:: RaMbL|nGs... ::

love is an experience.
love is pervasive.
love is never obsolete.

love could create an obtrusive content, but most of the time, scar.

He...
a presence that permeated my heart with faith, love and dignity.
most of the time, i wish everyone could feel as lucky.

sometimes my life is just inspiring, impecable..sometimes too viscous and yucky.
someone once said that u shouldn't screw urself up just because ur miserable.
what if it's inevitable?
would that then mean that there are chances of u suffering from bipolar disorder?
how much is too much, how minimal is too minimal?

challenges could be horrendous.
driving absolutes to contemplations.
making one oblivious of own deviated principles.
could life be any much harder?

life is a continuum.
love is a continuum.
sanity is a continuum.
but sadly death is a one off.
people seek for an absolute answer.
but when given one, they want a continuum.
fickle.we are.always.

:: 2 tHe bRoKeN-hEaRtEd... ::

This song makes me weep at times..don't know why though...heh...

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

:: Happy Ending by Mika ::

:: tHe NeVeReNd|nG ::

we can never get what we want...
god has better plans for us...
everything happens for a reason...

The old, simple sayings...how i wish things could just be that simple...
would definitely make my life a hell lot easier...

Tomorrow's our final presentation day/Board Meeting/Industry Network proposal....
i've not rehearsed, therefore i should do it soon...
oh ya, daylight savings starts today, so i'm 3 hours ahead...boorriinnggg....

i've been a bit emotional today...overwhelmed i guess...
how i wish i could forward my life and not go through obstacles of adolescence and maturity...
how i wish i don't have to strive so hard for everything...
or maybe i was just overdoing it....

tuhan kuatkanlah semangatku...through highs and lows...ups and downs....
help me be thankful for what i have...
help me to embrace the paths that u've set for me...
help me to not become a fiasco...

:: SeLaMaT hAr| LeBaRaN ::

hey isn't it funny...
from the word "lebaran", it could mean "festive" (kot!), AND
LEBAR-an..hahaha mmg time ni la smue tiba2 jadi "lebar" balik sebab makan teruk2! hahahah... anyway, to my family and friends AND acquaintances, selamat hari raye, maaf zahir dan batin... saye mohon maaf atas segala benda yang might have hurt your feelings..yes, saye ni mulut laser skit, saye sedar... i'm really sorry...i have been giving stupid reasons for everything, and i realized that i'm a grown woman, and that's not what i was supposed to do....

thanks for everything, all of u...halalkan makan minum saye...Aunty Elly, please tell Papa that this is the only gift that I could offer him, which is of course my achievements, good behaviour and discipline...It all comes back to him, for he has provide me with unbias love, neverending support and guidance, and of course his wisdom..

have a safe journey balik kampung everyone...please be safe...looking forward to seeing u guys in November...

saye tak beraye...byk sgt assignments..adeh...well, i guess u gotta do what u gotta do ey!

Lotsa luv from Australia...Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh walridhuannuhu wajannah walmaghfirrah... :) byk sikit pahale saye..asyik buat dosa je.. hehehhe

p/s: Don't even think of NOT giving me angpaus! i DESERVE them! hahahaha...oh CHAOS, i'll be home for good soon!!! can't wait!!yeay!!!

:: aN aBsTrAcT mOmEnT ::

Have u ever felt so happy in your life that you felt like making friends with the people who screwed your life and self-esteem?

Have u ever felt so much hatred and jealousy that u just wanted to screw these people back?

Have u ever felt so calm that u wanted to just let go of everything, let the world age itself through time?

Have u ever felt that sudden rush of adrenalin and energy that u could actually change the world with a snap of a finger?

Have u ever felt so worthless, as a result of being so mad and angry at yourself for not making the right decision?

Have u ever felt so in love that the world just stops spinning and time stops ticking for u?

Have u ever felt a massive regret over doing something that was just a game of ur own heart?

Now...have i ever NOT tell you how grateful I am to be where I am, with what I have and who I share my happiness with? I have, haven't I..but sometimes it feels as if a lifetime of thanking and mentioning the people involved in my world just doesn't seem enough...I owe everyone that has walked in and outta my life, for helping me grow, making sense of everything, thinking wisely and maturedly and not being bias towards practically everything in life anymore...

Thank you..u know who u are...

:: Double Tag, Screw U Guys! ::

Thanks to my stepmom n uncle...I've been tagged by both, which is superbly APPALLING...
shit..how do i do this...i'd better combine both aye? Don't complain, i'm doing it!
and again, SCREW U GUYS... :P

5 things I have in my huge-ass black bag
1. Guess Wallet, with ZERO Aussie cash, but with RM9 (i thought i had RM19.. someone must've stolen my RM10..dammit!)

2. Sony Ericsson pink z610i mobile phone and HP iPAQ rw6815 PDA phone
3. Nivea strawberry flavoured Lip Balm and one cheap ass eye liner (which i've only used once)

4. Surf,Dive n Swim pencil case (saye student, terima kasih)

5. I know Aunty Elly won't approve this, but nak tau sangat kan, My oxygen "sticks" Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free ngahahhaahha

5 things in my wallet
1. RM9 cash

2. Cards - License, MyKad, Myers, HSBC-VISA supplementary credit card, AmBank prepaid Mastercard, Swinburne Student ID, HRC All Access, Commonwealth Bank, Maybank & CIMB ATM cards, Disney World (final access to Disneyland USA, unlimited period) & MAS Enrich.

3. Receipts - credit/debit cards, tuition fees, various goods purchases.

4. Pictures - Me and Alia, Papa

5. Business Cards - Abg Ebi's, Claudine's, Eddie's, Lorraine's dan sebagainya.

5 things in my favourite room

1. Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free carton..ngahhahhahahah

2. Pink and Red queen-sized bed

3. Stacks of handbags/slingbags

4. Collection of perfumes

5. Collection of watches

Five things I would like to do

1. Finish this semester with Distinction average

2. 1-week stay with sufficient cash in Mauritious Island

3. Bring Bob for a week trip to MovieWorld & DreamWorld in Gold Coast :)

4. Get a bloody good job, at the same time finishing my Master's with flying colours

5. Kumpul duit, maintain kete, bayar umah, KAHWIN. terima kasih.

Five things I'm currently on

1) Cracking my brains for my assignments

2) Defrosting chicken for tonight's buka puasa, mee hoon goreng basah n pedas! yaahooo!!

3) Saving money to pay up my soon-to-be Nokia E90 Communicator (1/2 sponsored by Papa!)

4) Saving money for next Wednesday's class trip to OCAV estate in Fitzroy, then Laksa lunch (ye, saya tak puasa time tu sebab period, hahha), and dessert at Max Brenner with Ewa n Eski after "buka puasa" at their house. weehhoo!!!

5) Ready, Steady, Cook show on TV...my favourite...been watching it religiously ok!

There you go Aunty Elly and Abg Ebi...DON'T PULL THIS "TRICK" AGAIN ok?!
To others out there, this will be my last "TAG" session..screw u..penat ok nak list! hahahah

Next up, I'm tagging NURHAFIZAH, KHAIRIYAH, AIMAN SYA'ABAN, ARIEF and RIENA...
kahkahkahkah...

:: UpDaTe ::

Sorry u guys..
My iPAQ has already been grabbed by Farrah...
heheh thanx babe!
c u in november!

:: HP iPAQ rw6815 ::

For sale, at RM1,500, negotiable...
Bought in January 2007, original HP set, comes with all the default items in box.
Storage card upgraded to 1 gig.
Still in good conditions, no scratch whatsoever.
To enquire, do leave a comment or e-mail me at liyana7@msn.com

Thanks!