Learning the hard way..Is it always best?...

have u ever felt so shitty not having the power to make people change their minds for their own good?..like literally and unbiasly?

almost everyone of us has been or maybe had been hurt before..emotionally that is...
well...some of my friends are going through such a hard time deciding what's best for each, letting go of the past, moving on and gulping the hard truth...

it's so saddening to know that we dont't have the power to influence people's minds over matters which we may have more knowledge of...we tried, and tried...but eventually we let go, letting our friends take up the decision that we adamantly know, will hurt very much...

but then again..i guess everyone deserves to be hurt...why?
because most of the time, people think with their hearts, not brains...
and this happens especially when it comes to making decisions within relationships...
of course, we would not want to see our friends in pain...
but that's like stealing away their rights on being human beings...
they deserve to be hurt, and hence learn from mistakes...
that's what makes them stronger, wiser, more vibrant...if not as soon, they will be someday..
but at least we do not set paths for them...for they are just like how we were...

i know it gets pretty frustrating to just keep on giving advices..the very same one everytime...
but that's just it...we have to teach our friends to think for themselves...and taking up consenquences of each actions for themselves...

well, i guess learning the hard way is just best...look at me..i'm still standing tall and proud :)

:: |n mY pLayL|sT ::

Took a right to the end of the line
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the (longings) the same.
(Where the dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help.)

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax

:: Relax by Mika ::

:: Sm|Le My LuV... :) ::

Sayang...

I am aware of the fact that we're both not perfect to any extend... and I know that u've been through some pretty shit-ass relationships before..but that definitely didn't stop u from moving on...and I thank you for that..for giving me a chance to luv u, and for giving urself a chance to luv me...

Nothing is ever certain...like a saying, "We make our own plans and arrangements,but at the end of the day, it's God who makes the call"...

I know what u went through sayang..I was there..I was the one who comforted you...and I honestly had no intentions whatsoever to turn that into an opportunity...You know how I am,you know that I was never, and will never be, an opportunist...

I can't wait 2 go home...5000 miles is just too far...and months without you is just too long...thank you for shadowing me with your luv and affection...I am forever grateful...

I hope 2 years is soon enough...so soon that we didn't even realize that we've actually started living under one roof, sharing the same bed...and starting our very own life-long love story... I luv u Mohd. Khairul Nizam...and I won't let anyone come in between us...

hEaRt-MeLtEr...

Mungkin kau takkan pernah tahu
Betapa mudahnya
Kau untuk di kagumi
Mungkin kau takkan pernah sadar
Betapa mudahnya
Kau untuk di cintai

Akulah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu mengintaimu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu mengintaimu

Karena hanya dengan perasaan
rinduku yang dalam padamu
Kupertahankan hidup
Maka hanya dengan jejak-jejak hatimu
Ada artiku telusuri hidup ini
Selamanya hanya ku bisa memujamu
Selamanya hanya ku bisa merindukanmu

:: Pemuja Rahasia by So7 ::

thank you khairul nizam sayang...

a Rad|caL cHaNgE?

hmmm.....
a friend told me that i've made some astonishing changes within myself...
apart from me putting more weight (which i find super annoying), friends said that i've actually learned to stand up 4 myself...and yes, despite me being obnoxiuos, i had not been the person i was supposed to be...

i found grace and self-worth throughout the years...not only does age plays an effect, but also circle of friends...although u might think that my friends are all crappy and childish, hey, look around you...aren't yours too?...

or perhaps you've been too in denial to face the fact that u ain't that worthy enough at playing the next Hitler...

moving away from that, and back to my topic of interest, ARE MY FRIENDS THAT CHILDISH?
i believe NOT...not at all...
you see..there's a fine line between being childish and playing smart...and the majority of my friends are definitely the latter..the fact that my friends have this great ability of creating a synergy between dreams and reality makes them wise people...and of course, we all learn from each other...we create WISDOM within ourselves...

my friends and I had this great deal of consensus, on motivating, supporting and encouraging each other, not only towards improvement, but also towards sensible and logical thinking... at the same time, being the optimistic pessimist, just to not let arrogance come in between... making ourselves transparent towards each other, and making our wisdom quite apparent amongst ourselves...

if u think i'm great..then thank you very much..but I owe it all to my friends...
and the person who turned my life around, successfully making radical changes upon me...
he's none other than my beloved boyfriend...whom insyaallah, with God's will, will soon become a part of my future... :)

I nEeD mY bObBy... :'( n eVeRyOnE eLsE...

i've not been well...
the temp s dropping below 10...
i've not had a good night sleep since i got back...
my blood pressure's dropping (coz my freakin ear hasn't stop ringing!)...
i'm getting fatigueness more often than i used to...
my heart beated tremendously out-of-pace...
i had trouble breathing...
i feel like vomiting almost every morning (NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT, THANK U!)...
all my muscles are pulling...
and my eyes don't seem to be fans of the sun anymore...
and the nerves at the back of my head are boxing each other on every other day...

help...please...anyone?....sayang?...where are uuuuuuuuuu!! uwaaaaaa!!!!

:: a WoRk oF aRt ::

i bet everyone of you who compiled this priceless (in a very good way) scrapbook could remember it like it was just yesterday...the book still makes me weep...

thank you so much...i am utmost grateful....

i have such wonderful friends...luv u guys so much...

:: m|nD-bOggLeR ::

there are 2 sides to a coin...cliche isn't it?

Well, i've learnt something new in Terry's class on our first day...and i've been relating it to practically everything that has been going on around me...

pick a coin...u know there are 2 sides to it..ok...
now, look at the coin closely...what do u see?... DETAILS...
next, hold that coin as far as ur arm could stretch...what do u see?... A COIN...
next, flip the coin, and bring it back closer, and what do u see?... NEW SET of DETAILS...

hah..ain't that worth thinking?...
new acquaintances?...new friends?...new boyfriend?...new business?...new car?
or simply the old ones that u haven't "analyzed"...

don't be judgemental..remember, there's just not only 2 SIDES to a COIN...
there's definitely more to it...

Have a pleasant sleep!

:: |nSeRt T|tLe ::

i don't know why..
i feel so..gloomy today...
maybe it's the weather..or maybe it's the workload...or maybe it's the food that i've been eating...
or maybe because i miss someone...no...i miss everyone...

i wanna go home........

i don't know what 2 feel...i just wanna go home..........