m|sS|nG tHe oLd dAyS of MMU...

The pic was taken as mentioned in "labels" at the bottom...i realized that it wasn't so long ago that we had that trip..And so many other agendas that we had in 2006...Yeah, Farrah was missing, she couldn't join us, 4 what reason, couldn't recall...Anyway...the pic was taken right after my final sem of my final year in MMU...nothing was as memorable back then...Farah started being close and joined our luvly clique of four (me, alia, emmy and farrah) after this PD trip..kan farah kan?!..

Alia was cool with the idea of bringing Farah along as they were childhood friends, and as for Emmy, well, she was quite hesitant at first, no offense to Farah, but tau la kan, biase org bertudung ni kan slalu ade hidden agenda..hehe..But it turned out GREAT as hell the minute the four of us (excluding Farrah) got into the car and drove off for PD...And yes, like Farah (who was complaining that she put on 2kgs ), i also put on few kgs...3 ok! heheh (as if it was such a big deal la kan!)...nowadays, even ONE kg is a big deal ok! yah, i was 47 in MMU and now am like 50kgs and NOT going down ok!..damn it..hehe

Oh well, i guess when i start off with my Masters, i'll drop a few pounds more (oh God please! i beg u!)...

It's such a pleasing memory i had in 2006...Even with all the hard times, my friends were always there to just listen and wipe my tears away...they even managed to make me laugh after a devastating situation...How could i ever forget u wonderful people...

Fiza, Khair and Aiman..my heart,my soul,my dignity...They were there few months after i started my year in MMU...never fail to hear my joy,laughter,cries,depressions...Couldn't believe that we've been friends for like 5 years already..time really did fly...I remembered Aiman's weird haircut, Fiza's hypnotizing Swatch,and Khair's black and red Baby-G and freakin petite figure...heheh and the endless nerdy attempts of studying in one of the tutorial rooms before exams, actively joined by Zul..man i miss that guy! Tak abis2 lepak Bistro...Fiza n Khair mesti makan bende same, Cantonese Beef Kuey Teow...hehehe..me n Aiman, tak abis2 vege meals at MesraMMU..dang those were the days!me n Aiman mcm tak penah nampak makanan ok! always bingeing like it was some VS's steak or sumthin! gile babi sial..padahal sayur je! hehehe
Since i've graduated, Fiza's the one who i mostly got to hang out with...coz she was having her training, so she's like in Bukit Jalil, bole la dtg jumpe..Khair is forever busy with classes and hardworkingly trying to pull off her final exams as a result of skipping classes, hehe...Aiman, berjuta kali kate nak turun kl, tak nampak batang hidung pon..when he does, he'll call a day b4 he pushes off for Malacca...damn u Aiman...bwehehe

Not to forget my darlings...Alif, Muntz and Nana...who kept on giving me support eventhough we've got close not so long ago...Alif and Muntz (Miss Controversial haha!), my partners in crime during our attempts of learning windsurfing at PD, along with 14 other participants..yang melayu kampung n jakun habis, the guys were gatal..haha..the others, mmg gempak, they were from Mauritius Island..and one of 'em won best participant! mane aci! they were surfers already! heheheh dang i liked his black tee..heheh...takpe, janji dpt baju, blakang baek nye print "Windsurfer"...terase gempak plak..heheheOh ya, apart from that, it was the first time that Muntz actually went camping, and first time kayaking ok! u spoilt brat! hahahaha...she came just because she heard that i was coming also...ngade!Our friendship, me and Muntz kicked off pretty darn great from there..as for Alif, our friendship became a whole lot stronger since then...

Alif and Muntz were being biatches that time (hehe sorry, mmg pon!) coz they were literally threatening me on posting pictures of me, laying myself lazily on the hammock, while talking endlessly to Kamal (kan name die? tak igt seyh!) who i think was fond of me..haha... turns out that this Kamal had some indirect relations to me kah kah kah...He was a steward for MAS, and was at that time no more but instead was in event management...Kamal was apparently dumped by his ex named D, for she had chosen to be with (who happens to be ) my current bf at that time. Me and my current bf back then, broke off for a while, and that's when he met D, during their Early Entrance Program in MMU...funny ain't it?! dang it's a SMAALLL WOORRLLDD!! not that i'm trying to bring back old, bitter memory, but i think this is funny, seriously! hahahahahah oh well, we were kids back then! kahkahkahkah

The cute lil Nana...got close to her during Global Business class..she knew my lil sister, and was shocked to know who i turned out to be..hehe..since then, we started talking, discussing assignments, having lunch, and the best part, skipping classes..hehehe...she was the NERD (not me eh Na) because she got herself involved with SRC ok! hahahha NEEERRRDD!!!

oh well..the entry is getting too long already..and i'm in the mood for a movie..c yah!
p/s : LUV U GUYS TO DEATH!!!

w|LL I ?...

...ever do things right
...ever have a stable, long-lasting, loving relationship
...ever be less hard-headed
...ever understand others like i was supposed to
...ever make anyone, especially my beloved bf happy
...ever be appreciated
...ever be as gorgeous as others that u like to have an eye on
...ever be as soft-spoken as those around me
...ever succeed in life

i don't know..u tell me...
coz i seem to be of a failure everytime...
i'm just never good enuf i guess...
:'(

i've proven so much n still...there are complains circling around me...
like i'm supposed to be miss perfect...
people have been telling me to be true to myself, well haven't i?
and u guys don't seem to like it...
u seem to love me more as i pretend and act the way u like me to be...

maybe i was and will always be a joke among others...

LoG|c sEnSe PeOpLe...

what's more effective?
hmm let us go thru this together..

Option 1 :

Gangsterism...beat up somebody ur having problems with...bash him/her up badly but not to the extend of death, just to show "who's da man!" ya know?..blegghh..

Option 2 :

Psychology...why not feed him/her with some reality check, some honest words, could be sarcastic and offensive, but not too much...mind u, the famous REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY.. basically dealing, bombarding and criticizing one thru his/her head...

An idiotic moron's statement said that he/she isn't afraid of the party concern's act of GANGSTERISM, of how he/she isn't afraid of getting bashed up badly and so forth..

What I think is that this person is more stupid than the future criminal(not that it's as bad)...
I mean, u stated ur "courageous" shit-ass, trying to tell the world that u r "hati kering" or whatever u call it in BM, and what are u trying to achieve, really...??fight back?..oh please...
by saying that, ur just as stupid as HELL! hahaha...ya rabi, grow up, BIG TIME....

Bullies, game of whacking people up, is soooooooo childish and soooo yesterday honey... now, how old are u again? ur soooo not a minor anymore ok, if u've forgotten about that...

So..the winner is.... PSYCHOLOGY u morrroonnn!!! wahahahahaha

:)

"Just A Step From Heaven"

Tell me that we still belong
Tell me that the will is still alive
There must be another chance for us tonight
'Coz everyone who's walked upon
Trouble or lies, they come and go
We can be the lucky ones
And find love, after the storm

Don't let go
'Coz it's just a step from heaven
And the strength of love is on our side
Soon you'll find
That our faith will take us higher
'Coz we're just a step
Baby just a step from heaven

We don't need to justify our emotions
We don't need to worry 'coz if they hold on
There's a bigger destiny that was made for us
So don't let troubles bring you down
Believe in the foundation of our love
Can't you see my faith in you
Is forever and more

Baby can't you see
This love was meant to be
We can rise above this pain in our hearts

tO wHoM |t MaY cOnCeRn.. =)

Have you heard of the saying
For those who were playing
You don't know what you got till its gone

Well that was my calling
I knew what I was falling into
something that would be so wrong

But I got hold of myself
And changed for the better
I can't get you out of my mind
Cause something inside
made me realize you were fine

Each time we were alone
I guess I didn't know
How far we were apart
Should have spoken from my heart
I guess I didn't know
That each time you go away, I cry
I can't take all these goodbyes

I know from this feeling
Deep inside there's a healing
I know that i'm in control

Everyday I am yearning
This love I feel burning
Burning right through my soul

So let's make a start
Of something that cannot be broken
The mold its so strong

Treat this love as a child
That grows into something worthwhile

Deep love's so deep
Deep love's so deep, yea
I can't take all these goodbyes

Faithfully, I will be
You will see, please believe me
I can't take all these goodbyes

All the time we were alone
Guess I should have really known
Baby you have always been mine

<3...

CooL sHyTe!!

Hey! my BF looks like WENWORTH MILLER!! woohoo!!! wenworth is soooo to-die-for!
bangga ar tuh bob! pfftt!..and ALIA, jangan JEALOUS! wahahahahahah

UtMoSt GoOd Fa|tH?...

have u ever felt shitty of revealing the gruesome truth?...
how do i get to this....

one fine day..u feel that it's just not fair 4 an innocent being being lied to...
but to interfere is just risky...now, what to do?...shut up n leave..or get ur mouth into talking?

and i cleverly chose to get my mouth moving in sequence with certain shapes, while pouring out my voice to create some communication to be understood by the person concerned...yes, i TALKED...but failed to justify the infinite truth...coz somehow i was scared n bailed half-way..
yes, KILL ME..please do...am starting to hate myself overtime..wait, not to worry..i AM leaving soon...

here comes the best part...i know how to teach a person to make a GOOD tea...i gave a teabag, some sugar and a spoon...what's missing is H2O, teabag's brand, and some significant stirring...THAT IS ALL...turns out, my ingredients weren't good enuf...
God this is hard...

well i guess someday, the teabag's brand will be revealed..if the person being taught is hardworking enuf to try all the brands available at the nearest supermarket...and i don't think finding H2O is a problem...and i don't think stirring takes a lot of manpower...

I surrender to my will...i hand this dreadful responsibilty to God...i don't know what to do...
i'll put my sentences to halt...

:'(

My tRa|tS..cOuLd |t bE??...

Blood Type : O ---> HOT

Population
Roughly 38% of the world is O +ve and 6% O -ve.

Traits

Confident and Strong-Willed, Proud, Dedicated, Sociable, Energetic,Extroverted, Frank, Realist, Showy, Flighty, Generalist, Positive, Independent, Risk-Takers, Dislike taking orders, Insecure, Stubborn & Self-Centered.

Make friends easily and go with flow and grasp opportunity. Quick to start a project or chase an idea. Are good at organizing activities. May have short attention span, and expresses strong emotions. May quickly take opposite views that are deep but not always durable. Classic entrepreneurs and movers and shakers.

Express their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types. Have an intrinsic elegance. Sociable and showy. May be good at adapting to circumstances. Words come easily to them. Not self conscious and will frankly reveal inner feelings. Ambitious, but may have issues with detail.

Like to touch and be touched by others.

:: Extracted from Wan Aliaa's blog. hehe ::

My LuVLy NePhEwS...

Happy 1st month birthday Danish Eizal!! November 8th 2006

Welcome aboard.. Danial Iskandar November 3rd 2006

:: Love em to deaatthhh!!! muaaaahh!!! ::

FoRg|vE n FoRgEt?....

something from Oprah's caught my attention..

:: Anger is a cord that ties u to the past, of which holds you back from reaching out for your
future..
Forgiving is letting go of your past, hence allows you to pursue for your future... ::

It is, without a fact, hard to simply forgive and forget. Most people couldn't even forget, of course,
but to what extend are we gonna preserve these negative vibes inside of us? Some people took forever to just forgive too...There's no one to blame...everyone has to take their own time to deal with forgiveness, let go of any grudge...

The addiction towards anger is like exposing urself to cancer-prone environment.
I, however have my anger management to be done too...I get furious nowadays of the nonsense circling around me, of how i have to bare the sequences of not sticking my nose onto someone else's problems...sounds ridiculous? u have no idea...

Best part is, most of us had to undergo this absurd situation...absurd because someone else started the problem and at the end, fucked u up BIG TIME...why..why..why...

Life somehow resembles the gambling in Las Vegas...U lose..u lose..u lose...DING DING u WIN...
and who gets the Gs? Las Vegas...Coz they swallow every penny while ur trying ur luck on every god damn slots and games...And also, take note that Las Vegas gets ROBBED sometimes...hah there u go...When someone else is enjoying the happiness out of ur misery, one day, it'll all get zapped...What do u have to do?..CORRECTO..start all over again...

Lets all take a moment to reminisce shall we...and figure what's worth letting go..what's worth to be kept..what's worth to be dealt with..and what's worth your happiness...

*s|gH...*

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

Everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

....sigh....

:: Everybody's Changing by Keane ::

Selamat Hari Raya...

To all my loyal readers...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
Maaf Zahir je, no batin between us..hehe

Have a good one this year, and 4 many years to come...

Lotsa luv,
Liyana Zainudin...

MeMoR|eS rEm|n|sCeD...

can't help but to reminisce all the fun i had in malacca, back in year 2002...
oh god...

I miss the wackos of Group 49 (We rock! supposed to be the best group in the foundation year of management course, haha) and of course the wonkers of Group 50...

I made so many friends....
The point that i made friends with :

:: Fiza, the tragedy was that she asked me if I were Nadia's sister..haha...and i couldnt stop staring at her hypnotic watch hahaha

:: Khair, always with Fiza and Aiman..tak abis2 tersengih je when i started talking to Fiza. Never fail to not realizing whether she's in class or not coz she's the most petite..hehe no offence darls..

:: Aiman, he was the first one to talk to me...can't remember what was it regarding hehe... Anyway, Aiman, Fiza n Khair used to talk bad about me and called me and my so-called-gang, The Spoilt brats from KL hahahhaa....in the end, All three of em and me just couldn't live without each other..hhehehehe...

:: Aimi, was Eryl's housemate..the NERD in group 50..all she does is STUDY and she gets PMSed pretty quickly coz we wonkers had this habit of blasting the songs at Aimi's room and sang our heart out while dancing like monkeys..hehe

:: Eryl, is someone who has the most unique name.. Erlynna Erwin...i had trouble pronouncing her name at first haha...She and Aimi never fail to comfort me and give me motivating advices when it comes to my relationship back then...She was left alone with my ex in Malacca as all of us moved from there to Cyber for like a year? i think...hehe...

:: Nadia, was Woe's acquaintance, and i got to know her while lining up for hostel registration in Malacca...After sometime, Woe, me and her got close and ended up living in the same house in BBU...hehe...

:: Nasir, the all-italiano-wannabe guy hehe...used to have an endless big crush on Woe, every evening after orientation we'll be hearing his voice calling out for Eryl or Aimi (konon la coz their apartment was at the groundfloor, n that Nasir knew that Woe's gonna be there too hehehe)...

:: Jo Lynn and the gang hehe, the people of Group 49...the smart-asses who helped me A LOT on scoring...we all got close during the task of an English drama/act taken from a novel or so... hehe

:: Hanif Nipplez, my best buddy in Group 49...Will attend classes when i do, and will come out with excuses when i don't..heheh...all my assignments consisted of his name...and we would get "the sandwich" at Plaza Siswa EVERYDAY during break for morning classes..hahaha AND he calls himself Brandon Boyd oh perasan..hahah..still remember the time he did that...and it was the time we were on holidays in PD, all of a sudden he "emerged" from the sea behind zaza, n said "Za, cute tak, cam Brandon Boyd kan?"..hahahahhah

:: Zul, the all-time-nerd-in-disguise...all of us really believed that he's this goody goody tall guy with glasses who will never skip class or go socializing..WE WERE WRONG..hahaha He started lepaking with me, aiman, fiza n khair...and ended up being really close...me n zul would go up to any of the empty lecture/tutorial classes and studied there at night...most of the time fiza, khair, aiman and hanif would come to join in...if it wasn't for him, i won't be scoring my papers for my final semester in Malacca, i swear...hehehe

:: Evie, started being close to her during English class...somehow we became close, as she often lepak with Aiman, Fiza n Khair...Don't be fooled by this one...She looks freakin ladylike n innocent but...i dare not say more..hehe...just wait til she reveals herself to u..hahahha

:: Donna, the girl with the black Kembara..hehe...Super pemalas to go to class or to even go out lepaking...i have no idea on what she has been doing at home..hahaha...she is one wacko herself...
Now this is one person who i would proudly paste the phrase "Looks can be deceiving" on her forehead... aaaaaaahahahahahahahah

We had tons of fun...every evening you'll see the same faces at the same long table at RSU, having pisang goreng, cempedak goreng, keropok lekor and endless cigarette puffing activity...every afternoon, you'll see our faces at either Delimas or MesraMMU, gobbling our lunch...and every nite you'll see our faces at either RSU, Delimas or Bistro...hehehe...

how i wish i can go back to that time...endless laughter, endless smile, endless good food....
i miss all of u...so so much...

My 3 sToOgEs...

A|mAn sYa'AbAn
FeEzAbeLLe
kHa|r

i miss u guys so much...so so much...
:'(

NeVeR eXpEcT 2 mUcH oF eVeRyTh|n...

often times that we underestimate ourselves...
our credibilities, talents..and even the ability to bounce back again after a hard fall...
being perfect doesn't mean constituting all the good things in life....that is abnormal if u ask me...
what i call a normal human being is someone who is caring, loving, sensitive, hard-headed and pain-in-the-ass at times, not egocentric and most important ingredient of all...honest.

same goes for a perfect relationship..one that comprises of endless lovey-dovey months is what i call b.u.l.l.s.h.i.t....i dare u, give me one relationship that lasts let's say...a year without a fight...
u gotta be a person full of rage and denial at the end of your 1-year probation period, psycho...eheh

a friend of mine...whose relationship gave me all the smiles and the faith to be in a relationship once again, just ended his...never was i to expect such thing to happen...let me not say more...
when things like this happen, u stumble...u cry...u start 2 hate urself..pondering every single minute of which might appear worthy 2 u, what fault have u done...and this goes on for the next 24 hours to months to come...for some, it only took days...but for me..it took me a whole year...

after all that has happened during my lonely days, i took a glance at my past, of the days i left behind...i realized of how much time i wasted...how much love i've been restraining myself from , from the others that might have been...but i chose not to regret and fret about it... cause even though it ate up 365 days of my life, it made me a wiser person...a person that doesn't take things for granted anymore..a person who appreciates people's efforts...a person who sees time as golden nuggets laying in a definite set of distance-sequence waiting to be picked, sent down generously by the one and only, the Almighty...condition remains that u cannot turn back and pick up those u accidently missed...so just imagine how many golden nuggets have i left behind my tail...A LOT...

the past teaches u a lot on who 2 become, what 2 become..when and where are of ur own pick. if u ask me, there isn't any suitable time or place 4 anything 2 take place...u gotta make it happen coz in the end its up to ur surroundings to bring u the after-effect of such actions.. good surroundings, favourable results...bad surroundings, don't kill urself yet, everything happens 4 a reason...hehe

to my dear friend of whom i shall not reveal the name...u have been there 4 me 4 the past 2 years or so...and it is an honour that i'm the one u picked 2 be there 4 u now...i know how much it hurts...believe me, i do...and believe me when i say this...u'll get good things when u least expect it, when u don't expect anything in return and of course the most painful phrase of all, when u give urself time to heal...hold on to what u've got...hold on to that lil faith left inside of u...

just hold on...coz i'm here to help u pick up the shattered pieces...

oVeRwHeLmEd... :)

The evening started off with a great GREAT buka puasa with my loved ones...

Unfortunately Eddie had to cancel off due to his job @ Istana Budaya...kambing..Anyway...I however was late..hehe..sorry gurls...but everything turned out so darn superb..
I'm so glad n happy everyone showed up..as this will be my last Puasa+Raya in Malaysia...
Will be celebrating the next 2 come in Melbourne..uwaaaa how sad...The guys bagus btol..Smue taram baek nye perut kenyang cam ular sawa...after berbuka we went up to our room (thanx papa!) n as usual, became camera freaks..hehehehe...

eMmY...FaRrAh...fArAh...aL|a...Me...

sOf|e...HyD|r...bObBy...A.J....

Then at 12:30 am...

A call from mom came in..Saying that my sister is expected to give birth at 2:30am..
ya allah..i was so freakin excited....Got home, freshened up and pushed off...
By the time i got there, my lil sis SMSed me...

BABY ON BOARD!! IT'S A BOY!!!!

Dang!!! i missed all the screaming moaning baby uweking blablabla! hahaha
But fortunately, i got to take up the baby's pics b4 he was sent for his first bath! hehehe

Name : Mohd. Danish Eizal
Time of Birth : 2:10a.m.
Date of Birth : 8 Oct 2006
Weight : 3.45 kg

Aref n Syak, since u guys aren't here...i would like to share my joy by uploading the baby's pictures..isn't he cuteee!!

Alhamdulillah..everything went well....am so happy!!!

LoVe MoDe..hehe

Dream on... Dream away
I think I'm gonna have to stay
Stay forever

I adore... mi amor

You want to take his place
You say you'd treat me better
But, better I know for sure
You see he loves me
And i could never leave him
Never baby, never

Muchacho tu eres mi vida la ternura
Y alegria amor
Y este sueño
contigo sera verdad

Listen... my love, the guy of my dreams
And I will never leave
He's all that I need and more
I'll love him always
What more could a girl ask for
What more could I ask for

You know that I really love my baby
He can give me everything I need
There is no one to take his place
He's got my heart in his hands
Baby, I adore

Mi amor es por ti que yo vivo y por ti suspiro.
No solo hoy, solo hoy si no siempre.
Tu estrella brilla siempre en mi.
Y este sueño contigo sera realidad te quiero mucho
Baby te quiero mucho, mi amor.

you know i love you
you know i need you boy
you know that i really love my baby
he can give me everything i need
and there would never be no one that could take his place
he got my heart in his hands
you're the one that i adore
i'll be forever your love
you're the one that i wanna see
i want you to stay with me..yeah

:: edited lyrics ; I Adore Mi Amore...by Color Me Badd ::
:: dedicated just for my Nizam...i heart u.. ::

tHaNx kHa|ruL n|zAm...

sheila on 7

music song lyrics

pOnDeR pOnDeR pOnDeR...

gave a LOT of thought in my life...
of how i should become...who i should be...why i should be...when n where i should be...

typical of me to say that everything has just fell in its place...
alhamdulillah, endless gratitude to Allah...

through the years i've been wondering of how it would be...
when people often say...

:: Be with someone who loves u more than u love 'em ::

the thought first scares me...
i mean, how could u try to act as in ur in love as much as the other party does?...
now i know...
That it doesn't really "turns out" that way...
like everyone says...love will gradually grow...
believe it..cause it has just happened to me...

the thought that i would never love, trust n feel the warmth n comfort from a being...
made me push myself beyond borders of my own "standard" capabilities...
yah, everything sounds cheesy here...
but seriously...i could NOT believe a single moment of my life right now...

and to my dear friends...
i owe much of my happiness to u...
for u have been the strength on helping me devour my insecurities...
















The significant angelz by my side...

This entry is dedicated to my loved ones...

:: aL|a eMmY fArAh NaJwA fArAh NaDz aL|f FeEzAbELLe kHa|r I-mAn a|m| aReF sYak|rA sYaZaNa aL|yA a|dA cLaUd|nE aPeK eDd|e zAcK wAwA tHe tMn tUn gUyS n not to forget my everloving kHa|ruL n|zAm ::

mY hEaRt|eSt wEeKeNd...

Had a great weekend...
Making money...holiday with friends..and my first holiday with my Khairul Nizam... :)
It's super comforting to know that ur different clique of friends could actually, CLICK TOGETHER hehehe...

Emmy - my 5-year buddy and still going strong...from KJ
Wawa - my 6-year goodfriend who has int the recent years become my buddy...from KL
Aud - my 1-year friend who has also recently become a buddy...from Sarawak/Subang Jaya

Alia, Farah Najwa n Farah Nutz were missing due to own plans..hehe kiddinngg...
Next stop...DAMAI BEACH SARAWAK BAYBEEEEHH!!!