, senang nak order ape saje...chomel gile diorg ni...Thanks u guys for coming down! :)

Yeah so that's about it...agenda2 yang lain mmg banyak sangat la kan..taktau nak cite start dari mane..hehehe...oh well...had a great time....thanks to all...

I'LL BE BACK IN NOVEMBER!!! hoorraayyy!!!

:: |n tWo m|nDs... ::

when some shitass agenda hits, does it mean that :

1. It's just karma taking its place

OR

2. We were being TOO nice to people that we get our feet stepped on over and over again?

hmmm....i wonder....