a MoMeNt oF s|LeNcE...

Without realizing...sumtimes we think too much, wonder too much, questioning too much...
Most of the time, life has been really simple and easy...it's us ourselves who made it a hassle...
My significant other used to tell me, "Things happen only when u allow them to happen"... On which, so far, has never been more true...

I've also realized that everytime I pray for something, it will never come to me as I hoped it to... What I'm trying to say is that I do, of course often have my prays come true, but it doesn't appear as if it is a good thing if u see and think of it naively.. U often "feel" that bad luck has been cursed upon u, but actually when u think of WHY it happened... VOALA! it's actually an answer to ur prayer! It's just a matter of time that u open up ur heart and mind to really understand what was the cause for these things happening around u! See, GOD is fair!

So my dear friends...
I suggest that u start opening up to urselves...and who knows... u might just have a new perogative, well, that's what I have now... :) n everything has been tremendously kind and beautiful to me...

|'m |n cUp|d MoDe...

there's a lady who loves u.. more than u would ever have imagined..

sumtimes she doesn't know how to express it..and there are times when she was left clueless, another ladybug comes by..

if only she would've known what 2 say or do... to win that beautiful heart which exists with only one soul...

if only u could hear what her heart really feels inside...for she has not planned for any wrong-doings...

she's openning up to u...maybe it's a bit later than anticipated...but she's still in that period of time...nothing is easy when it comes to expressing ur true, absolute love to that special one...for only He knows....

this lady hopes that one day..that one fine miraculous day, she will outshine others around...
as she knows out of reality, she is nowhere compared to the ones visiting....

she saw that one person, whom not only shined outrageously, but glittered like the stars in te sky... and she planned to keep giving life to those stars, to show to the world how beautiful it is... n stare n cry beneath it....

she is that person who loved u half a decade ago...and still is holding strong to what she believes to be her true soulmate...

and this goes to my luvely Affendi....and to all the lovers out there... eventhough valentine's has passed...let us all retain the warmth all life long...
God bless u sayang...for u have given me all the love in the world...

Life...Me...

If I were a bird...
I'll fly in the blue sky..
If i were a flipper...
I'll swim in the deep blue ocean...
Exploring God's blue coral...
Free my mind and soul...
While enjoying God's creations around me...

I'm a girl...
Confused, lost and trying to overcome my fears...
Fears in life and love...
Haunting me dusk 'til dawn...
Lack of confidence has always been my problem...
In everything i do, everywhere i go, with anyone i talk to...
God gave me strength and will...
Of which i've not used for reasons i couldn't explain...

What's with me?
What's playing in my heart?
Nobody could ever explain...
Not even words dictionaries contain...

I've been seeking love all my life..
God gave me a person to love...
To care for, understand another being just like me...
And get myself outta this immaturity...
Understand about life and its ways...
All through my coming years...

It was thee, who made me feel free..
Out of my misery, slowly and smoothly...
Thee were nothing like i've ever seen..
Someone who does everything with keen...
His love and words like Shakespeare...
So romantic...so strong...
Like a liquid that will never smear...

Praise the Lord for giving and showing me...
All the wonderful things life could bring...
And all that's worth to sing..
The world is like a bun...
And i'm just the sesame seed...
Now so eager to know what the world has to bring...
Now i know...now i see...
That life and me...
Are two tremendously beautiful things...

HeLLo HeLLo..

ok...i didn't know what to do...so i started this thing...good i guess.. since i myself have so many things buried inside..it's killin me so damn slowly...
Life has been so hard...i don't know what to to..where to go...what to think...
This anger inside of me is bubbling like a volcano waiting to erupt...god have mercy upon me..
It's like whatever i feel or think or do don't matter anymore to anyone...
For the first time i feel so empty... The emptiness is always filled half-way thru n it doesn't stay... Often times it lasts for a few hours...then POOF! back to normal...
SNAP SNAP reality check! what the hell is going on nowadays? This is super pathetic!
What ever man...LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE A BITCH n yes, i agree with u Feeza...