:: Double Tag, Screw U Guys! ::

Thanks to my stepmom n uncle...I've been tagged by both, which is superbly APPALLING...
shit..how do i do this...i'd better combine both aye? Don't complain, i'm doing it!
and again, SCREW U GUYS... :P

5 things I have in my huge-ass black bag
1. Guess Wallet, with ZERO Aussie cash, but with RM9 (i thought i had RM19.. someone must've stolen my RM10..dammit!)

2. Sony Ericsson pink z610i mobile phone and HP iPAQ rw6815 PDA phone
3. Nivea strawberry flavoured Lip Balm and one cheap ass eye liner (which i've only used once)

4. Surf,Dive n Swim pencil case (saye student, terima kasih)

5. I know Aunty Elly won't approve this, but nak tau sangat kan, My oxygen "sticks" Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free ngahahhaahha

5 things in my wallet
1. RM9 cash

2. Cards - License, MyKad, Myers, HSBC-VISA supplementary credit card, AmBank prepaid Mastercard, Swinburne Student ID, HRC All Access, Commonwealth Bank, Maybank & CIMB ATM cards, Disney World (final access to Disneyland USA, unlimited period) & MAS Enrich.

3. Receipts - credit/debit cards, tuition fees, various goods purchases.

4. Pictures - Me and Alia, Papa

5. Business Cards - Abg Ebi's, Claudine's, Eddie's, Lorraine's dan sebagainya.

5 things in my favourite room

1. Marlboro Lights Menthol Malaysian Duty-Free carton..ngahhahhahahah

2. Pink and Red queen-sized bed

3. Stacks of handbags/slingbags

4. Collection of perfumes

5. Collection of watches

Five things I would like to do

1. Finish this semester with Distinction average

2. 1-week stay with sufficient cash in Mauritious Island

3. Bring Bob for a week trip to MovieWorld & DreamWorld in Gold Coast :)

4. Get a bloody good job, at the same time finishing my Master's with flying colours

5. Kumpul duit, maintain kete, bayar umah, KAHWIN. terima kasih.

Five things I'm currently on

1) Cracking my brains for my assignments

2) Defrosting chicken for tonight's buka puasa, mee hoon goreng basah n pedas! yaahooo!!

3) Saving money to pay up my soon-to-be Nokia E90 Communicator (1/2 sponsored by Papa!)

4) Saving money for next Wednesday's class trip to OCAV estate in Fitzroy, then Laksa lunch (ye, saya tak puasa time tu sebab period, hahha), and dessert at Max Brenner with Ewa n Eski after "buka puasa" at their house. weehhoo!!!

5) Ready, Steady, Cook show on TV...my favourite...been watching it religiously ok!

There you go Aunty Elly and Abg Ebi...DON'T PULL THIS "TRICK" AGAIN ok?!
To others out there, this will be my last "TAG" session..screw u..penat ok nak list! hahahah

Next up, I'm tagging NURHAFIZAH, KHAIRIYAH, AIMAN SYA'ABAN, ARIEF and RIENA...
kahkahkahkah...

:: UpDaTe ::

Sorry u guys..
My iPAQ has already been grabbed by Farrah...
heheh thanx babe!
c u in november!

:: HP iPAQ rw6815 ::

For sale, at RM1,500, negotiable...
Bought in January 2007, original HP set, comes with all the default items in box.
Storage card upgraded to 1 gig.
Still in good conditions, no scratch whatsoever.
To enquire, do leave a comment or e-mail me at liyana7@msn.com

Thanks!

:: QuEst|oN oF tHe dAy! ::

I was talking to my dear cousin, Fendy on MSN this morning..
He asked me a question (in which he was just being dumb la kan)...

"E'en, why do we go to sleep?"
"Because we're tired of REALITY"

it was freakin spontaneous, funny and yet very true at some point, don't u think? hahahah
and of course, Fendy answered "No, because beds don't come to us"...
hahaahah Fendy, tuh jawapan budak tadika please...hahahahah

i guess this is what philosophical studies do to u..hahahhahaha
i think i should take up Master of Philosophy..heh..quite interesting aye? heheheheh

oh ya, shoot me..i think i wanna continue my PhD, let's say in 5 years to come? ngehehehe
Papa will be soooo flattered i swear...hahahah..but yes, he did warn me..

"I'm not gonna pay any of your school fees anymore after this Master's course ok?"

sorry papa....hehhhehehe

:: sEpTeMbEr uPdAtE ::

firstly, thanx Chaos for listening n taking my words into considerations...i love my team! nyehehehehhe....

secondly, just an update of your dear friend in the cold cold land of Melbourne...

I've been going out quite a lot...been SHOPPIN'..nyeheheh neh, not really for like FUN shopping but merely for BUSINESS attire shopping...argh...a Board Meeting with the company that we're consulting for will be up somewhere on the mid/end of next month...sucky sucky...more workload for us!...haiiihhh....and i don't know why, but my brain refuses to halt even during bedtime, which constitutes to lack of sleep and bulging panda eyes... and that's just faaarr oouuutttt!!! damn it....

Assignments have drained quite a considerable amount of energy I have within me, moreover that i'm fasting presently...not really a good contributor if i may say...:P well, I guess just 6 more weeks and i'll be off this country for malaysia..hooray!!

oh ya, so much drama have taken place, and yes, as usual, i've been actively taking the role of Dr. Love, not so much that i wanted to, but hey, you can't just close an eye about stuff when it comes to your close foreign-friends, right? they've done so much for me here...they're the ones who keep me sane please :)

i'm just keeping my fingers crossed here, hoping that i'll get a job by January...yes, i believe that i've been bugging Abg Ebi quite reasonably in the past few days nyeheheh...Sorry encik, I'm probably just too interested in what you're doing hahahahha...and u won't believe this, but it's an airline company...DING! u guessed it right! hahahahhah

oh well, hopefully all goes well...i am really looking forward to working with my dear dear step uncle... :P don't think i really wanna end up working in KL yet in either one of the 3 oil n gas company that i've applied for...hahahha rase macam wishful thinking plak.. ngahahahah

ok, subuh just kicked in...time to go! :)

p/s: i miss my other half and friends... :(

:: kEpAdA pArA cHaOs ::

sila ambil perhatian...
korang tak penah tgk or dgr aku serious kan?..
skang aku btol2 serious...

KENAPE..everytime aku fly je, MACAM2 masalah timbul dalam team kita?
adeeeeeee aje salah sangka la, kaki kritik on each other la ape la...
u guys wanna hear me out? ok skang aku bukak mulut...

biase la, kita smue satu team mulut masing2 bole tahan celupar...
but is it really NECESSARY to be freakin shouting at each other, pointing fingers at each other in the freakin field?...
korang tak malu ke team lain tgk how POOR our commitment, cooperation and tolerance are towards each other?...
honestly, aku sendiri BANYAK sangat terase bile korang dengan sedap hatinya menjerit suh aku kejar bola la,cakap aku tendang cam bodo la, malas nak lari la...bukan aku nak berlagak, tapi aku tau, sekali aku tendang kat muka korang, ade yang lebam satu kepale kang...pernah korang dengar aku maki hamun korang dalam field? aku slalu marah main2 ade ah sebab aku tau, kalau aku start marah, ade yang nak balas balik nanti...and i'm sorry i had to say that...aku tgh marah sangat ni...
most of the time, i was just playing SMART....there's no need to play HARD and waste ur freakin energy everytime...smuorg ade kelemahan sendiri, but there's no need to be shouting at each other...jangan fikir bagus, please....kita semua masih blajar, ade yang tendang bagus, ade yang tak reti nak passing, ade yang tak pernah nak mengalah jadi goalie..aku cukup marah...

mase aku kat malaysia, smue ye ye ah cakap baik ape smue..skang aku dgr asyik2 conflict, serupa nak pecah team...korang sedar tak sbnarnye team kita BAGUS?....
cuma kadang2 tu, (aku malas nak sebut name, kang korang kate aku plak kaki tuduh) ade some of us yang tak habis2 cakap nak main rotate, nak backup la ape lancau la..last2 terbawak2 sangat, takde langsung rotate within the field..tau nak duduk kat post masing2 je... korang tgk team yang bagus ade buat camtu? this doesn't mean aku suh smuorg lari turun naik, guna otak skit la please....smue pandai2 belaka, takkan benda simple pon tak boleh figure out?

tolong jangan jadi childish please?...kite smue umur dah serupa bole kawen...dan tolong la separatekan ur personal lives from futsal and work...nih tak abis2 terbawak2 mood n perangai bile ade game....so much for everyone nagging at each other for being professional...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE reconsider what ever it is that you've said to one another... and tolong la jangan terjerit2 maki kesalahan team members dalam padang...bile u buat camtu, u jatuhkan air muka n maruah orang...sendiri tau kan macam mane rase die? kalau taknak rase camtu, jangan buat kat orang...kalau orang buat jugak, kau DIAM, and TALK nicely, ckp kau terase at the END of the game...tak payah kutuk belakang la ape la...aku dah FED UP nak cakap kat smuorg...why can't we just play FUTSAL ah? tak habis2 politics...it's just a game for goodness sake!!! and it serves as our weekly exercise...tak sedar ke this is a test for all of us on tolerating with one another...no matter where u are...at work, at play, in MARRIAGE... bende kecik bodoh pon takleh nak selesai, tak payah fikir jauh la ok....please?....

I beg u guys to consider everything that i've just said...who ever that has read my entry, please do spread it to everyone in the team..and PLEASE tak payah tanye "sape yang report macam2 kat e'en?"....aku nak tgk smuorg settle, baik n main cun macam biase by the time aku balik in november...PLEASE....aku nak team aku, dan aku nak main futsal....

Alia, Aud, Raudha, Riena, Erin, Lyn, Jamy, Leni, Wan...tolong tolong tolong... TALK to each other...and stop SHOUTING at each other...aku sayang korang smue...

:: OnE oF tHoSe rAnDoM mOmEnTs ::

i feel blessed...
i just realized that there are more people that actually care for me, and love me for who i am... thank u...all of u... u know who u guys are...

u made my world less bitchier...a whole lot less...hehe :)

yeah, i bet u could guess by now...

i'm on cloud nine... heeeeee....... :P

:: hApPy rAmAdHaN! ::

yup, the time of the year is here again!
and yes, i am puasa-ing sorang2 kat sini..sangatlah sedih...
takde pasar ramadhan..lagi sedih..
oh well...i guess that's what u get for being ambitious...heh... :P

i've just "ordered" kurma from Ewa...nyehehehehhe
thanks Ewa dear!

to my friends and family...
Selamat Berpuasa!

...i miss pergi terawikh...uuhhuuu....

oh ya..a little update...
Last weekend, I forced myself to GO OUT and LET LOOSE...
so, I called Sai and Ewa for an outing to the city..and SUCCESS! yeehaaa
went to the city with Sai from Lilydale, then picked Ewa, Eski and Hawa up at Melbourne Central...then off we went to Laksa King in Flemington..weehoooo
Laksa sangatlah sedap, tasted just like our very own original Asam Laksa... oh yeah...
After that, we went to Max Brenner...ya rabi, tuhan je tau betape sedapnye the chocolate stuff...
Ewa, Eski and I had Belgian chocolate waffle with ice-cream and streaks of melted chocolate..yuuummm...Hawa had the same waffle but with strawberries..hehe
Sai had the ultimate shyte...Chocolate Souffle....(camtu kan eja? hehe) gile babi sedap...
ha nak puase ni laaa terliur sane sini hahahahaha....hot chocolate die pon best..ah smue best la!

Next up, Cocoa Bar! weehooo!!!
Me and my classmates are off to the city again somewhere next week...
Since i'm the only muslim, we're planning to go after 5pm, so that sampai2 tuh dah ngam2 time nak buka...
Lygon street, the best street EVER...you can get all the halal food, name it, Italian to Indian, they're all there...After berbuka, we're gonna go to Cocoa Bar for dessert! yeehhaaaa bring on the chocolates!!!

anyway, gotta finish up my freaking assignment before the outing...heh...
1 month and 3 weeks to go and i'm done in Melbourne!!! bismillaaaaahhhh...

:: aNoThEr nEw bOrN! ::

Dear Sue, Abg Adeq, Arief and the rest of the Khalids,

Congrats on the new born baby!!!! uweeeeee!!!!
Sue just gave birth to a baby girl, Sept 6th, 2007....
Heeeerrreee's a Virgo! hehehehehhe

Arieeff nak baby pics pleeassseeeee....
Blog it up babe! thaaannnxxxx

Happy happy happy!

:: OuR 1st YeAr aNn|vErSaRy!!! ::

yes, today marks our very first anniversary...
happy sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatt!!!
love u so much khairul nizam!!!

tak sabar nak baliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikk!!!

:: rOcKeRs...dEf|n|t|oN pLeAsE ::

The "rock" bands (or so they call themselves) nowadays have no sense of good lyrics, if i may say...
but that excludes one of my favourite bands, Incubus, of whose lyrics are somewhat metaphoric, even their "swears" were being said in bombastic, or i'd rather say classic English words.

Just look at these lyrics from a song called Nutshell by Alice in Chains...

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I cant be my own
Id feel better dead

Now u tell me, can u actually find rock bands that has actually composed such good lyrics?
This is like a freakin classic poetry! hah! kudos to the old-timers! now, that's Rock...

:: dOubLe eVeNt ::

happy merdeka to my dear Malaysians....
oh how i wish i was home...
mesti gi tgk fireworks with my dear friends.. :(

happy 6th year anniversary to my darling Farah Nadziah and Sofie...
have a great one, can't wait for ur wedding day! weeeee!!!

:: MeLaNcHoLy ::

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before
Some people say that i'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never
and I'll try to remember who i used to be

I've got one last chance to get myself together
The time has come for me to change again
I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends
don't say that you have given up on me.

Just give me the time and space to heal my head
I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good

:: James Morrisson, One Last Chance ::

:: sAk|t... :( ::

so much for being healthy... i fucked my ligament...
sprained it to be more precise...
the attempt of jogging everyday just didn't work for me, thanks to my last knee injury caused by the stupid tackle by the dumbass pengkid during futsal tournament last year...babi babi babi....

other than that, assignments have been ok la...got 2 assignments out of the way, 5 more to go...
oh ya, thanx aref for the constant sms...and a thousand thanx to my sayang n papa for the smses and phone calls from time to time...love u guys so much...and yes, thank u anas for calling me last night...sorry for the stupid "lagging"ness in our conversation...blame vodafone man...not my baby sony ericsson...heheheh

well, 2 weeks to ramadhan...a part of me is excited, and a part of me is worried...tatau ape nak makan for sahur..and if my tummy could take it...the weather has been making my life miserable, jap sejuk, jap panas....has been around 8 to 21 degrees...tak bagus...mmg tak bagus...

anyway, wish me luck for i have 2 months to go..and i'll be home! tak sabaaaarrrrrr....

:: Po|nTs |n mY L|fE, A pO|nt Of L|v|nG... ::

Papa, aunty Elly, me...Summer '07, Lilydale, Victoria

listening to the latest song dedicated to yours truly, by the everloving sweetheart Bob... :)

reminiscing to the old days of MMU Malacca *all smiles*...and Cyber *sigh*...
Remembered how i made friends to my lovely girlfriends, the times that they've been there for me...regardless of the hours...
And i remembered how i made friends with Anas Hazwan, Syed Shahzli and Che Mohd. Nizar... hehe...funniest shit-ass agendas...hahahah

Also something that hasn't failed on making me burst into laughter is the windsurfing outing with MMU's OARS club...hahah takleh bla, i joined recreational club just to forget my so-called "pain"... heheheh...yang best nye time tu baru start rapat ngan Alif, n baru knal Muntz...tiba2 buddy2 terus...and plus time tuh tiga2 tgh crisis..kuar la masing2 nye tanduk kaaaannn....hahahahahah

the things that we do when we were young...just SWELL... :) Well, not to say that i'm THAT old la kan...but just think about how time flew...oh gosh....

and now i'm at the peak of my studying period...maintaining the pace, not wanting to fall out of course, and wanting to head back to Malaysia with flying colours, finishing my final semester by May 2008 while searching for a career...i can't wait to make Papa proud...the smile on his face brings me tears of joy, a very welcoming, warm, fuzzy and humble feeling...a feeling i call CONTENT...

nothing makes me a prouder than being Papa's daughter... being the 1st, the one and only daughter that has made it overseas, with the intention of fulfilling his wishes, to become an EDUCATOR...wanting to earn that self-respect, being looked up by others...becoming Papa's pride and glory...nothing makes me happier than this...(besides getting married though! hehe)

Papa, eventhough you're not reading this (not in the near future i hope :) ), i would want u to know that i am very thankful for this opportunity, to prove to you on who i really am, and who i could become...and thank you very much for all the support and advices in self-discipline...

I am who i am, because u wanted me to choose for myself, on what to become, who to become and when to become...and i thank u again, for the trust and respect that u have for me...
and that's the best gift a daughter could ever ask for...for eternity... :)

:: s| d|a yAnG nAkaL ::

:: Mohd. Khairul Nizam ::

A Virgo...a very patient man with a very kind heart...
He knows when to say 'No'...
He knows how to mend my broken heart...
He has a VERY interesting family... :)
He's the FIRST to actually put me high up on a pedestal...
He's the FIRST man who moves his way around me through songs...hehe
He doesn't know the meaning of 'Giving Up'...
He LOVES saving his money...
He would never let anyone undermine his lady Liyana...
and the best of all, dia adalah...

:: Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Ku Miliki ::

:: f|ckLe ::

replying to fiza's blog...
yes, indeed, i felt like kicking a guy right smack on his tushies when he said sumthin like "i don't even know if i wanna spend the rest of my life with her"...The "her" concerned is of course, the girlfriend...

Well, yes, have the freakin courtesy to say nice things about ur gf la kan...dah kate nak sgt move on ngan org lain, n said that "u deserve someone better" la ape la....those words macam "ayat melarikan diri dengan care yang sungguh bodoh"....heh...

I, Liyana Zainudin, officially disrespects assholes like above mentioned, and therefore, I shall not become just like one.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Yang Benar,
zazuzaaaasssssszaaass....

:: MeLLoW... ::

i'm just sad...
was i passing judgments?...
or was i thinking too much?...
or am i currently having that mood instability?...

i don't know...
i just don't know...

please don't ask me why...
i just don't know...

i tried, i swear i have been...
i just don't know for sure, just how long it'll take...

i just don't know...
i'm currently a woman struggling to find her thousand meaningful words...

:: wOoAAaaH ::

My blog is worth $1,693.62.
How much is your blog worth?

Courtesy of Anas...wei, mine worths so much wei! hahahah

:: a HaPpY dAy :) ::

class was alright..now we have a "bigger" family..there are 8 of us doing the same level hooray!
well, the boring part was that we started LESSON 1, and already gotten ourselves the first assignment, dued (ade such word ke eh?) THIS FRIDAY..ya rabi tak kesian langsung k...

oh yes, i got a new keycard! yeay! no more shit ass problems with the apartment's doors anymore! kehkehkehkehkeh

ok here's the greatest part...

APPLICATION FOR ONLINE STUDIES = GRANTED!

ya allah! tuhan je tau happy camne k! soooo....i'll be going home somewhere in the 1st week of November with mom... hehe :)

Oh ya, mom's planning to go to Hong Kong Disneyland somewhere in December..hehe...

i'm happy! yeay! and one more thing.. no more classes til 5 p.m.!!! yeehaaa!!
so friends, if u would wanna reach me, u could do so after 12.30 p.m. Malaysian time okiee??

:: MeLbOuRnE, AuGuSt ::

yes, i've safely arrived in Melbourne..alhamdulillah...
flight was shitty..minah sblah kaki bau busuk n kaki kentut..mmg cam sial....
sampai2 je kat city 8 deg...ya rabi, jgn cite la Lilydale...kat 5 deg gak la....beku jap kat situ...
thank god nicole came n fetched me up by surprise...kalau tak, naik shuttle mesti terketar cam org bodo je...

as soon as i got to my apartment, my keycard fucked me up..i couldn't open the front door, let alone wanting to open up my room...mmg sial...tunggu the guy 3 jam, nasib baik la dalam umah sebab nicole ade kunci, kalau tak sendiri mau igt la duduk luar umah tu...5 hours later, the security guard came and opened up my room, tapi pintu takleh shut, sebab dari dlm je bole bukak, dari luar takleh...arrghhh!!! so i have to go down to the stupid office n get my keycard re-programmed esok...

As soon as i got my room opened, vacuumed the room, pastu geram, vacuum satu umah...hehe
then i changed my bed sheets and quilt cover, pastu unpack barang2 (tuh yg paling bosan sbnarnye... :P)...

about 7 p.m. tadi gi supermarket with nicole, beli barang2 umah..gile cost me about 100 dollars... adeh...oh we have a new housemate, chinese...muke nerd selenga habis, ckp mulut serupa tak bukak, jalan pandang bawah,tak bergaul ngan smuorg dlm umah ni..adeh susah...susah....


I miss everyone...i miss my sayang so much...thank u so much sayang 4 sending me off to the airport...i'll be home soon, insya allah...i have to strive and score very well this semester in order for me to get a grant for the online studies...bismillah....
one month in cold cold winter, then ramadhan will be in spring...nasib baik...
oh well, am off to bed...class starts tomorrow at 9 a.m. good god! dah la fees tak bayar agi! heh!

Mohd. Khairul Nizam, I LOVE U UNCONDITIONALLY...I MISS U SO MUCH...muaahh...

:: tHe |dEaL L|fE ::

Melbourne awaits me at 5a.m. local time, Sunday August 5th...
i'm NOT looking forward to going back and study, eventhough it'll be (insyaallah) my final semester in cold cold Australia...
Wish me luck..Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Went to Hartamas yesterday...Raudha sent me off there,then met up with my other half at his workplace...Right after, we went to Square to meet up with my lovely evil triplet, Fiza n Khair...
Had our dinner there and yes, i ate SO MUCH...nak pelahap banyak2 sblom balik, nanti terliur lebih plak kat sane...Fiza had fever and Khair looked tired from work, but they still managed to make me smile..we shared so much laughter,oh how i miss those days back in MMU, with the other perpetrator, Aiman...hehe...rindu sangat2...bile reminisce balik, bole senyum and cry tears of joy...coz they were my saviour, the light of my life... :) Am so glad that all of my friends could easily befriend my sayang...syok gile tgk Fiza and Khair borak ngan Bob k! rase cam sejuk je hati...hehehe luv u guys sooo much! *muah!*

After that, me and Bob went back to his house...he had to take his shower and i obviously had to change my clothes...We then headed to Rum Jungle to meet up with my Aussie friends... Sally, Claudia, Marcus, Beck and Luqa were soooo sure that the place no longer exists, but it turns out that the "place" that they went was the new Jungle, opposite of the "old" one...I was like, Oi! what the heck! hahahaha...Had a good time..My friends were ALL OVER Bob, i swear...they ADORE him! hahahah how pleasing!...Bob ye ye je "Sayang, kite balik awal k? i kene keje esok..." so, of course, i would do anything for my sayang la kan, skejap pon skejap la, janji pegi jenguk jap budak2 tuh since dah promise kan...anyway, in the end, Bob yang semangat gile lepak ngan diorg,tak nak balik awal! hahahah...My feet felt so sore,so I had to just sit and lay back on the god-knows-what-colour couch and enjoyed my Sprite and Marlboro...hah! hehehe

It has been a great week...tomorrow's a new day, of which i taknak bangun n taknak hari tu sampai pon uwaaaaaaaaa!!! Breakfast with Alia, Farah and Farrah, then to Papa's to collect my Dollars, back home, re-check my luggage, and i'll be off to KLIA...uuhhuuu...rase cam nak bawak je Bob masuk luggage k! Sayang, i'm so gonna miss u...

Sedih, sebab we'll be apart for our 1st year anniversary...and also for Ramadhan and Syawal...
uwaaaaa sedih nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :'(

:: a L|ttLe UpDaTe ::

ok, before i go back to melbourne, i believe i should write up the events that took place these past few months...here it goes...

Me, Bobby, Farah, Alia, Sofie, A.J. and Hydir went to Penang via my IO and Sofie's Kelisa...
was freakin awesome...stayed at an apartment in Bayan Baru...Everything was just GREAT GREAT GREAT....makan nasi kandar endlessly, kuey teow la pasembor la ape la, u name it... kalau bole i rase every kedai kat Penang tuh kitorg nak invade...(eh, camtu eh eja, cam pelik plak..hehe)

Futsal tuh jgn cite la, selagi ade duit and bole gather smuorg, selagi tuh la kitorg cari court kosong, ari tu ade la gile kitorg sampai 5 hours of futsal in 3 days, within a week...mmg gile... hehehe

Oh ya, i went to Papa's new house's site in Kota Damansara...location, BEST... blakang umah ade tasik yg sangatlah CANTIK...and my room is beside a POND ok! uweeeee gile best! the design of the house is just tremendously beautiful...ten rounds of applause to Papa!

My Aussie friends datang...Sally, Claudia and Marcus is spending the whole week in KL, and will be departing in the same flight, on the same day as me! hoorraayy!! takde la lonely sangat kan...
Anyway, 2 days back diorg gile, mule2 ingat bawak gi sunway lagoon, turns out diorg changed their minds, bawak gi Genting plak...ye ye la diorg ni taram sampai 2 keping roti canai kat Sri Melur sblom gi, sampai2 sane je, 10 mins after beli tickets, HUJAN LEBAT sial...ya allah kesian gile diorg gile hampa...dah la siap beli tickets for me! hahahahha..tapi diorg kate they had a good time la..smue pakai skimpy clothes, ha terketar2 la sekor2 bile sampai atas tuh...hahahah ye la, diorg pon budget "how cold could malaysia be aye?" hahahahah kan dah! hehehe
Balik dari Genting, kitorg terus gi Hartamas, jumpe boyfriendku yang tersayang and had our early dinner...diorg happy gile sebab i was there, senang nak order ape saje...chomel gile diorg ni...Thanks u guys for coming down! :)

Yeah so that's about it...agenda2 yang lain mmg banyak sangat la kan..taktau nak cite start dari mane..hehehe...oh well...had a great time....thanks to all...

I'LL BE BACK IN NOVEMBER!!! hoorraayyy!!!

:: |n tWo m|nDs... ::

when some shitass agenda hits, does it mean that :

1. It's just karma taking its place

OR

2. We were being TOO nice to people that we get our feet stepped on over and over again?

hmmm....i wonder....

:: aN oLd wOrK... :) ::

I called U near, I held a packet,
For you to see what I’ve hid inside,
It's nothing much, it's just a sachet,
With calming smell of flowers dried...

Open the sachet and U will find,
The debris and dusts trapped inside,
Bring it home and clean it with air,
Let the dusts go away but the colour stays fair...

Pay a visit to your garden of eden,
And drag the sachet through the flowers,
Pick the daisies with the other hand,
Selecting with patience, even for hours…

When we meet up for English tea and scones,
Bring the sachet and daisies for me,
I am not of any type of Molly Jones,
Just the type U rarely see...

Diamonds are good, and good for life,
How about people who constantly strive?,
Despite 4 seasons that repeats itself,
There’ll never be the same books on the shelf...

If Men were to last and Women to extinct,
When will these ruthless wars ever end?
If Women were to last and Men to extict,
When will there be a cosmic blend?...

If both genders were to last,
Which reef will U pick to meet your fate?
Clock ticks and oh so fast,
Are U ready to cross the final gate?...

:: | LuV... ::

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I know you’re here, in the dark
I’m watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less cuz you know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know (I'm safe)
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your lovin for me
We can’t escape the love
With everything that you have

:: 4 a.m. by Gwen Steffani, to Bobby with Love... ::

:: d|sCoNtEnTeD ::

people say, it is often best to just shut up and not saying anything when there's nothing good to say....

but is shutting the fuck up always best?
often times i get stepped on the head..no, more like SQUASHED on the head, just because i kept my bloody mouth SHUT.



I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF NONSENSE & PEOPLE CONTROLLING MY GODDAMN LIFE.

:: kEpAdA pArA pEn|pU ::

how do u FEEL kan...when somebody whom u trusted sooo f***ing much, whom also told u ALLLL these sweet SHITS about being honest la ape lan*** la kan, caught red handed on lying....

one fine day, someone really trustworthy and paling best, the person itself and the people related to the bullshit happened behind unrevealed the whole gruesome truth ACCIDENTALLY...

ok mmg la cite lame kan...tapi sakit hati tak? rase cam nak gi cekik, bunuh, ludah, u name it...
bengang nak mampos....xtau knape, but bengang nak mati...

I hope KARMA takes its path soon...like SUPER soon....tak sabar tgk orang2 camni kene balik...
SEDAP sial kalau kena....let me have the first laugh....i hope ur paths ahead will be filled with poison ivy....

B****!

oh ya, one more thing...THANKS for not prolonging the FAKE friendship and/or relationship...i don't think i could ever forgive myself if i were never to walk away.

:: cOnTeNt :) ::

blessed with tremendous friends, my 3 weeks at home so far have been such a blast...
went out every single day with bob and alia...eh chop, alia ade la 2-3 hari JE yang curang ngan i, die gi dating ngan A.J. heheh....

watched Shrek, Pirates @ OU with my sayang...this wed tgk Ocean's 13 plak! Triple date agi weehooo!!!

Had a superb dinner (SLASH "gathering") @ Alia's house...I made my first lasagne in Malaysia weih gile bangga! hahaha..AND my own mushroom gravy k! gile gempak...of course Alia tolong la kan...hehe...oh ya...FARRAH NAJWA tak datang, kurang aja nye minah, penat2 i masak tunggang terbalik smue! chis!....

Also went to Asiacafe to meet up with Alia, Farah and Emmy...Farrah AGAIN stood us up! kau mmg sial la weih! tunggu ar kau...

Went to Sakae Sushi @ Subang Parade for Father's Day...Papa was all smiles (dah kate die suke sangat ngan sushi and teppanyaki kan, nak buat camne! hehe)...at first papa wanted 2 just have dinner at Uncle Lim's...boleh tak? gile korok celebrate die, makan tempat camtu, haih bapak aku ni...nak simple pon bertempat la please...hehe

Oh ya...my 1st Sem, so far alhamdulillah....dapat 3As and 1B...hope to score straight As la kan next sem...Bismillah...pray for me please k u guys?....

Today was just simply special...made English breakfast for my Bobby, then we went out to Pyramid...he got himself a new pair of shirt..hehe cute sangat! then we bought tons of BREAD from Bread Story (Alia mesti gelak gile part ni, sebab die tau i hantu kedai tu hehe), then i bought crunchy popiah..oh best...pastu beli fruit juice, and all of a sudden, kandaku gile plak mengidam laksa...ape lagi, straight gi Laksa Shack (camtu eh eja? hehe) and die pelahap one whole bowl..ya rabi...
Pastu dua2 ngantuk, balik umah, layan DVD...we watched Next...was cool ass!...eh lupe plak..
before layan DVD tuh, i helped Mommy out with dinner...wash, cut all the meat, vege, shallots, garlic and ginger....pastu boil the egg noodle..pastu mami masak smue! hehehe...
My mom has this "thing" in her...she'll only tell u the ingredients of a dish, but NEVER really put into detail of how to cook it step by step...senang cite, my mom ni jenis GI BELAJAR SENDIRI...hehe...

oh, and AGAIN, i was supposed to go out yamcha with Farrah @ Melur, and about 20 mins later, she called to say that she couldn't make it, had to send the dad to the clinic la plak.. adeehh.. kau ni kang aku malas nak ajak gi mane2 dah merajuk plak? btol tak? hehehe

Anyway, I guess that's about it for today...am tired, me wanna get a shut-eye...nite!

aNd | tUrN 23... :)

30th May marked the anniversary of my birth...there wasn't much of a celebration, but my friends yg tengah sengkek gile pon sanggup kuar duit n arranged a lovely dinner and coffee/tea @ TTDI...
thanx u guys, so much....

i didn't snap any of the girls' picture though,just had the guys'...hehe...sorry...

and yes, 2 great gifts received...one from Mommy and Papa, my very own Olympus digital SLR!! weehhooo!!! yes aaahhhhh!!!!!

AND...paling x sangka...i received this super cute balloon + teddy bear from my sayang! now, why is that such an astonishing fact?... BECAUSE he doesn't celebrate birthdays!!! and he did that just for me coz he knows how much it means to me... :) now, how sweet can my baby be? yeehhaa!!!

I LUV MY LIFE!!!!

Learning the hard way..Is it always best?...

have u ever felt so shitty not having the power to make people change their minds for their own good?..like literally and unbiasly?

almost everyone of us has been or maybe had been hurt before..emotionally that is...
well...some of my friends are going through such a hard time deciding what's best for each, letting go of the past, moving on and gulping the hard truth...

it's so saddening to know that we dont't have the power to influence people's minds over matters which we may have more knowledge of...we tried, and tried...but eventually we let go, letting our friends take up the decision that we adamantly know, will hurt very much...

but then again..i guess everyone deserves to be hurt...why?
because most of the time, people think with their hearts, not brains...
and this happens especially when it comes to making decisions within relationships...
of course, we would not want to see our friends in pain...
but that's like stealing away their rights on being human beings...
they deserve to be hurt, and hence learn from mistakes...
that's what makes them stronger, wiser, more vibrant...if not as soon, they will be someday..
but at least we do not set paths for them...for they are just like how we were...

i know it gets pretty frustrating to just keep on giving advices..the very same one everytime...
but that's just it...we have to teach our friends to think for themselves...and taking up consenquences of each actions for themselves...

well, i guess learning the hard way is just best...look at me..i'm still standing tall and proud :)

:: |n mY pLayL|sT ::

Took a right to the end of the line
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the (longings) the same.
(Where the dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help.)

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax

:: Relax by Mika ::

:: Sm|Le My LuV... :) ::

Sayang...

I am aware of the fact that we're both not perfect to any extend... and I know that u've been through some pretty shit-ass relationships before..but that definitely didn't stop u from moving on...and I thank you for that..for giving me a chance to luv u, and for giving urself a chance to luv me...

Nothing is ever certain...like a saying, "We make our own plans and arrangements,but at the end of the day, it's God who makes the call"...

I know what u went through sayang..I was there..I was the one who comforted you...and I honestly had no intentions whatsoever to turn that into an opportunity...You know how I am,you know that I was never, and will never be, an opportunist...

I can't wait 2 go home...5000 miles is just too far...and months without you is just too long...thank you for shadowing me with your luv and affection...I am forever grateful...

I hope 2 years is soon enough...so soon that we didn't even realize that we've actually started living under one roof, sharing the same bed...and starting our very own life-long love story... I luv u Mohd. Khairul Nizam...and I won't let anyone come in between us...

hEaRt-MeLtEr...

Mungkin kau takkan pernah tahu
Betapa mudahnya
Kau untuk di kagumi
Mungkin kau takkan pernah sadar
Betapa mudahnya
Kau untuk di cintai

Akulah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu mengintaimu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Akulah orang yang akan selalu mengintaimu

Karena hanya dengan perasaan
rinduku yang dalam padamu
Kupertahankan hidup
Maka hanya dengan jejak-jejak hatimu
Ada artiku telusuri hidup ini
Selamanya hanya ku bisa memujamu
Selamanya hanya ku bisa merindukanmu

:: Pemuja Rahasia by So7 ::

thank you khairul nizam sayang...

a Rad|caL cHaNgE?

hmmm.....
a friend told me that i've made some astonishing changes within myself...
apart from me putting more weight (which i find super annoying), friends said that i've actually learned to stand up 4 myself...and yes, despite me being obnoxiuos, i had not been the person i was supposed to be...

i found grace and self-worth throughout the years...not only does age plays an effect, but also circle of friends...although u might think that my friends are all crappy and childish, hey, look around you...aren't yours too?...

or perhaps you've been too in denial to face the fact that u ain't that worthy enough at playing the next Hitler...

moving away from that, and back to my topic of interest, ARE MY FRIENDS THAT CHILDISH?
i believe NOT...not at all...
you see..there's a fine line between being childish and playing smart...and the majority of my friends are definitely the latter..the fact that my friends have this great ability of creating a synergy between dreams and reality makes them wise people...and of course, we all learn from each other...we create WISDOM within ourselves...

my friends and I had this great deal of consensus, on motivating, supporting and encouraging each other, not only towards improvement, but also towards sensible and logical thinking... at the same time, being the optimistic pessimist, just to not let arrogance come in between... making ourselves transparent towards each other, and making our wisdom quite apparent amongst ourselves...

if u think i'm great..then thank you very much..but I owe it all to my friends...
and the person who turned my life around, successfully making radical changes upon me...
he's none other than my beloved boyfriend...whom insyaallah, with God's will, will soon become a part of my future... :)

I nEeD mY bObBy... :'( n eVeRyOnE eLsE...

i've not been well...
the temp s dropping below 10...
i've not had a good night sleep since i got back...
my blood pressure's dropping (coz my freakin ear hasn't stop ringing!)...
i'm getting fatigueness more often than i used to...
my heart beated tremendously out-of-pace...
i had trouble breathing...
i feel like vomiting almost every morning (NO, I AM NOT PREGNANT, THANK U!)...
all my muscles are pulling...
and my eyes don't seem to be fans of the sun anymore...
and the nerves at the back of my head are boxing each other on every other day...

help...please...anyone?....sayang?...where are uuuuuuuuuu!! uwaaaaaa!!!!

:: a WoRk oF aRt ::

i bet everyone of you who compiled this priceless (in a very good way) scrapbook could remember it like it was just yesterday...the book still makes me weep...

thank you so much...i am utmost grateful....

i have such wonderful friends...luv u guys so much...

:: m|nD-bOggLeR ::

there are 2 sides to a coin...cliche isn't it?

Well, i've learnt something new in Terry's class on our first day...and i've been relating it to practically everything that has been going on around me...

pick a coin...u know there are 2 sides to it..ok...
now, look at the coin closely...what do u see?... DETAILS...
next, hold that coin as far as ur arm could stretch...what do u see?... A COIN...
next, flip the coin, and bring it back closer, and what do u see?... NEW SET of DETAILS...

hah..ain't that worth thinking?...
new acquaintances?...new friends?...new boyfriend?...new business?...new car?
or simply the old ones that u haven't "analyzed"...

don't be judgemental..remember, there's just not only 2 SIDES to a COIN...
there's definitely more to it...

Have a pleasant sleep!

:: |nSeRt T|tLe ::

i don't know why..
i feel so..gloomy today...
maybe it's the weather..or maybe it's the workload...or maybe it's the food that i've been eating...
or maybe because i miss someone...no...i miss everyone...

i wanna go home........

i don't know what 2 feel...i just wanna go home..........

A sWeEt mEmOrY...

Sunday, 12:30 a.m. Australian time...

I was just browsing through my posts..and never realized that i've written so much, for so long...
I couldn't stop smiling and shed a few tears when i read my own writs, and the comments from my dear friends...

The loyal readers and commentors (ade such word ke?! hehe) have always been Fiza, Khair, Aiman, Aref, Syak, Balee, Fadhil, Aliya, Farah Nadz, Farrah Najwa, Aimi and Emmy..and oh ya, Mr. Anonymous...Lately Alia and Evie started reading n commenting too..hehe

I honestly feel happy and oftenly moved by these comments...i don't know why..but they all seem to find a very efficient and fast way to get 2 my heart...

I've read back on my heartaches, my internship, my convocation, the birth of my nephews and the day I met the guy who stole my heart...I couldn't believe it has been almost a year that we've known each other..hehe...

I believe that these agendas have helped shape me to the person I am now...the achievements i've made...the things that failed to break me and thus made me stronger...the endless attention and love i've been poured with by my family, friends and khairul nizam...

Seriously...I would repeat this again...I will never, ever wanna lose any of you...no one could EVER replace any of you...you've been a significant part of my life, the food when i starve and the sun when i'm in darkness...thank you so much...endless...endless gratitude...

I'm HaPpY.. :)

Bob dah keje..yeeesss!!!! yes my dear friends, die dah keje k!
My results so far have been of straight As..alhamdulillah!!!!! 3 more assgmts to go! bismillah...

I'm happy to hear that my friends are all doing well back home...
Aref, brand exec @ DDB...i told u u could do it!
Anas, keje kat spore...lagi gempak...
Alia, 3 more sems to go kan?! u go girl! dah la pandai nak mati minah ni...nyampah!..hehe
Emmy, hold on to ur new love, he's a great guy... :)
Farrah, cepat masuk uni balik please...hehehe
Farah, ni lagi gile, siap dah tuka keje! i blaja tak sudah2! hahaha
Khair n Fiza, half month to go and u guys are DONE!!!!! weehoo!!!!
Aiman, cmon babe, skit je lagi....cmon cmon!!
Zana, train, jgn tak train..jgn sedut byk sgt habuk from kipas babi besar kapal terbang tu! hahah

Riena and Lyn, elok2 keje n prepare for wedding..tak sabar k! jgn clash plak! hehe
Erin, jgn meronggeng je keje, tau la happy si lyn dah ade sane kan.. :P
Aud, blaja elok2...kau dah nak abis kan..hehehe
Roudha, work smart girl..look at how u've achieved..i'm proud of u :)
Jamy, Lily, keje takyah lebih2 sgt weih...futsal tetap futsal! hehehe kiddiinnn!

Last but not least....SAYANG I LOVE YOU!!!!
i miss u guys so mucchhh!!! i'll be home soon ya! muah muah!

No Appropriate Title

i wanna get married soon..
i wanna have kids...
i want a home that i go back to n cook 4 my hubby n have dinners together...
i wanna argue with my hubby over which channel is better to watch...
i wanna go travelling with hubby...
i wanna go for breeze walks and/or evening jogs with hubby...
i wanna have a marriage that lasts at least for 30 years...

so...ANY TAKERS?...
pfft...

Another Soul Spared...Another Life Starts...

A friend at school..a junior..very bubbly, famous among the girls back in Seaport High...he was the captain for our house, just after we stepped down and said our goodbyes to our daily uniforms...

I've always heard of his personal problems..they were just neverending..not that i'm annoyed, but it really hits me hard to see his sorrow and the effort of not revealing it...i know how hard it is,really i do..coz i've been dealing with it for the first 17 years of my life...moreover that it concerns family...

I was on my way back to my lovely apartment in Lilydale with Sai, Sandy and Malin, when suddenly an sms from home came in..it was from aref, and again, a sobbing story... First it was arwah hani...and just a week ago, dear nicholas...i just couldn't believe what i read...it was a suicide case...rumours had that he jumped off a building...and another said he slitted himself in the toilet, and bled to death... friends also said that he converted to islam just a few days before the incident...

why nicholas...whhhhhyyyyy????.....there are soo many ways to deal with problems..ya allah...i went blanked and stumped...i still can't believe it happened..
i just can't....
may ur soul rest in peace...

Ian Nicholas...1985-2007

melbourne part II

Yup there u go..the memorable events...i miss everyone so much...
i'm so stressed up...banyak sgt keje..i have like daily assignments, and 12 major ones which is like dued a week apart from each...ya allah bagi la semangat..padan muke, buat masters lagi...

sayang, i miss u so much...tunggu i balik k...pastu kite gi futsal k?! uwaaa...
i was so emotional when papa left...he was giving me all these "kata2 semangat" which led me to tears..yes sayang, i will be strong...mami, thank u so much for your prayers..i'm sorry i had to leave u all alone at home..i luv u mami...sayang, i dok dgr so7 ngan satu hati..bagi i semangat ari2 nak gi class... :)

i've gained weight i believe...makan tak sudah2 sebab sejuk nak mati...i spent like 500 freakin dollars on shopping, oh MADNESS! hahaha...gile spoilt..whatever!...i need the therapy ok haha..
summer just said its goodbyes 3 days ago..autumn is kickin in..mati aku...
during summer, i've witnessed sumthin beyond my imagination...CLEAR BLUE SKY...
during the day, it's all BLUE..nothing else..it's like a beautiful painting...at night, its sooo beautiful, stars shone so brightly...my place is just picturesque..perfect...i'm all burnt, summer nye pasal...

oh ya...it's like a jungle down here..there's kookabura, which is a bird that laughs like a monkey, LITERALLY, babi terkejut everytime jln gi class ya allah..there are wild rabbits running around, fox pon ade ok! AND paling BEST..one morning, i was having breakfast, and there were two beautiful parrots at my balcony! one red+blue, the other green+blue..ya allah jakun gile tgk binatang tuh terbang sekali ngan buruk gagak sini (gagak sini besar nak mampos, warna putih atas n hitam bawah)...ya allah memang pelik...petang2 best, sebab i can go jogging around the lake...tapi baru buat sekali..hehe..i'm too occupied man.. hari2 pon exhausted...

i made freinds with sooo many people..so far paling rapat are Nicole (local, my housemate, the one in pink stripes in the pic), Jess (a Kiwi, somehwhat local,my housemate, the one in red hood), Pumi (Sri Lankan, the first who met me and showed me around, also my housemate), Sai (Singaporean guy, best sebab bole kutuk in BM haha), Soo Young (Japanese, been residing in OZ for like 3 years).. then there are a few others..Amanda, Sally, Daisy, Utaka, Sayaka, Edel, Sandi, King, Kid, Raven dan ramai lagi..hehe.. Jaycee (Malaysian, woohoo!) and Jeff (Chinese) are my coursemates (yes, kitorg 3 org je), Joy, Oak, Bharav(kot?) and Alice are my seniors in the same course...they're all helpful..
My lecturers are freakin cool..There's Terry (an English guy who has been residing in OZ for a lil over 20 years), his wife, Carole, Jill (super cool), Marg (a bit strict) and Yvette (the funkiest lecturer ever!)...Terry is super cool..he lepaks with me mase break, siap bole isap rokok with me kat luar dan duduk atas tiles sambil borak2 ok! hahaha...the others smue best la basically.. they want us to call them by their first names, buat cam member...mmg best...

oi panjangnye entry..i guess that's about it...hope to go through my first semester well and try as much to save up on my allowances...nak simpan duit dalam bank and accumulate interests banyak2 nak mati so that banyak duit extra boleh balik! woohooo!! tapi lambat sgt lagi la kan, unfortunately..oh well...time passes by...i won't let papa and mami down, insya allah...
pray 4 me u guys...much luv...alhamdulillah for all these opportunities...i should start my coming days with bismillah...ya allah, help me through...