:: The Long-Needed Date ::

.the sky is literally, the limit to this bond we're both comfortably holding on to.

.even the van couldn't separate us.
and i would love for this to stay as it is, for the longest time, insyaallah :)

:: Happy Happy May and June! ::

World of the unemployed has so far been nice to me :) hikkkk!
Not only that I got the chance to bring my mother out for hi-tea, i also got the chance to catch up with dear boyfriend and friends...my goodness, my outdated-self is unexceptable! roaaaarrr!

Oh well, guess everything happens for a reason. :) My birthday was a good descent one. With Bob splurging on food and entertainment for me @ Hard Rock Cafe, and close friends to sing our hearts out and dance the night away to the sounds of good ol' band from the Philipines :) As soon as I got home from KL, mom came up to me and......let the pictures do the talking aye? :)


aaaaaaaa....see the bling-bling? oops, please excuse the lack of cloth on me self yah. hehe...
Yeah so there it was...mom had it in a small cream-coloured box with a huge ribbon on it. It was very very unexpected because all my life, this is the first time that mom had bought me something, instead of the usual "here's some cash for u to splurge on". and so, as soon as i opened it, my heart dropped as my eyes focused on the familiar blue-box with silver ribbon. yeap, it's none other than...tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...Diamonds and Platinums baybeeeeee!!! AND, the best part was that this ring was the ring we both liked, and mom said that it would be the perfect engagement ring :) yeah, maybe some of u have heard, we were supposed to get engaged last January or February, but due to ME not having enough money for anything, we decided to cancel it off and save money for the BIG day. no no, it's not soon my dear friends, moreover that i'm now unemployed, i'd be kidding my parents if i do. hahahhahahahhah! back to where i was, mom wanted to surprise both Bob and I about the ring she bought for me, in other words, and engagement present of course, but since the plans were off, she decided to simply hand it as a good, descent, very adult birthday present. I literally had so much tears and of course, gave mommy a good bear hug for understanding me, and as person I really am.

No people, this entry is not about bragging the average wealth my family has, or the "fortunate events" that I get to experience, but merely on sharing my heartfelt joy and love for my family, and great friends whom I share my tears and laughter with throughout my rebellious years.

Thank you, so much.

:: Reason #1 : Why I hate to work ::

my family's off to Prague tonight, to see my sister, her hubby, and most importantly my darling little nephew Danish. Then they're off to the UK. and my dad just told me that they'll be visiting OLD TRAFFORD.



UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! :'(





BENCI aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ni smue keje nye pasal!
#$*#$P^%@)^&@#%^(_@^_(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: Isi Hatiku Yang Kosong ::

haruskah ku menangis.
haruskah ku berdiam.
haruskah ku hidup begini.

HARUSKAH SEMUA INI MENJADI REALITI?

:: Double Whoopedy Doo! ::

No. 1.

My mom published her book. At just RM23, (without postage fee of course!), this book of more than 200 pages is yours! aiceehhh marketing sangat lame. yeah, anyone interested, just sms me or msg me here kaayy.... :) COD can be arranged, no problemo, pada yang dekat2, or "coincidentally" berada dekat2 ngan saye ye! hehehehe....thanks u guys!



No. 2.

Last Friday was my ever-so-sweating day. I was literally "brisk-walking" in and around One Utama, dragging dear Fiqa, in my attempt to grab the MU Asia Tour tickets. We got there at the Nike shop by 11am, and dear oh dear, the line was already up to 3/4 of the shop!!! The best part was, the promoter mentioned that CREDIT CARD USAGE is a NO GO. NO GO???? wtf? ok fine, maybe they were trying to make ticket sales fair across the nation. whatever. I got furiosed. With just RM200 in my wallet, u really think i could grab even ONE ticket? HELL NO. so. Plan B.

Handphone out, phonebook on, scroll-down..... PAPA.
I was just plain lucky that my father is an fan of MU too. oh and in relations to that, get this; My family's off to Prague and the UK this coming 27th, and my dad decided to visit OLD TRAFFORD. oh heartache! pity me, i had to work!!! blooddyyy heellllll!!!!! oh well, back to the story. yeah, so i kinda ASKED for ticket sponsor. heheheh....Since i couldn't come along, and it's my birthday just next week, Papa decided to give it a GO. He wired some cash for me to buy the oh-so-lovely-paper-ticket! yaahoooo!!!! and so, i quickly get my job done with fiqa at the banks, then split up; fiqa to the office, and me, back to the Nike shop. oh wait, before that, i withdrew a whole lot of $$$$! Panting and dropping sweats within my thin blouse, i quickly got myself to the shop, with utmost surprise that the line has now reduced to just 1/4 of the shop.

Suddenly by then my mind boggled. Why are there so few people? Is it because of the NO-NO usage of credit card? OR HAD THE TICKETS BEEN SOLD OUT? oooooo my heart was thumping so badly, it showed through my pale lips and frantic-like gestures. I keep hearing the supervisor mentioning "RM98 tickets are sold out for today, but bookings can be done la, just that u have to come collect the tickets next Monday. But make sure u pay la today!" OKAY, good sign, because that's not what i want. then i saw the list. holy crap. someone actually purchased NINE RM308 tickets. GILLEEE!!!! u brought THAT much of cash? geez. So, MY TURN. The supervisor put up a super grumpy look, and had his mouth half-open, ready to say the exact same words, when i suddenly say,

"RM308 tickets please? For 2?"

And his expressions turned sweet.
"Adaaaa adaaa....Of course we have, how many miss? Two? Ey you two, get the training passes and langyards ready for this miss. Two ah!"

And I....Oh I put up a BIG BIG SMILE and slowly handed over my money...

"Thank you very much sir", i said.

"You're very welcome miss", said the supervisor.

Indeed, Malaysians are quite pathetic. Whenever someone gets something RATHER expensive, they mutan-ated into something RATHER nice. Pathetic. whatever.

I was sooo happy that i smiled to every passer-by. Oh what a jolly good day!

Handphone out, text: Bob Sayang.

"I got the tickets sayaannggg! Weehoooo!!! Siap dapat training sessions lagi siot. AND AND, seating kite berNOMBOR okaayy..takde makne nak berebut seat! yesss laaaahhhh!!!"


and the rest is history. :)

CAN'T WAIT!

:: Doctor, anyone? ::

Bismillah....

Harap Tuhan buka rezeki saya untuk plans ini. Telahku bercadang dengan encik-cita-cita-tinggi-dan-ade-determinations-tinggi-mcm-saye, yakni zack a.k.a. teman lelaki rusky a.k.a. faiza, untuk sit down and gather up all the options for SLAB/SLAI. Indeed, we are PLANNING to undergo that Skim Latihan Akademik Bumiputera/IPTA, since we both kurang ada duit untuk melanjutkan pelajaran dalam bidang "Permanent head Damage" ini. ye, cita2 kami berdua adalah untuk bergelar Doctor, sejurus kemudian Associate Professor, kemudian Professor, dan paling gempak of course, nak jadi Professor Emeritus (which is close to impossible, unless we have our own goddamn university!). Insya allah, jika ade rezeki kami di dalam bidang ini, kami akan pursue dengan sungguh2...

Saya sendiri tak percaya saye sedang berbicara tentang becoming a Prof, or even to have a freakin Master's at such a young age to begin with! Can u imagine, if I were to succeed within time frame (3 years in exact, insyaallah), i'll be bringing the title Dr. everywhere I go, at the age of 28 or 29!!! gileeeee weeiiiiiihh!!! and if all goes well, Prof. Dr. by the age of 40/45? DOUBLE GILE WEEEIII!!!!!

Ok kaum lelaki, sila jangan takut untuk mengambil isteri yg cita2 tinggi mcm saye. Kami baek hatiiii..betoolll....hehehhee...see see, Bob stayed! hahahhaahahaa!

To Encik Zaakir (saye tau die tak bace ni, so Faiza, tolong sampaikan pesanan ya! hehe),

Mari la kita same2 push each other untuk berusaha mencapai cita2 kita ya! Remember, we NEVER did want to go up to Master's but look at us now, look at WHERE we are. It's such an honour to have step up high on this pedestal, don't u think? :) Ape kate, just one more step, before we actually have the chance to publish our own academic, tertiary books, with OUR respective names, printed on it? Dude, it's just bloody wicked!!!

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim. Ya Allah, Tuhan Yang Maha Kuasa Lagi Maha Mengetahui, berikanlah yang terbaik untuk hamba-hamba mu ini. Amin. :)

:: To Whom It May Concern ::

.PEACE.

:: A Round of Congratulatory Wishes ::

setelah sekian lama saye mendiam, saya akan menghampakan para pembaca saye kali ini. bukan sahaja entry ini mungkin kurang menarik. akan tetapi, saye tahu bahawa ade segelintir pembaca yang akan excited dengan post ini, kerana ia melibatkan kawan rapat kita.


The other toast goes to my dear friend, whom I knew back when he was in the UK (what's with me and UK friends???), Anas Hazwan. 3rd May 2009 was his day of joy and the beginning of his great storybook on life. Anas Hazwan got engaged to Nina (whom i have yet to get to know hehe) and to date, Anas and I have been friends for 6 years now...which seemed like it was just yesterday that he picked me up from home, with him wearing his Man Utd jersey. hahahaha... dude, what happened to the jersey la wei...Tarikh perkahwinan Anas masih lagi tidak saye ketahui, maka haruslah kita ber-Starbucks sebelom kamu berkahwin ye Anas :) ehem, kenal2kan la saye ngan ur new fiance wei :)

I would like to also congratulate Amira Alim who got engaged to Hafeez Nazri quite recently too... Subhanallah ramai nye kawan saye yang dah bertunang ye! :) Fyi, I am just a DAY older than Amira, hehehe....which makes it relatively easy to have that constant alert when it comes to the month of May. Amira, i wish for a lifetime happiness and thank you, for keeping me in the loop, especially when it comes to celebrating the significant days of your life. :)

Oh MAY. 25 days and i turn 25. eeehh what a coincidence! hehehe..I wish ME a good life ahead. Bismillah...

:: Breather... ::

ku sudah bisa terbit dari lembah kemurungan, setelah tujuh kali pusingan hari.

I'm OK. :)

quoting the emerging local singer, slash Amar's brother..

"...hanya engkau yang mampu, taklukkan hati ini..."

AKU CINTAAAAAAAA oOooOoOooOOOoo

:: E'en being emotional. this time, happily. alhamdulillah ::

:: Song of the Month ::

The very first time that I saw your brown eyes
Your lips said hello and I said hi
I knew right then you were the one
But I was caught up in physical attraction
But to my satisfaction
Baby you were more than just a friend

And if you ever fall in love again
You must make sure that the lady is a friend
And if you ever fall in love so true
You must be sure that she feels the same way too

If I said that I would be your one and only
Promise that you'd never leave me lonely
I just want to be the one you need
I just want to be the one to serve you
Sometimes I feel as if I dont deserve you
I cherish every moment that we share


East 17 feat. Gabrielle
:: If You Ever ::

:: Like a Widow In Denial ::

everything that i have hoped for, vanished.

kuasa Allah tiada bandingan. sekali petik, and u end up drowning in your own comfort zone. And now i wanna become everyone else around me. I really do.

i'm eating my heart out. i don't know how to change things for the better anymore. nothing impresses me anymore. i tried so hard...still trying to make myself happy, and simply be content with everything that i have.

the only thing that stalls me from taking a glance at my watch is work. u got it. i am officially a pathetic, no-life, workahlic.

and i'm slowly losing everything, and everyone around me.
thanks JOB. u've done a great JOB indeed.
my life is a joke. a BIG ass joke. let us all laugh, the more the merrier. and now i'm back to the negative me.

NOW THAT'S JUST GREAT.

:: Aku Yang Hilang, Juga Kehilangan ::

As I was about to have that sweet serendipity....reality had to kick in and pull me out.
Bloody hell.

The last 3 months have not been so kind. This is the 1st weekend after three freaking months of serving my employment contract. And just when I'm about to breathe, Jom Heboh calls. Thursday til Monday people, i'll be burning my bloody skin and increasing the frequency of my migraine. Great.

Indeed I am lost. Lost in my own world. Even after countless moral support from practically everyone I am in contact with.

I am envious. Envious of my friends. Practically everyone is either enjoying their well-paying job, or just okay with their very-good-paying job. and where am i as compared to them? nowhere shit ass near, despite me having the highest fucking qualifications and most industrial exposure before i stepped into this thing called EMPLOYMENT.

No, I AM NOT HAPPY. I can be sometimes, but most of the time, i hate it.
I hate for being "too smart". Not only I wasted hundreds of thousands for my bloody Master's, I've wasted my years in this stupid thing in companies called "seniority". A degree holder, who seeks for MY, I repeat, MY expertise gets paid higher. Fucking hell. I can get a senior exec's job done within hours yet that bloody person wasn't even aware of the details! AND gets paid almost double my salary! WHAT THE FUCK MAN? WHAT THE BLOODY ASS FUCK?

Another DISADVATAGE of being "too smart" is that (quoting my friends and relatives):
"Kau ni belajar pandai2 ni, nanti susah laki nak siot....Laki mane yg pandai mcm kau, nak level up with u. Kang mamat 'pandai' pon bole seems like a bloody 'katak bawah tempurung' sebab takleh keep up ngan ape terngiang dalam kepala kau". U see, pandai salah, bangang salah.

ANOTHER DISADVANTAGE:
"Erm, you have a Master's...It's a bit unfair if i offer u a junior level executive right? Coz we can't afford to pay for your level of qualifications..."

OR

"Hmmm....u have a Master's Degree...why wanna work here? There are tons of opportunities for you out there, which also could pay you waayyy better".

FACT:
No one wants to hire a Master's graduate.
Solely because companies are under strict budget. They dont have money to pay you, and if they do still hire you, their "credibility" could be questioned, as a result of not matching someone's qualifications with the basic, floor salary.

Lama-kelamaan saya hilang segalanya.
I slowly lose my hype, my confidence, my interest, my hope, my dreams, my self-esteem, my drive, my focus, my everything, towards my used-to-be goals.

I've got to find something new.
Shit.

:: Dream Job? ::

Adding insult to injury.
I am complaining about my job; the job that most people would go.. WOooOoaAaaHhHHhh.....
but..i don't know....
I have not had a good, descent weekend for the past 2 months. God damn it, i've been working on every goddamn weekend!!!! Ingat dah terlepas from Jom Heboh in Malacca, sekali kene gi duty kat Shah Alam plak. hak elaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

Now u tell me, is it really worth it? If I get paid AT LEAST RM300 a day in the weekends then fine, i'll do it. dah la bayar sikit, pastu replacement off pon takde! the best they could give was "come to work by 11am tomorrow ya!" ....WHAT THE?!!!!!

Tiap2 minggu dah keje weekend, habuk pon takde? agak-agak ar weeeiiiiiiii...ingat kitorg ni semua kuli batak takde life ke...ingat korang je yang ade family and life ke.......????!!!!

Bak kate Bob, "Gi makan taik ah!"

:: Bagai Menelan Duri Yang Manis ::

how do u deal with people who are super addicted to having "split personality"?
i am speechless.
i am utterly disappointed.
i am having an enormous empathy, so enormous that i wish i could turn back time, and not grow up...and be accounted for every little teeny-weeny finger up-ping hair-flicking snorting gestures u make; which inevitably WILL back fire u.


aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

no, my dear loyal readers. i did not screw anything up. it's just the biggest ironic agenda to ever, and i mean EVER take place in my life, so far. having the truth to revealed has never been this hurtful. i mean, it didn't happen to me. but the fact that it happened to someone so so so close to me, and had ME revealing the truth FOR her..just..breaks...me....

ya allah...please help us be better in our judgements.
help us be the best in what we can be.
help us abstain from accommodating our desires too much and end up getting hurt too much, that getting back on our feet seem impossible.

i feel sick. i am sad. i am....i am....i think i just lost myself.

:: Message In A Bottle ::

sorry No Doubt n Brandon Boyd of Incubus, for "borrowing" ur song title.

Dear Little One,

U have bluntly deceived me.

Worst still, I feel utterly deceived.

I can't believe you'd go to the extent of creating "fitnah" to a super holy man, whom taught us how to recite the Quran. The best part is, the "fitnah" was pertaining your own flesh and blood.

And off u go, indulging on the temporary bliss u gained from being all ignorant and arrogant, while u let the others gulping nails and thorns that you've camouflaged with our favourite strawberry shortcake.

And u still have the chicks to ask the holy man to persuade us onto blessing you on your social-encounter-that-turned-out-wrong? Good lord, what have you done?

That's why people call u the LITTLE ONE. your thinking capacity and maturity are too "little". You've just added insult to injury. Get a grip. Orang yang ingat Allah takde perangai macam ni, maka tak payah la nak berpura ingat tuhan walhal kamu hanya insan yang hipokrit.

Oh, if you're wondering why "Message In A Bottle"?. It's because I can't give it to the Little One straight in the face. I've just told you, Little One is such a hypocrite. So, the only resort left is this...having the "ocean" bringing the bottle to the rightful receiver.

........woaaaahhhhh..........

:: Plain Old Saturday ::

Happy Valentine's Day to those who celebrate. Me? As much as I would love to, have not been celebrating since...erm.....2005? Bob doesn't like the idea of us celebrating something that has to do with another religion..well, not that he's being all racial or religious, but yeah...He doesn't even celebrate birthdays! but i have to admit, that i'm simply thankful due to his efforts on still bringing me out for a simple, romantic dinner for my birthday, just because he knows it means a lot to me :)

And yeah, as much as we want to just relax and enjoy our saturday, today had to be the day of the lovers....which means traffic jam and tons of people everywhere. now that'll be the LEAST relaxing. plus, my boss just mentioned about me having to report for duty for the "Hutan Kita" event at Bukit Kiara. there goes my weekend, AGAIN.

Work has been good. i think. I've migrated from Planning unit to Government Relations. yeah, more outdoor stuff and CSR for me. mor exposure ain't it? good for my portfolio that's for sure!

Oh ya, the girls and I have made a point to have a weekly activity of Literati a.k.a. Scrabble, via online yahoo games :) It may sound a bit nerdish, but hell it has been fun! at least we're improving our vocabulary every week okaaayyyy :) my vocab is running shitier and shitier, so yeah, i NEED the exercise.

I'm thinking of another Master's. Media and Communication perhaps, with AIBD. But that'll mean forking up about RM40k (if i'm not mistaken) ON TOP OF getting the scholarship. Mane nak cari duit ah? Nak buat PhD lagi la mahal! grrrrr.....if only my dad was Warren Buffet or Donald Trump. I won't have to worry about money for education...or better still, not having to worry about getting super great education prior to getting a well-paying job! haaiiihhh.....

Ok enough. Liyana, sila bersyukur dengan ape yg kamu ade.
ALHAMDULILLAAAHHHHHHH.............

*beep* your battery is running low.

:: The Solemnization ::

Thank u Farah for having me at your big day :)
And Khair, these are some of the pictures for u to see, nanti yg lain kene tunggu facebook la i guess :P

:: Boeh Sun ::

Saye nak spread my virus in the office.

I know ur reading this Fiqa, GET BACK TO WORK! :P
Fiza Jai, u too!
And u too Shikin!

ngahahahahahhahahahhahahhaha

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:: Sharifah Khairiyah ::

I know i've not spent a lot of time with u, khair...
No, i'm not gonna use "work", or "health" or "boyfriend" as excuse(s)...
I know, has been my fault on not sparing that 2-quality-minutes of my time just to say hi or asking u out for an afternoon cuppa....

I hope Sydney will treat u well...
Please do sms me ur Aussie number a.s.a.p. ok?

Have fun, break a leg..eventhough it's work :) I'm sure you'll have tons of stories to tell us...
Hope to see u my little midget, soon, come April 24th...or maybe 6 months from now....

I will always miss u, and yes, I will always be there for u, just like how u were there for me during my times in Melbourne...

Thank you for being an angel...have a safe trip Khair.

I LOVE YOU TO BITS!

yours sincerely,
The one u guys nicked "SuperBrain" *wink*

:: Confessions of a Fat E'en ::

Just a month ago, i realized that i've put on too much weight.
Yes, i eat and eat AND eat, when i'm stressed out. Tak masuk bile period lagi, lagi la byk makan!
So. I weighed myself. Subhanallah, i was 53.5kg!!!!! Mofo.

So. I started dieting. No nasi until i reach my used-to-be weight of 49kg. Ye kawan2, i put on 4.freakin.5 kg within 2 months. Smue salah tempat keje yg sgt stressful. ish!

So. diet punye diet, 2 days ago, berat dah turun 50.9kg..ya allah happy gile babi. I'm talkin that much of weight within a month's diet of NO NASI ok. erm, chocolates tu still byk la consumption nye, takleh buat ape :P

SEMALAM. saye pergi Zuup kat OU with dear Shikin, Shahrin n Fiqa. LEPAS TU. order la chicken confetti soup. AND fries. I wanted to order a starter-sized soup, tapi my colleagues ni kate "woi, kicik sgt la...agak2 laaa". so yeah, i then ordered REGULAR sized soup. Yg datang nye, bowl mcm DUA E'EN boleh makan. tapi, saye habiskan juga, kerana sayang bayar mahal2, DAN saye habiskan HALF of my Chips in Pail. ERK.

HARI INI. I weighed myself. Subhanallah.....I'm back at 52kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#W*^*%#_)*%@$(%@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After all the hardwork?!!!! Oh cmon man, cut me some slack!!!! Why can't i be like my friends? The type that losses appetite when in stress?! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh benci! All my friends are getting skinnier, and getting a whole lot more money, a whole lot prettier, etc etc, while i stay STAGNANT, and even worse, FATTER and FATTER?! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh not faiiirrr!!!!!

I'm depressed. Seriously.
I AM A FAT HUMAN. I AM 52KG and 159CM IN HEIGHT. AND I CAN NO LONGER FIT INTO ANY OF MY SIZE-24 JEANS.
I AM SUPER FAT.

:: Kerenah Manusia ::

Macam smuorg kate, kite keje mane2 pon mesti ade politik.
To some, it's just minor, to others, might just be a good solid reason for suicide.

Me? i swallow thorns everyday.
My lepak hours have gone down so significantly. and that includes my weekends too.

I always wonder why people work so hard just to get proper living (which varies according to individuals of course). I get slighted most of the time, not only because so many amongst us (including your sincerely) do not get that "acknowledgement" for our work, but instead, adding insult to injury, our work is being "altered" by a few "touch-ups", subsequently having the "superior" party jumping and shouting hallelujah! How sick can the world be? Why must there be people such as these? Why can't anyone just be happy and accept the fact that there are others "smarter" than u?...oh c'mon, even with my Master's, i still consider myself an infant in every way.

Ade pula manusia yg suka cerita "gebang". Cerita letup2 bagai nak rak, seperti die tahu all the nitty-gritty details of the udang di sebalik the batu. orang lain tahu cume ade udang sebalik batu kan? die ni nak gempak, bole kate sbnarnye udang galah baru umur 3 minggu sorok blakang batu tu. yih!

I get so annoyed when someone brings up the conversation about work (and organizational culture of course), then tells the whole world how stressful it is,and then comparing others' experiences of which seems to be of a super minor component of his/her encounters with Mr Pressure. Eh hello, you think you're the only one ke yang bekerja and alami smue ni?

Emmy would know about this person. Person A ni tak habis2 cakap "ala, rilek ajeee" to me. Imagine this; i have been in the company for like 3 months ONLY, as compared to Person A who has been around for years. But, the funny thing is, i know sooooo much more, and deal with a wider scope of clients. Remember, i've only been there for 3 months, and i have a lot more beneficial contributions to the company than Person A. Worst thing is that I've found out 3 of the people before me, whom had the same job scope as I do, quit just after 2-3 months of service. Lots of people also have been mentioning how hard it is to be in my department, and that so far, i'm the most "cekal hati". Ok, we'll see how long this "cekal"ness can stay ahhh...

ok, i'm sleepy. gnite.
Ya Allah berikanlah umatMu kekuatan untuk menempuh cabaran dunia akhir zaman. Amin.

:: Hormones At Playgrounds ::

In my mid 20s, my hormones has yet to stabilize, hence bringing chaos not just to my behaviour, but of course also to the quality of my judgements.

What happens when kids go to playgrounds? They have fun....and, they get hurt.
Dear friends would know what's up with me, and this entry.

Quoting songs.

Oh, life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight, I'm
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up
Consider this
Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try?
That was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream

kuberanjak dari tidurku
mencoba melukis pagiku
berharap keajaibankan datang
daun tak bergerak
sang burung terdiam menanti senyuman

berdiri termangu membisu
apakah yang akan terjadi
akankah keindahan menyapa
rumput tak berpisah
tunduk tak bergoyang menanti sentuhan

berat tuk melangkah
memulai hari ini
namun semua itu sirna
kau kini ada

semua kecupan darimu cukup membuat duniaku terasa lebih terang
secangkir teh hangat darimu cukup tuk awali hari terindah dalam hidupku

Happy 2009.
A toast to us, the small, quite insignificant group of people striving for a good meal, and being promised a thousand roses; with thorns.

:: Peace Note ::

My previous entry is to lepaskan kemarahan.
Coz i dont have the liberty to just shout it out in reality.

Sorry again, I feel so much better now :)
Thanks to Fiza. I love you Nur Hafizah A.P... sangat2.

:: Sakit Hati ::

Kenapa kan, I have ZERO privacy and freedom on what i wanna do?
This is MY LIFE, MY BLOG, MY THOUGTS, MY FEELINGS. Comprehende?

Yang kanan report, yang kiri report.
Sedar tak, ade org lain dlm NETWORK terdekat i.e. the immediate family and friends yang JAUH LAGI BURUK perangai dan hati dari aku? Smue pon nak point finger kat aku, sebab ape? mulut aku laser. u wanna know why? u sendiri tau i was never this bad. YOU pushed me to become who i am. Dulu aku selalu diam, simpan dalam hati, senyum, and end up satu dunia menyakitkan hati aku, smue igt diorg bagus sgt and whatsoever.

Penat aku dok PROVE to everyone i'm good in AT LEAST one thing. tak cukup ke aku blaja skit nye hebat, keje baru beberape bulan org atas dah note my increasingly positive performance dan banyak lagi? Konon org yang menutup aurat, yang konon berbahasa lembut depan muke tu baik. Hati die taknak investigate pulak? how these people punye la kutuk, punye la menjerumuskan diri ke lembah haram lagi teruk dari aku, yang bermuka dua tu jugak yg tak habis2 dpt pujian. ade ke org camni dibuat benchmark against me? WHAT THE?

Btol la, dunia skang ni, org mmg suke judge a book by its cover. suke hati korang la kan?
Nak take my ugly words against me? fikir dulu seribu kali, u, and ur social network, and your family smuenye jauh lagi hebat ke? just because i don't say my prayers 5 times a day means i am horrible?

How about me reciting Quran everyday during Ramadhan?
How about me reciting Yaasin everytime after prayers, sedekahkan kat saudara-mara di alam barzakh?
How about me praying for my parents' neverending wealth in terms of money, knowledge, patience and health?
How about me reciting al-fatihah, ayat kursi and selawat nabi everytime i step in and out of my car, and before going into the house, for my protection and to sedekah to my deceased family?
How about me constantly praying for my sister's success in graduating after so many years of study?

Nak sangat brag about orang lain punye baik and my kejahatan kan?
Do all these people u claim to be BAIK do all of the above? like seriously?
I know for a fact that tons of my close friends are like me. Yes, we don't wear tudung, we don't tutup aurat sepenuhnya, we can be laser-mouthed, but sorry, the last thing we want is to hurt others around us, unless you fellas aggravate us to act as so.

........

Yes i admit. I don't have the looks, I don't have the accent, I don't have the charms. All I have is my superbrains. And yes, the boys and the mean girls have always called me "busuk" back in school. Solely because I've always had bad hair, no sense of fashion and no superbody. But one fact they all know is that i'm on of the school's top student and athlete. Full stop.


p/s: Maafkan saye jika terkasar bahasa. lama sangat pendam.

:: Liyana, bragging about her good qualities. Over and out! ::

:: The Normal Post ::

like always, at this time around, everybody will be wishing everyone else happy new year, happy holidays, selamat tahun baru untuk umat Islam... and then the ever-so-famous statement will appear in everyone's social network site(s), saying "My New Year resolution is.........blablablabla". This is where everybody strive to prove to others that they could achieve what's likely to be UNachieveable SLASH IMPOSSIBLE for them to achieve,....where the fact remains that nothing that they say is the UN or IM because seriously, it's all up to YOU, u know?

Yes, i am the cynical, sarcastic, annoying bitch ur neighbour has been blabbering about. hey, do u really care that much? dont u have anything better to do, STILL?

Ok, my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION is........(drum rolling, skaters crashing on each other, dogs reaping the trash plastics, engines starting....???)....to get rid of the negative vibes around me! oh yeah..a friend of mine bluntly told it to my face, on how so many of my so-called friends have been scorning me, criticizing me and bad-mouthing about me, when they themselves are the real culprits and attitude-criminals. Surprisingly, some of them who were so busuk hati towards me, remained still, busuk hati, and were so bad at keeping it underwraps that it took me less than 5 minutes to see what they've done behind my back. Ya Allah, mmg Tuhan Maha Kuasa, nak tunjuk orang2 mcm ni....and those friends whom i've kept distant with, has been nothing but NICE to me, and thank you so much..coz that's all that i ever asked for :)

A dear friend, also a mother-figure to me, has said this time and time again, and I will try to patch this on my already JAHAT attitude.

"Don't say anything about a person, if u have nothing good to say about him/her."

True, coz at the end of the day, that does nothing but to project who u really are in the eyes of others. Agree?. u should :)

Wawa's getting married this January 1st, then it's Farah Nadziah's, January 30th...elok lah tu, sekor awal bulan, sekor akhir bulan. Congratulations in advance, and NO, my turn is nowhere soon, thank you.

:: Persoalan ::

I am a superwoman.

am i really?

then how come, ..........

:: 0100 hours ::

It's 1 a.m. and i just got back from Seri Pacific KL. Yes, the hotel beside PWTC. What was I doing there u ask? mcm biase la, bukan untuk bersuka ria, but merely untuk bekerja. Majalah 3 won the Anugerah Penerbitan TV (Dokumentari) Terbaik, for the entry "The Other Life of Japan", awarded by the Ministry of Agriculture.

Aaaa so now u know where I work. heh. I don't know the significance of mentioning where I'm attached to...and I'm still wondering why...I blame this on my superior, whom asked "Do your friends know where ur attached to now?". I bluntly said, "No, why? Penting ke?...I like to just keep it low..rase tak cukup penting untuk sesape lagi nak tahu i ni keje mane...bole?"

Ok, since I can't shut my eye, due to 2 straight cups of black coffee and excessive sugar, Faiza, here's the "questionnaire" u tagged. Damn u woman! Wait, i'll tag first aaahh...
haaaa besar2 daku bagi naaa...ok, ready, set, GO!

1) Do you think you're hot?
I've always had this super low self-esteem. Nope, i'm dead boring.

2) Upload your favorite picture of you!



3) Why do you like that picture?
Emmy snapped it, with Alia and Farrah (or was it Farah Nadz? ya allah, tak igt!). It was December 24th, 2006. It was our quality time together before I flew to Melbourne.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
Shyzers. Last month maybe?

5) The last song you listen to?
Sultans of Swing by Dire Straits.

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
Texting Mr. Bob goodnight. He worries so much about me..which is very comforting :)

7) What name you would prefer besides yours?
Aira. That'll be my future daughter's name, insyaallah :)

Tagged peeps:

1. Feezabelle
2. Khair
3. Aiman
4. Fiza Jai
5. Anas Hazwan
   

8) Who is number one?
The girl with the swirly-background Swatch, who drove a black Kembara, and constantly bitched about me to her midget friend and "bengkok" mutant. hehe. Apart from that, she has always been my confidant, the one who soooo understands who i am, where i come from, and the rocky roads i've skated through. yeah skated, coz it was a bloody slow journey and had me suffer with tons of bums and bruises; and again, apart from the other two donkeys mentioned beforehand.

9) Number three is having a relationship with?
Oh, this one cannot say. He'll come himpap my face with his bum! :P But I am sooooo glad that he was who he was, is who he is, and will be, whom I strongly believe he will be...a great man with a great heart, apart from A-class sense of humour and sarcasm.

10) Say something about number five?
I knew him through Myspace, back in 2003 tak silap, right before he took off for Nottingham, UK. He was my long-distance bestie..He called me at least once a week from UK, not to flirt, never..but purely of great friendship. We were friends via Myspace, MSN and phone for a year before we actually met and had supper at Uptown. He is very protective of me, and will do almost anything to keep me away from those who have hurt/is hurting me. Yeap, he is the one and only, jambu Anas Hazwan.

11)How about number four
My bestie at BMW :) I love her for her selamba-ness, and the fact that she sells nice Bajoo online hehe. Dan die kurus, saye jeles ngan die ni sbb badan tak naik2 gak, walaupon setelah saye naik 5 kilo. grrrrrr. We like to consult each other on our career paths. Tak tahu kenape, but it seems to be helping A LOT! :)

12)Who is number two.
The midget I was talking about. Correct. She's my shoulder to cry on, apart from Fiza and Aiman that is...she is walking on that gewy and greasy thread of life..where if she pulls too hard, she may slip so quickly, she couldn't even remember how she got down there. She never, i mean never gives up on someone that easily. Yes, she holds strong faith on everyone, especially those she really cares about..because to her, life shouldn't be easy... at the same time shouldn't be too harsh.

Just because I didn't tag u, does not mean that I dont love u...
It's really because of the "quota" of this tagging session..else i would've tagged EVERYONE in my list!

Nite world. Work awaits me at 1000 hours.

:: Calendar ::

:: Media Prima's Television Network Screenings 2009 ::
- with Marlia -

:: Muzik - Muzik Separuh Akhir ::
- with bestie at work, Shiks -

:: Aquaria, KLCC ::
- Khairul Nizam with the huge arse fishes -

:: One Utama Shopping Centre, PJ ::
- with the smallest Merry-go-round ever -

Work has not allowed me to spare more time for Bob and friends...
and yes Fiza, I do miss u, khair and aimi too...this is heartbreaking...
I managed to spend some time with Aref n Zana last Thursday...and we've missed each other so badly already :(
I'm still waiting for THE results; some of you are already aware of what's this about.
I'd better keep it under wraps first.
I don't wanna put too high on hopes. Bismillah...

It's 12am and I'm still staring at the box lined with LEDs, and hands pushing ever so lightly on this square, plastic PVC-like plank scattered with boxy pop-up buttons.

I need coffee. tomorrow, indeed.
Shit. Training n meeting tomorrow.
That's it. WORK IS GETTING TO ME.

I NEED A MIRACLE

:: HoLLow ::

I was alone on eid adha.
No food, no mom, no bf, no friends, no one, no-thing with me.

I was also alone yesterday...and will be again today...
Where has everyone gone, i ask.
There is nothing but mere silence.

Guess no one's answering my call.
Nobody's coming to my rescue anymore.

:: Memoir of the Heart ::

you're the first thing that crosses my mind.


and you're the last thing i want to be recorded in my mind...

Inevitably true, i have an abundance of brain cells, neurons and storage capacity to record everything that has happened since September 10th, 2006, 'til the day God decides to part us...

:: Kentang Demam ::

I am, the all brown, stemmy-firm, juicy couch potato, recovering from fever.
Yes, I spent the whole day, i.e. from 10.30 a.m. to now, and still on-going 9.10p.m., staring and blinking thousands of times, in front of my mom's flatscreen, jumping between channels 411, 412, 413, 703, 707 and 711. I could press the buttons without even looking at the remote; yeap, i'm getting skillful at this!

Oh well, it's not always that i get to do this. everyday is work work work. supposedly 9-6, but the "normal" people at my workplace would stay at least til 7, and especially on fridays, we'll be at places til late at night. yup, my work is hectic, but i ensure u, i am still thankful that it's not as hectic as Boe's or Syak's, which lasts up to 11.30pm everyday. so ya, i'm still thankful.

Boss just broke it up to us, unlike the past years, next year's bonus would only be a max of 2 months, in contrast to the normal 8 months. babi, aku bawak malapetaka ke? recession it seems next year.great. now i have to make more side income don't i?! *grin*

I miss Bob. I miss Bob. I miss Bob.
Illness does this to me. everytime.
I want Bob. I NEED BOB.

oh, panjang umur! my cell's ringing! :)

:: Serba Tak Kena ::

dah dua hari saye takgi keje...demam, batuk, selsema sangkut kat blakang tekak. annoying.
malam tadi tak sempat nak bermimpi pon...tido tak nyenyak, badan tak selesa. minda juga berceramuk (pegi la mampos kalau takde perkataan tu kat kamus dewan bahasa, BM saye cam cipan).

the past few weeks nothing has been quite like it seemed. i was practically too much in love, then my habit of going into "deep thinking" has not done anything good to me. I really have no idea how Bob tolerates me, seriously. He seems to be the only positive-minded human being right now. well, apart from my besties khair, fiza n aiman of course, just that i've not been in touch with them for quite a while now...

Lyn's getting married this December. So is my Uncle Nafi.
Then comes Farah Nadz's turn in January, along with another Lynn, and my buddy Wawa.
Then it's Hawa's in June, and also Erin. Aimi's somewhere in that time frame too.
Then comes the big news. Dad says my little sister, Nadia is getting hitched next year too. My reluctant Papa said she has been pestering so much that he couldn't say anything to stop her anymore. He told her to wait for her sister (me of course) to "jalan dulu", but Nadia being Nadia, insists on making her decisions a reality. Well, if she has to wait for me, would mean that she'll have to wait for 2-3 more years aye? Guess she "dah tak tahan"? :P
Alia is also seeing someone, and giving it a year. Yes, if all goes well, she'll get hitched too. As for Emmy, well, I guess she's just waiting Muneeb to propose. Farrah, hmm...this one is far too rebellious. And both Farrah and I are so sure that "it's still too early". hehe.

See, everyone around me is getting married. Ewa and Nana are already 5 months pregnant. While Riena is counting the days, anytime now, to give birth to a lovely baby boy. *tears*
Nak kate our relationship tak bagus, tak juga. kami sangat happy. cuma duit menjadi issue, coz it's a pity we're not as fortunate as everyone around us. Yeap, Papa expects both of us to fork up our own money for the "hantaran", and wedding dress AND "tolong sikit2 untuk jamuan makan". I don't need to worry about make-up though coz my sister's an artist herself. But the hantaran itself...*faint* will mean a 5 figure "present" consisting of money and stuff. Bob already has a few thousands with him, and me... I only have a few hundreds for now. How the hell am I supposed to get those thousands in time? shit ass. There's car installment, servicing, insurance, food, fuel, toiletries...then in about 5 years time I gotta build my own house. yes, BUILD ok. peluh nak cari duit. mmg andartu la saye camni. uwaaaaaaa!!!!

Does it always have to be THIS HARD to make money and be happy?... :'(

:: Of Mumbai and 9/11 ::

And they had the guts to claim themselves MUSLIMS, when they had no idea of the basics and teachings of Islam?

You no-brainers are the reasons why the world is against Islam. Morons.
I hope u rot in hell.

And u fellas out there who has no idea about Islam have the chicks to say Islam is "not setting a good example". F off. U shitheads have no idea what the Quran contains. So go fucking study it before u say anything nasty about Islam and generalizing the religion for ur own fucking comfort.

:: Sahabat Sejati ::

Sharifah Khairiyah, Nur Hafizah and Aimi Shazana...

Thank you for today, years ago, and years ahead,
I was so close to being socially dead,
For all its worth, I would love to say,
Forever I wish for you to stay... :)

Love,
E'en

:: Pathetic Off-Days ::

Read the title over and over again. I am frustrated.

Since i've started working at the new place, my weekends have been dedicated to "homeworks".
Yes, again, for the second consecutive weekend, I am here at home, complaining and whining about having to finish my goddamn translation shytes.

Aku nye jobscope "translator" ke?..if u must know, it is ONE of the responsibilities man. But, weekends being spent with this? god help me. mampos aku nak claim overtime.
If my boss don't rate my KPI with at least 4, i'm gonna go berserk. Ye la, eventhoug gaji yg dibayar tak setimpal ngan my qualifications, tapi benefits yg lain berlambak. When i say tons of benefits, i will state this, Who on earth would wanna miss 6-8 months worth of bonus and salary revision YEARLY?! Kau dah gile?! mesti la aku nak seyh!

Ok, stop complaining Liyana. Get on with it. Bonuses are waiting.
Shut up. I'm trying to motivate myself here.

:: Book Club ::

I think I want to start sharing ideas/feedback on books that I've read, or currently reading.
Maybe u guys could drop in a comment or two, and share your picks on books aye? :)

Latest Book to be read: WHO SPEAKS FOR ISLAM?

I saw this book few months ago with hubby, as we walked pass by MPH in Alamanda, Putrajaya. I don't know why, but to me, books that talk about the many dimensions of Islam, and how people of different background sees/interprets Islam, fascinates me. I believe this is MY way of learning more about my religion, taking into account of the ever-changing, modernized world we're living in. I've read bits of it, and I am glad someone actually took the initiative to write something as great as this. As I was telling hubby, this is what I call a humble, honest and the right Islamic way of Jihad. :)

Only 2 copies of this book left in MPH Alamanda, priced at RM90 each, with hardcover. Fyi, they had stacks of these books back when I first saw them. I guess it is a good book after all :P

:: Purple in my Rainbow ::

Now, who would have thought that I would end up in the world of media and entertainment?
gile. It was obviously a super huge jump(s) for me. From and academician, to an IT Security trainee, to now a Corporate Communications executive. The knowledge and experience - priceless.

My syukur to Allah for giving me all these great opportunities to learn, and be good at what I do. Now, all I want is to be nothing more than GREAT at what I do :)

Corporate Comm is a very fun...and tiring job.

1st day - became the balachi, did media clippings, and made new friends.
2nd day - went for induction, was ok. made more new friends, and bumped into old friends.
3rd day slash today - aha, here comes the huge chunk of work. Translations, and hence press release (PRESS RELEASE?????), and photo selections for this year's annual report.great.

3. 3/4 day - HOMEWORK. more translations for press release. EVEN GREATER.

And here I am, wanting to post up entries on Hari Raye but have yet to do so due to time constraints. grrrr. here i am also, making a phone call to aref, asking for help on press release write-ups, complaining to shik about THE homework, and asking aen for the bloody url for internet webmail access. both via sms. why am i going into details? don't know. probably it's the concurrent and life-long after effects of corporate comm.

People, please refrain from asking me out next Wednesday and Thursday as such actions WILL make me go berserk. Yes, I will have to stay back at the office til midnight on Wed, be in the office by 8am the next day, and spend 12 to 13 more hours for the upcoming event. *faint*

Wish me luck people. I really, really need it.
.snooze.

:: Sangsi ::

My ego-ozone has just been depleted with 2 slashes of conservative-minded rays...and i'm all scarred.

The place(s) I called home has now turned to yet another strange new place.

The only person who I thought I knew was me. Thought, is the key word.

I'm all nervous about my 1st day at the new place tomorrow..but here I am, having jumbled up emotions which may just lead me to the ultimate blackhole.

I need to find my sacred place and 5-star retreat again, for this one is diminishing.

If ur thinking what ur thinking, then ur probably thinking wrong. We're fine.

Now I'm even more determined to leave the country. Hello Australia, I'll see u in a couple of years..and this time, most likely for good.

:: Ayat Penyata ::

.I LUV HIM SO MUCH.

:: 207th Entry ::

Yeap, this is, my 207th post since i started blogging back in 2005.
Some of u may just be so bored and tracked me back through time, learning who i am and what my past has done to me.
Never was it a total disaster nor was it a total pleasure to be reading my past. Faiza's bold move on deleting her past entries made me realize about how I've not really erased that part of me.

I wanted to keep the entries.

I wanted them to stay with me.

I wanted to remember.

Solely because, I didn't want to end up in the same world again.
I didn't want to not remember how hurtful, or joyful my love endeavour was; not just with past partners, but also with friends and family.

I am keen on everything that I do nowadays, and I am thankful for that attitude.

I am keen on getting a good job that pays well.

I am keen on creating sources of income.

I am keen on channelling my resources appropriately.

I am keen on learning many things and be great at it.

I am keen on being the best in what i do best.

:: Selamat Tinggal ::

In less than 24 hours, I'll be bidding BMW Asia Technology Centre farewell, as I have made up my mind to pursue the job of my choice; the job that i've been wanting to get my hands on since I graduated from MMU, back in 2006.

Yes, Corporate Communications was what I wanted. I applied to so many places, including the local airline oh-so-established company. :P

So, Hello Hello new company! It's an integrated media company, located in Bandar Utama.
Yeah, U should well guessed it by now, ding ding! :)

A million thanks to Hawa for "forwarding" my applications. How great was this, applied on Sunday, being called for an interview the next morning, filled up the personal particulars form, a set of long-arse questionnaire, 40 minutes interview with THE GM :P, and a one-page speech for an imaginative CEO within 10 minutes.

Total interview duration: approximately 2 hours. gile, tapi sangat berbaloi! yahooo!!!
Syukur alhamdulillah.

:: Tada! ::

A very bimbo-ish entry of course. It's my new hair! hehehhehe

:: Mayday! Mayday! ::

HELP!

I'm having my hair done tomorrow. but i still have yet to have a clue on the style!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thinking of going soft curls and white streaks. aaa gile tak?

IDEAS? HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: Syawal Blessings ::

thank you god for the courage on facing reality, confessions and confrontations. i have found the ultimate solace and peace.

I am so contented with what had happened. This is by far, the most memorable Hari Raya i've ever had in my life. Thank you everyone. Syukur alhamdulillah.... Segala puji bagi Allah, mmg ternyata kuasa tuhan yang maha Esa lagi maha mengetahui.

I got my dream job, alhamdulillah...I'll be reporting as an Executive within the Corporate Communications division, in one of the nation's top integrated media company :)

Thank you Abg Ebi for the 'heads up' on what to expect of the career path of my choice.
Thank you Papa for endlessly supporting my decisions to leave my current employer.
Thank you Mommy for taking all the effort to help me get a condo near my workplace.
Thank you my sisters for comforting me.
Thank you my sayang for walking with me through my decision-making process.
Thank you my friends for constantly making me feel good about myself.
Last but not least, thank you my soon-to-be employer for taking me in only 2 hours after the long-arse, worth-going-for 2 hours interview :)

To my uncle who's in Minneapolis.
Uncle Shaf, i know you'll be reading this. Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir batin...Eventhough we've never met throughout my life, but your pictures and e-mails have kept ur presence dearly in my heart. And I've always had my hopes high on meeting you one fine day. Everytime I read your mails I cried, because distance have kept us far apart. And I know that if u were to be here with us, you would definitely become my favourite, for I've been superbly comfortable upon discussing everything with u, be it personal or work.

I want you to be here on my wedding day.
I want you to be here for my first born child.
I want you to be here for my child's first birthday.
I want you to be here to celebrate my ever-long successful career.
I want you to be here to see the progress of my own, built-from-scratch home.
I want you to be here for the Kenduri Kesyukuran of my new house.
Basically, I want you to be here for every occassion that will take place in my life.

Please come home soon Uncle Shaf. :(

:: I Like Joe Morrison, haha ::

All not lost against Chelsea


By Joe Morrison

Say what you want about Manchester United's current form, they know as well as we do that as long as they are in touching distance come February, they stand the best chance to win the title.

So when they travel to Stamford Bridge this weekend for that gigantic game against Chelsea, things aren't looking too good with central defender Nemanja Vidic suspended after his red card against Liverpool.

So while I can’t see United winning this weekend, neither can I see Chelsea inflict the second consecutive league defeat for Sir Alex Ferguson’s boys. United are too tough mentally and a draw seems the most likely result at the moment.

Don’t ever, ever question Ferguson’s desire. This guy has got so many years of experience on his back and he has seen all the permutations of winning the league. You think he is panicking right now, and do you think he will be even if he loses this weekend? Not at all. The man has seen it all.

I remember not so long ago, Ferguson’s teams always got off to terrible starts but once its autumn, they’ll win every single game in sight.

It’s not about how many points they are behind but to realistically, take a look at the other teams and predict how many points they’ll drop. Will Chelsea drop too many points this season, I think not many.

Then again, to put things further into perspective, Chelsea haven’t lost at home for almost five years and more than 100 domestic games have gone at Stamford Bridge and still, nobody can beat the Blues at that ground.

Chelsea have looked pretty good since the start of the season but the real big talking point was over John Terry’s red card picked up against Manchester City last weekend.

Ferguson was annoyed when they overturned the red card decision and why shouldn’t he? But, I actually think that’s a blessing in disguise.

The way Terry is playing right now, he is more a liability than an asset. If United can get Nani and Rooney running at the Chelsea defence, Terry will give away a free-kick in a good position for United.

Don’t tell me United deserved to lose against Liverpool. Nobody beats a lucky manager and nothing I’ve seen of Liverpool this season suggests to me they are a team that is, or capable of, playing flowing football.

Liverpool were lucky in their games against Middlesbrough and Sunderland, then against Manchester United and Marseille.

And by the way, John Burridge shaves his armpits and waxes his legs. He is not the most hygienic guy around and I suspect he secretly wants to be a cyclist in the Tour de France. I hate to think what he’ll look like in lycra shorts.

Well indeed, results for Man U and Chelsea came to a draw of 1 all....sooooo?
Man U lost to Liverpool....soooooo? (after 4 years kot?)
Man U and Villa, draw....soooooo?

One source also stated that Torres isn't cooperating well with Keane...seems that there's no mutual understanding and chemistry? Ape yg sedang terjadi? ~pause~

And commentators are already talking about Berbatov performing as well as, and living up Cantona's glory days.
*chin up high*

Like Morrison said, wait til autumn comes. nyeh!

:: Quote of the Day Part I ::

Growing Older is Mandatory. Growing Up is Optional.

We make a Living by what we Get, but we make a Life by what we Give.

So let's give back to society, just like what Oprah's practicing. It's gooooooooooood!

:: Lompat si katak lompat! ::

my dear friends,

PLEASE update your blogs. I've been so bored at the office staring at the same alerts and waiting for reply(s) from the supposedly-responsible personnel, which is so far, neverending.

Therefore, i've been blog hopping ~ toink! toink! ~ like nobody's business, reading everyone's great and pathetic lives, of which does not appear to be of a concern to me anymore since i've got my own that i'm superbly thankful for. Yet i still want to read for the purpose of vocabulary enhancements and KILLING TIME ~ mainly.

One thing I find funny about bloggers is that, they make their blogs public, yet criticize people (whom they don't like, most of the time) who read their blogs. I mean, c'mon, what are u? I don't wanna say much, coz it's Ramadhan for sure, but yeah, think about it. Why do you people have to have such negativity towards others? Have you not learnt that such attitude only pushes you away from all the good things in life? Grow up, smile, and stop thinking that every "bad" incidents/persons were "designed" to be attached to you. Stop being so full of yourselves aye?

C'mon people let's sing Barry Manilow's...
Oh i caannn't smiilleee withooouuttt youuuuu!
Now, don't u feel good already?...hehhehehhe

:: Recap ::

....sweep sweep....

yes i know, my blog's getting all dusty and boring, so, here's a quick recap of my boring life for the past month.

1. Goodbye Kak Ija and Family

yeah, my sister and family (of course, that includes my sayang nephew Danish) flew off to Prague, for a little over 2 years, as my brother-in-law is being posted there to "watch over the students". Bob and I got Danish the mini-swimming pool! hahahahha the lil guy loves pools! And so,

Goodbye my love... *heartache*

2. Bob's early birthday celebration

Of course this will be my favourite entry. I brought my significant other to Ole Ole Bali in Sunway Pyramid for dinner. He got all excited that he kept asking me the same sets of questions about the place; from his crib, to the restaurant itself. Cozy i must say, and the portion was bloody huge! *faint* Price = portion, therefore, SO WORTH IT.

The place.

First glimpse of the starter.

Acting all cool as per request. :P

And there he goes!

And what's a birthday without ice cream or cake ey? Too bad i didn't take a picture. I bought him a pint of Haagen Dazs' Belgium Chocolate! subhanallah, he ate 3/4 in one go! and i kept the rest hostage and made my own "let's-go-fat" programme...heheheh


2.a.
aaaa i almost forgot...20th July was the day that I first went cycling at Bukit Cerakah, with Aud, Raudha and Chi Kin. Majority of the bikes for rent sucked, but ours were good :) And so, only 10 mins on the trail, Chi Kin cleverly dared Raudha and Aud to climb up this super steep, rocky hill. Yes, we stopped like 3 times??? 'Twas really bad. heh. But weeks later Aud and I went again and we did quite well! I'm a proud woman!

When was the last time u saw this "burger shack"? hahaha

Aud and Raudha, attempting to regain stamina by smoking their lungs out.

And Chi Kin, disappointed because Graeme ditched him. hahah kidding!

....crack!

My back just cracked. I need to rest sleep.
Nite u guys!

:: Contented ::

Happy 2nd Anniversary Sayangku.

Looking forward to having more years ahead :)

:: Spin, spin ::

Just when I thought that love would lessen with given time.
I was wrong.
I fell in love all over again :)

Thank you sayang.

:: Buka Puasa ::

ok, help.
i don't know what to cook for buka today.
crap.

i'm thinking chicken and potatoes. hmmmm....
tolong!

lasagne?
sitrfry?
stew?
roast chicken?
STEAK?
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...hmmmm...

:: Need vs Want ::

I need a CAT.
I want a CAT.
Sesiape nak kasi or jual anak kucing kat saye? pleeaseee... :(

Tapi,
mom hates cats. she'll penggal my head if she sees one.
aaa wait...kite tunggu mami pindah..then the house is all mine!
and i can have a cat!!! yaaaahoooooooooooooo!